Memories Crash

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How long has it been

My memory isn’t what it used to be

I try to remember when

But the memory seems to escape me

What your face looked like

How your voice sounded

As hard as I try and try

How many times? I haven’t counted

But everything is slowly slipping away

I move forward toward tomorrow

But God, how I wish I had one more day

If I had one more minute I could borrow

But I don’t and that’s how life goes

Another day, another memory fades

But I wish, I want you to know

I wish I said then the things I have to say

Your smile and the lines on your face

I try to recall the way you would laugh

Now I sit and talk to you at your grave

Trying to recall but more memories crash

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Dad’s Old Number by Cole Swindell- 

Dancing In The Sky by Dani and Lizzi – 

If Only by Escape The Fate- 

Heaven’s Not Too Far Away by We Three – 

This Is Your Song by Ronan Keating – 

Love Is Stronger Than Death by The The – 

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A Tree That Touched The Sky

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I saw a tree that touched the sky

It hurt my neck to look up so high

I wondered if I could climb to the top

But after a few feet I had to stop

Doubt crossed my mind, am I worthy?

I think I am a little too dirty

What if I went a few more feet?

I wondered just what I would see

But another doubt, am I good enough?

Am I really worthy of love?

But a voice from somewhere inside

Told me to continue to climb

A quarter of the way up a whisper so small

What are you doing? Don’t you know you could fall?

Somewhere inside something told me not to fear

Don’t look down because the top is almost near

Halfway up I grew weary and tired

Voices everywhere telling me he’s a liar

Do you really believe he forgives?

Look at how you have lived!

So many wrongs, so many mistakes

Half your life you’ve been a fake

I reach for another branch, I must continue

Leave the past in my rear view

Why do you continue to climb?

What is it you are looking to find?

A voice says it’s not that far down

Let’s get back to solid ground

Another voice says you are almost there

It’s getting harder to breathe with this thin air

Maybe I should turn around

Back to the earth so green and brown

But something pushes me to go higher

I swear I can hear an angel’s choir

Three fourths the way I have climbed

Pushing onward, I am no longer blind

The negative voices telling me I must stop

Are still there but I listen not

I know why I found this tree

But this knowledge isn’t only for me

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I must tell you of all the truth I have acquired

On this journey where I had all my heart desired

But nothing ever seemed to satisfy

I was always searching but empty inside

I learned more the closer I got to the top

About grace and forgiveness and a true love

A few more branches, just a stone’s throw

When I heard a voice from a long time ago

Give it up, you are not good enough

Look at you, so unworthy of love

Do you really believe you can change?

Why don’t you turn around, reverse your way?

You are ugly and you have a terrible past

Even if you find love, it won’t last

The tree offered me another of its arms

I climbed higher, knowing there would be no harm

I knew in that instant my past did not define

The future was there for me to climb

Another branch or two

I was that much closer to the truth

But I felt the tree start to sway

I wondered if this is why so many walk away?

When the tree sways, people become afraid

So, way up here, I started to pray

For those in mansions, homeless on the streets

For those that always seem to win and those who are always beat

For those that are addicted to fight their pain

For those that have so much more to gain

I prayed for things unseen and those that are seen

I prayed for you and I prayed for me

Forgive me for what I’ve done

Into your arms I want to run

I no longer want to hide my face

I want to accept your love and grace

If you could help me climb a little more

I know I will never be who I was before

Then I felt a hand grab mine

He pulled me up to finish my climb

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Dear God by Hunter Hayes-  

Breakthrough by Chris McClarney – 

Here I Am by Lincoln Brewster – 

Breaking Point by Sanctus Real – 

Days Gone By by Hillsong Young & Free – 

What I Did Over Summer Break- August

We took a two day trip to Chicago. We went to Firehouse 51 where they film parts of Chicago Fire. It is one of Kylie’s favorite shows and a total surprise for her.

The main reason we went was to see the Cubs play at Wrigley Field. The Cubs Are Kylie’s favorite team and I have always wanted to go to Wrigley. Of course, you have to have a Chicago dog.

It was an exciting game.  The Cubs were winning 5-2 in the 8th inning.  A lot of the fans left and Kylie and I snuck up to the field seats.  We watched the last inning from nine rows from the field.   The Padres came back in the top of the ninth and made it 5-4.  Baez had to throw out a runner at the plate to keep it from being tied and the Cubs won.IMG_1447.jpg

Kylie wanted to go see “the bean.” I think she was almost as excited to see it as she was the Cubs.

Oh by the way, Kim rode the train with us from our hotel to Wrigley then she ran down Addison Street to Lakefront Trail and ran all the way to the Navy Pier and back to our hotel while we were at the game. Almost ten miles. She enjoyed running someplace new and enjoyed the time alone until we got back from the game.

That evening we went to the Navy Pier. The next day we took a bike ride down the Lakefront Trail before we headed back to Ohio.

Kylie started her cross country season and ran a race supporting the team. She finished four minutes faster this year than last year for this same 5k.

She starts her last year of middle school tomorrow and turned 13 yesterday so big things in store for her.

Enjoy the pics.

