Pen To Paper

 

I start to put my pen to  paper

Before a word gets out I start to waiver

What if the darkness is too much for them to bear?

What if their reaction is they just don’t care?

No one will care, that’s what one voice shouts

No one cares what you are all about

Can I really let all the words go?

No, no, I can never let them know

I crumple it up and toss it away

Who really wants to hear what I have to say?

I will let the words vanish before I put pen to paper

Do they really want to hear my dreams?

Are they as impossible to reach as they seem?

I see the stars so far out of my reach

What words to toss, which to keep?

So many doubts controlling my thoughts

If I wrote a book would one copy be bought?

Throwing away more words in the trash

How long will I’m not good enough last?

How will my words make them feel?

Before I let the words become real

I will let the words vanish before I put pen to paper

I guess these words are coming from somewhere

Should I waste them by throwing them over there?

Here comes the truth, even though it may hurt

The voices in my head sometimes sound like a concert

One telling me this, one telling me that

One telling me to move forward, the other to go back

Twisted thoughts do battle with words of hope

Letting them all out is the only way I can cope

I look to God for a little inspiration

A few words of His He  gives me as a donation

I will let the words… No, no,  I will put pen to paper

 

Words I Would Say by Sidewalk Prophets – 

If I Could Just Get It On Paper by Jimmy Buffet – 

Blank Sheet Of Paper by Tim McGraw – 

In This Diary by The Ataris – 

Pen To Paper by Jay Clark  – 

Pen To Paper by Kevin Skies – 

 

Let Me See Her

 

My neck hurts from looking behind

A memory flashed and I lost my mind

I wasn’t here but in another time

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

It’s like I take one step forward and two steps back

I pray to God to let me move but I sit here while the devil attacks

I’ve been here so many times I think I’ve lost track

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

I know God that she’s your daughter

Let me see her like You do

I know in your hands you got her

Let me see her like you do

I know what she did , that’s not her

Let me see her like you do

It’s crazy how life got in the way

We grew apart until that fateful day

That’s the day she decided not to pray

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

Oh God let me forget, I just wanna forget

Maybe the lesson to be learned hasn’t happened yet

Her sins are forgiven , You paid that debt

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

I know God that she’s your daughter

Let me see her like You do

I know in your hands you got her

Let me see her like you do

I know what she did , that’s not her

Let me see her like you do

Oh God I’m tired of being angry

Oh God I know this person isn’t me

Oh God help me to see, help me to see

Oh God Help me to forgive

Oh God I just want to live

Oh God to Your will let me submit

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

Let me see her God like you do

Let me see her God like you do

Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath – 

Daughter Of The King by Tricia Brock – 

In The Eyes by 1 Girl Nation – 

Father’s Eyes by Mark Schultz – 

His Eyes by Steven Curtis Chapman – 

Beloved by Jordan Feliz – 

Beloved Child by Tru-Serva – 

Beloved by Lara Landon – 

 

Close Your Eyes by Michael Buble –  

 

Angry

Gave You My Heart

 

I came home from work Friday night and Kim told me Deanna, one of her best friends and mentor, told her about a vision her daughter had. Her daughter just finished her freshman year of college and truly lives for Jesus.  Deanna said maybe Rob can turn her vision into a poem or a song. I took Kylie up to get her shower ready and sat down and this is what came out.

It is truly an inspiring vision and I hope my words do it justice.

Gave You My Heart

I gave you my heart and you walked away

You’re my dad, you were supposed to stay

I couldn’t keep it all together today

I grabbed what was left of my heart and walked to the beach

Walked far enough until your memory was out of reach

I screamed at you dad until I was too hoarse to speak

Then I saw a piece of sea glass so bright

It had such a mysterious light

It was like a piece of day in the darkest night

I bent down and dug with my free hand

There had to be more pieces under the sand

That’s when I felt the presence of another man

It was like a dream as my other hand held my heart

The one that you, dad, had ripped apart

Then I had a thought, this isn’t the end but a brand new start

I felt this man telling me to turn in his direction

But I couldn’t so I grabbed my sea glass collection

And I tried to hold a piece just right to see his reflection

I couldn’t turn around, I knew what he wanted me to do

I couldn’t give him my heart dad, I had given it to you

And I was scared he would walk away with it too

Then his hand touched my shoulder

My courage grew just a little bit bolder

My tears started to flow as I began to molder

I turned and as he reached for me I saw the scars on his hand

He looked at me and I knew he wasn’t just a man

That’s when I dropped my sea glass in the sand

I let him hold me for what seemed like an hour

I could feel his gentleness, as well as his power

I felt his love pour down on me like a summer shower

I whispered, “If I give you me heart will you walk away?”

He said “I’m your father. I’ve never left, I will always stay.”

I knew he was telling the truth so I gave my heart to him that day

(image credit: Kevin Carden Photography)

Busted Heart ( Hold On To Me) by For King and Country – 

Let Down Your Guard by JJ Heller – 

Every Beat Of My Broken Heart by Hawk Nelson – 

Take  A Broken Heart by V Rose – 

I Let My Heart Open by Charles Billinsgley –  

 

Here’s My Heart by Lauren Daigle – 

Friend Of A Wounded Heart by Point of Grace-  

 

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Hitchcock Movies

I wrote this one today, thought about saving it because it’s different than most of the other songs I have written.  I picture it being harder, faster,  maybe Skillet, Thousand Foot Krutch or NF could take it on. LOL, I can only dream.  Well, since I have all but given up on my words becoming songs you get to be the first ones to see what’s in my head today. After all, it seems like every time I give up on something in my life, God steps in so….. I will wait, I know in God’s time and His will. Maybe it will never happen.  Until it does or until it doesn’t….I will let God take these words where He wants them to go.  I will keep writing what He puts in my head.

Hitchcock Movies
I wanna be a Marvel superhero

But I always feel like I’m less than zero

Did I just say that? Let me push rewind

Man I’ve been messed up a long time

I want the whole world to know my name

Maybe I’m just playing the wrong game

I can’t believe these choices I make

Man, I think I’m losing my way, I’ve lost my way

It’s like I’m tearing my world apart

Ripping out my heart, do I have a heart?

Can’t you see me? Can’t you see me? Can’t you see….

It seems like I have Hitchcock movies playing in my head

I have killer birds and psycho killers

I don’t know what I’m gonna do, my soul is dead

I only need one thing but I have all these fillers

 

I push you away, tell you to leave

Then ask, why won’t you reach out to me?

Why are all these demons in my head?

Man, I’d be better off dead, am I already dead?

I want to rip out my brain, am I going insane?

If I’m being honest I know I’m the only one to blame

Oh my God what have I done?

Oh my God what have I become?

Can’t you see me? Can’t you see me? Can’t you see….

It seems like I have Hitchcock movies playing in my head

I have killer birds and psycho killers

I don’t know what I’m gonna do, my soul is dead

I only need one thing but I have all these fillers

I’m on my knees

Begging you please

Take my life, take my life, take my life

Cut these demons out, I’ll give you the knife

Can’t you see I’ve hit the bottom

I’m no longer fighting Him, fighting Him

Rip off these chains

Take my shame

You alone have taken my sin, You alone give me reason to live

You alone forgive all, You alone forgive all, You alone forgive

You can see me, You can see me, I know you see….

It seems like I have Hitchcock movies playing in my head

I have killer birds and psycho killers

I don’t know what I’m gonna do, my soul is dead

I only need one thing but I have all these fillers

I only need one thing

Fully Known by JJ Heller – 

Guard Your Heart by 1 Girl Nation –  

Outta My Mind by Anthem Lights – 

Therapy Session by NF – 

Madness In Me by Skillet – 

Running With Giants by Thousand Foot Krutch – 

 

Random Thoughts In A Poem

 

Why is where I park my car called a driveway?

Remember when the doctor said you wouldn’t make it through the day?