Go Cubs Go-  

Summer Water by Michael Ray  – 

Wasted Time by Keith Urban –  

What I Did Over Summer- July

July really started off at the end of June I guess you could say. Kim’s brother lives in a community that has their own firework show. They live on the 18th green and that is where they let the fireworks off so we had an up close look at them. Kylie took pictures for me. I love the ones with the firefighters in them with the tree.

Kim’s family were in from all over so we had a family reunion of sorts.

I also started writing a novel. I think I have a good story line and characters but I only about five thousand words in so have at least fifty five thousand more to go. There is the problem. I am not good in real life with filler words and small talk and dialogue but now I have to figure out how to do that in a novel. I am much better at short, to the point conversations, not in depth, long, descriptive conversations so wish me luck.

We went to Botkins, Ohio, and saw Jeremy Camp in concert with Matthew West, Rend Collective, and Koryn Hawthorne. It was my second time seeing Rend Collective, they are full of energy. It was my first time seeing Matthew West and he was really good. Jeremy put on a great show as always.

We talked to Leif and Kim had Jeremy sign her second Boston Marathon medal.

Word Of Life by Jeremy  Camp –  

Beautiful Things We Miss by Matthew West – 

Counting Every Blessing by Rend Collective – 

Won’t He Do It by Koryn Hawthorne – 

What I Did Over Summer- June

I feel like I have not written in a long time, probably because I haven’t. I haven’t even really done anything but busy summer things. I feel like I have missed out on a lot of good writing, stories, lessons, poems etc. from all of you and for that, I must apologize.

June started off hot and sunny for the most part. Basically, we spent a lot of time outdoors and at the pool.

The big hit of June was going to Cincinnati and seeing Luke Bryan, Sam Hunt, Jon Pardi, and Morgan Wallen in concert. We stopped in the way there and picked up Kayhla and saw the improvements they have done to their house.

And of course, I had a birthday.

June seemed to fly by and was over before I knew it.

Sunrise, Sunburn, Sunset Repeat by Luke Bryan – 

Downtown’s Dead by Sam Hunt- 

She Ain’t In It by Jon Pardi- 

Up Down by Morgan Wallen – 

 

I Do Not Fight Alone

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Society wants me to conform. I will not conform.

I have had enough. I could not take It anymore. I had tried and tried but no one would go with me. If no one will go with me, I will do it alone.

I don’t see things any differently than anyone else. They all see the world is falling apart. The difference is I couldn’t sit still and watch it get worse. I couldn’t stay quiet and let the evil keep talking.

You know what they say, there is no God, he isnt here, he doesnt care. If there was a God then why….If there was a God then where was he when….

Well, didn’t we ask him to leave? We took him out of schools, court,  any kind of gathering. We let the minority rule. If one person doesn’t like it then no one can enjoy it. It’s no wonder suicides have increased, opioid epidemic, mass shootings, over the counter meds for anxiety,  divorce.

Nothing is sacred anymore.

I left to face the demons on my own. It wasn’t long before they had gathered to defeat me.

I drew my sword and drew a line in the sand.

I said,  “If you are not a believer, you can not cross this line.”

The demons smiled at me as they approached the line. “My dearest friend, do you not know, even we demons believe.”

The demons crossed the line and I took a step back. The demons drooled and laughed. “So, friend , you do fear us.”

To their surprise, I then took a step forward with a smile on my face.

“I am not your friend.”

I knew what they did not. The demons hesitated for a second but that’s all I needed.

I drew my sword but it was only for a diversion. The demons attacked.

The demons were so consumed with me that they didn’t notice the warrior angels that had surrounded them.

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Walk On Water by 30 Seconds To Mars-  

What It Comes Down To Me Is Me by Mark Bishop- 

Fight Forever by Anthem Lights – 

Whom Shall I Fear (God of Angel Armies)  by Chris Tomlin – 

Fighting For Us by Michael Farren – 

Finish Your Story

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I read through the pages of your book

I get to know you and your every look

I’ve stumbled upon a terrible chapter

One that’s full of hurt and disasters

Some have chosen not to continue to read

They closed the book in your time of need

But I read each and every word

My eyes teared up and the pages blurred

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With each page I prayed you would make it through

Even at your darkest I knew there was a light in you

Another word, another sentence, another paragraph, another page

I couldn’t stop reading because I knew you would find your faith

I was at the end of the chapter and started the next

You made it through the worst but still weren’t at your best

But as I promised I continued to read

I will hold your hand when you are in need

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You are not alone and the next chapter could be amazing

Thanking God for the trials, his name we will be praising

Right now, I need you to keep writing

This world needs you to keep fighting

Don’t give up, don’t let the dark win

Through the wounds, let the light in

Because I know when I close your book after I read the last page

That after all the ups and downs you didn’t give up and you found your way

I know at the end of your story

We will give God all the glory

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Carry You by Ruelle – 

Beautifully Broken by Plumb – 

Turn It Around by Lincoln Brewster- 

Deep Down (Walk Through The Fire)  by Lincoln Brewster – 

Fighting For You by Tenth Avenue North –