Ten years later and you still haven’t ran on a runway

Who was the first person who thought “I think I’ll boil those eggs!”?

Who was the first woman who said ” I need to shave my legs!”?

What makes us think we will never be the guy on the corner who begs

If the sky was green and the land was blue

Would it even affect me or you?

Do you spell two to or too?

How do you pronounce read? Is it read or red?

What about the word lead? Is it lead or led?

All depends but in this case let’s go with feed and not fed

Remember when you never were sick

And your thoughts weren’t so easy to forget

And ole Rover wasn’t too tired to fetch his stick?

I love how the morning is so quiet

Why does it seem like  only some people riot?

Why do so many people fail when they diet?

Here is one thing I bet you thought you’d never miss

Your parents giving you a good night kiss

If you had just one wish , what would you wish?

Why is Teresa Palmer so hot?

Now that’s a random thought

One I probably should think not

Have you ever imagined a world without hypothetical situations ?

Why do people not use all their vacations?

Why is there so much war when we have the United Nations?

Why can’t they make the entire plane with the same material as the black box?

If 7/11 is open 24 hours then why do the doors have locks ?

Why do trucks haul SHIPments but a ship unloads the CARgo on the docks?

I remember the day you were born

I held you in my arms and kept you warm

God and I, we will give you comfort in the storm

Would we still read Dr. Seuss Cat In The Hat

If instead of a cat, it was a bat or even a rat?

The Grinch, I wonder how he thought of that?

Would you take a million dollars

If all you had to do was say your favorite colors?

The smartest people are not always just the scholars

My nose stays in one place so why does it run?

When did I let life be so difficult I quit having fun?

How will I be remembered when this life is done?

When I’m exhausted, why does the morning come so soon?

How do things get their name, like the sun, stars, and the moon?

Hey guess what? My birthday is in June

Would all my problems be solved if I had more money?

Why does Kayhla think clowns are scary and not funny?

Don’t ask me why we pronounce bologna  like it ends with an e

Why is a boxing ring a square?

Who ever told you life was fair?

Why am I here? Why are you there?

Why is the slowest traffic of the day called rush hour?

How does Teflon stick to the pan?

Why doesn’t glue stick to the inside of a bottle?

Yes I know those three didn’t rhyme

But why don’t sheep shrink when it rains from time to time?

“How was you day?”  Why do I always say fine?

Why is there Braille on drive thru ATM?

Why do they stay when they are abused by them?

Why do people find it so hard to believe in Him?

Why do they find it so hard to believe that Jesus did come?

They say because they can’t see Him or all He has done

Well my friends, I can’t see the air that fills my lungs

How do some bloggers, in a month, get six thousand followers?

If I’m lucky, I might have sixty seven by tomorrow

Maybe a few of theirs they would let me borrow

Remember when you ate those bugs?

Remember when you said you’d never do drugs?

Man, I wish you were still here to give you hugs

Here is more food for thought

Would you cheat if you knew you wouldn’t be caught?

Yes? Then the person I think you are is the person you are not

 

This is getting long so I think I’ll part

These are just some thoughts from my head and my heart

One more thing, do you put the horse before the cart?

Some random new songs I like:

 

Work Harder by Zach Dubois –  

Better Man by Sixx AM – 

Oh Lord by NF – 

Boxes by Goo Goo Dolls – 

Better Than Yourself by Lukas Graham – 

Break On Me by Keith Urban – 

Beautiful Day by Take 6 – 

 

Graduation Song

 

May is graduation month. I wrote this a year ago.  Hope you like it.  Let’s turn it into a song-  contact me.

Graduation Song

Going off to college
Filling your head with knowledge
Don’t wish away your youth
Never forget God is the truth

Maybe college isn’t your thing

Maybe you have some other dream

Don’t be afraid to reach for the stars
Having a good character will take you far

When challenges face you
Ask what would Jesus do
When you are pressured
Remember in God you are treasured

Put your faith in Jesus
He is always with us
When you are up late at night
I pray you will do what is right

My child, going out on your own
Hard to believe how fast you’ve grown
I know in God’s arms you will be held
I put my trust in He who has never failed

Choose your friends wisely
Don’t follow them blindly
Call home more than you thought you would
Say I love you more than you think you should

Don’t forget where you come from
Remember when this life is done
You will account for your time on this earth
Did you live for what His dying was worth

Forgive as you have been forgiven
Be joyful in this life you are livin’
Smile and laugh, speak of Him often
His words are never to be forgotten

My child, going out on your own
Hard to believe how much you’ve grown
I know in God’s arms you will be held
I put my trust in He who has never failed

Our house will always be your home
It’s hard to believe how fast you’ve grown
Enjoy life, you won’t be alone in the big out there
God’s promises, our love, we will always care

My child, going out on your own
Hard to believe how much you’ve grown
I know in God’s arms you will be held
I put my trust in He who has never failed

I put my trust in He who has never failed

Keep In Mind by Locash Cowboys – 

Be Careful Out There by Regina Belle – 

Find Your Wings by Mark Harris – 

My Wish by Rascal Flatts – 

I Hope You Dance by Lee Ann Womack – 

Graduation (Friends Forever) by Vitamin C –  

In These Halls by Madilyn Bailey – 

Now for those of us parents, here are a couple funny ones because we know what’s about to happen :

Graduation Song by Rhett & Link – 

High School Never Ends by Bowling For Soup – 

If I Were An Island

 

If I were an island

In the Caribbean Sea

Would you come hold my hand?

Would you visit me ?

If I were a mountain

How high would you climb?

If the winds were poundin’

Would you keep looking if you ran out of time?

If I were an ocean

If the waves would turn and toss

How deep is your devotion?

Would you still sail across?

If I were a desert

If the sun was beating down

Would you walk until you hurt ?

How far would you go for me to be found?

If I were the sky

Would you say there’s not a chance?

Or would you learn to fly?

Overcome the circumstance

If I asked you to take my place

Could you ignore all the chaos?

Would you give me the same grace?

If it were you instead of Me on that cross

Would you crawl, walk, run?

How far would you go, what would you do?

Do you understand what I’ve done?

Do you not realize how much I love you?

Get Here by Oleta Adams – 

No Place Your Love Won’t Go by Mark Schultz – 

I Am Not Alone by Kari Jobe – 

How Far I’ll Go by Micky & The Motorcars – 

Where The Street’s Have No Name by U2 – 

How Deep The Father’s Love by many but I chose Austin Stone – 

This Man by Jeremy Camp – 

What Has Happened? 

 

Normally on my days off I “sleep in” until 7-730.  This morning, I was awakened at 5:57 with these words and they just came pouring out. I can only say God was moving early this morning.

Five year old little man

Doesn’t seem to quite understand

Why he only sees his dad every other weekend

What has happened to til death do us part, do not commit adultery?


Everyone only looking out for number one

They don’t give a crap about the damage they’ve done

Only living for the moment , living for fun

What has happened to caring about someone else?


In a democracy we now have the minority that rules

We have men able to use the bathroom of my little girl

I just can’t comprehend what’s happening to this world

What has happened? God, what is happening?

When did our homes become a house of cards

My feelings, when did you start to disregard?

Man, life isn’t supposed to be this hard

What has happened to the golden rule ?


Hurting each other no matter the cost

Will there be another holocaust?

Can’t we see all we’ve lost, we’ve all lost

What has happened, what happened to my voice?


The entire world seems to be living in sin

They don’t care about the way they live

They don’t care about how little they give

What has happened to compassion and empathy?

The animals go extinct at alarming pace

The judges common sense has been erased

Since when does every one have to win the race?

What has happened to one nation, under God, indivisible with liberty and justice for all?

We spend more than we make

Keeping up with Jones’ for the Smith’s sake

When are we going to wake up? Are you awake?

What has happened to saving for a future?


When the majority stands up to the few we get pulled under

Shows get cancelled , majority loses, is it any wonder ?

We sit by and watch it get worse, can you hear the distant thunder?

What has happened God,  how much longer ?

Health care can’t afford, no worries, someone else will pay

Climate change, getting warmer each and every day

Claim ignorance is bliss if you can’t hear what I say

What has happened to living how Jesus taught us to be ?

The ones that are to protect us are killing

The ones that are to save our money are stealing

Our kids won’t get better when dealers are dealing

What has happened to integrity and honesty ?


People killing people in our streets,  in our cities

Sending our soldiers  to fight wars in other countries

This world’s a mess, has it ever been pretty?

What has happened to love God, love your neighbor?

Our government allows sugar and toxic chemicals in our food

Our tv shows, our music, our words are becoming more lewd

My words represent the majority yet they are booed

What has happened to treating people right instead of just making a profit?

Not too long ago the Cold War came to an end

The Berlin Wall fell, reuniting family and friends

Today, new rules, new laws, borders changing without end

What has happened ? God what is happening?

God and me, we love you for who you are

If you live near me or if you live afar

Look  up, we are all living under the same stars

What has happened to my rights and what I believe in?


We’ve taken God out of schools, work and lives

We tell Him we don’t need Him then run and hide

Then we have the nerve to ask God why

What has happened? I ask you my friends, what is happening?

Something To Believe In by Poison  (alternate lyrics) – 

Something To Believe In by Poison (original lyrics) – 

Happiness by NeedToBreathe – 

Never Too Far Gone by Jordan Feliz – 

Breathe by Jonny Diaz – 

It’s Not Over Yet by For King & Country – 

Faith To Believe by Shane & Shane – 

Believe by Letter Black – 

Believer by DecembeRadio –  

A Daughter’s Gift

 

Part three of three poems I wrote many moons ago. If you missed part one or part two here they are :  A Mother’s Gift     A Father’s Gift

A Daughter’s Gift

I am too small to  speak

And I am still oh so weak

I don’t understand what you are saying

I will try to figure It out while I am playing

Don’t know what it is, but I’m missing something

From what you say daddy, she’s in Heaven with wings

I know I cry and I pout

But daddy, I am just trying to figure out

How someone could be taken away

Without me hearing one word she would say

I can hear the care and love in your voice

Even when I am making all this noise

You don’t know this but I hear you cry

When you think you are alone, I hear you ask why

Just promise me you will love me no matter what

And I’ll try to remember things I already forgot

If I remember right, mommy left so I could live

I won’t let you or her down , that’s the gift I give

You Should Be Here by Cole Swindell – 

Heaven’s Garden by Kieran Brennan and  Paul Kealy – 

If You Could See Me Now by The Script – 

Best Seat In The House by Locash Cowboys –  

I Still Miss You by Hawk Nelson – 

I Miss You by NllU – 

Go On Without Me by Brett Eldredge – 

With Hope by Steven Curtis Chapman – 

 

A Father’s Gift

 

The second of three poems I am sharing this week that I wrote a long time ago.

If you missed the first one here it is:  A Mother’s Gift

I also posted another poem on Monday about spending time with your significant other, you can find it here :  If It’s Only An Hour

A Father’s Gift
It’s just you and me now

We will get by somehow

I promise to give you all my love

You’ll always be who I’m thinking of

I know you’re sad, I am too

Oh no baby , I don’t regret you

I know that we lost your mother

So you may never have a sister or a brother

I know no one will ever take her place

Someday, you may be asked to let another be that face

Until then, it will be just you and I

So we must remember, even when we don’t know why

Everything happens for a reason

Good and bad, in every season

We’ll both make mistakes, but nothing you ever do

Could ever, ever , take away my love for you 

A Fathers Love For His Daughter (commercial) – 

Don’t Take The Girl by Tim McGraw – 

Car In Front Of Me by Luke Bryan – 

Save A Place For Me by Matthew West – 

Without You by For King & Country – 

Sissy’s Song by Alan Jackson – 

One More Day by Diamond Rio – 

If I Had Only Known by Reba McEntire – 

Say Hello To Heaven by Collin Raye –