The First Bud Of Spring- A Love Story

 

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It was a long, cold, dark winter. One that she didn’t think would ever end. There was snow, rain, and sleet. A couple of times there was enough ice to nearly break the branches on the trees. The little girl held on. She waited for the warmer weather, the better times, the warmth of the sun. She knew it would come, it was just a matter of time. As she waited patiently, she would say her prayers, she would thank God for protecting her and her mommy and daddy during these cold, dark, winter nights.

Finally, the day had come. The first bud of spring appeared out of the ground. The bud peeked out of her shoot and could feel the warmth surround her. She was filled with so much joy that, at first,  she didn’t notice she was the only bud sprouting. After basking in the warmth of the sunshine for a few minutes she looked around, startled that she was the only one. Where was everyone else? Was she going to be all alone? Did she come out too soon? Was colder weather coming back and she would die because of her eagerness to sprout? She was filled with fear and doubt but she stayed strong. She knew God had a plan for her. It was then that a little girl saw her and started yelling for her dad to come see the new flower. The little girl was so excited that the bud could not help but smile. Her excitement was contagious.

 

A little while later another bud awakened. He also took a moment to take in the warmth around him. He then looked to see if the others had awakened and that was when he saw her. She was within inches of him and he knew he would love her. It didn’t take long for her to notice him either, even though it took the help of a little girl yelling “Look, daddy, now there’s two!”

 

They welcomed the spring with all the other buds that started to awaken. With all the other flowers around them, they knew they were meant for each other. When the rains came, he would lean towards her to cover her petals. When the strong winds came they would lean into it together, holding stems. They were inseparable. When the bees came they opened their petals for them so they could spread their seeds to other lands where there were no flowers. They also knew that the bees relied on their pollen to take back to their hives for food. It was a beneficial relationship.  Everything was new and exciting.

Then summer came. It was a scorching summer, one like they had never seen. There was no water. Many flowers died but not our couple. They shared what they had with each other. Every little drop of moisture was shared between them. Luckily, they were also planted where they had shade for part of the day. They counted the hours down together until they were cooled by the shade. Every once in awhile the little girl would come out with a can of water and help keep them alive. They were often too tired to open their petals wide enough for the bees to come but they did their best. They knew the only way to survive this summer was with the help of others. They prayed their prayers for rain, for cooler temperatures but it was not to be. Sometimes in life, God doesn’t answer prayers and there are reasons only He knows why. They had reached a point in their relationship that they were still together, but they didn’t talk much. Too much too worry about, too much life got in the way. When was their next rain drop, how would they make it through another day without food, why couldn’t they be like they were in the spring? Did they waste this whole season of their life? They knew better because they still shared the little water they had, they still  protected each other but the excitement was gone.

Before they knew it Autumn was here. They had made it through the difficult summer and were enjoying another season of their life. The rains came again, as well as cooler weather. When he looked at her she was still the most beautiful, most loving, most caring flower in the garden. When she looked at him he was still the bravest, strongest, most handsome flower this side of Eden. They held each other’s petals more each day, knowing that their days were winding down. They reflected on the spring and the summer. Days when their love was new and days when they didn’t know if they would make it. They thought of their seeds spread far and wide, soon to be new flowers that would spread their love and beauty around the world. It wasn’t easy, they had moments of doubt but they fought for each other, they fought for their love. They survived.

Soon the cold winds blew again. They held on for as long as they could but with each passing day, their petals would fall off. They knew it wouldn’t be long now but they held on for each struggling moment. Relying on each other to get by. Praying for just one more second. She was the first to go, as she was the first to sprout. He wasn’t far behind her.

 

The little girl, all bundled up from the cold,  looked at her daddy and said, “Look, daddy, the first two here are they last two to leave. I wonder if they were happy here, I wonder if they were in love.”

“Now, now,” said the daddy, “we know flowers can’t fall in love but if they could, those two would definitely have been like me and your mom. Through all the seasons and all the weather, the rain, the sun, the cold, they were standing right beside each other. Holding petals all the while.”

The little girl giggled. Through the cold, dark, winter nights she was safe as she anxiously waited for the first bud of spring to blossom again.

I Will Be Here by Steven Curtis Chapman –  

Then by Brad Paisley – 

Stand By You by Rachel Platten – 

Love Like Crazy by Lee Brice – 

The End Is Not The Answer by Three Days Grace – 

Worth Fighting For by Nine Days – 

When I Said I Do by Clint Black – 

Forever Changed by Carrie Underwood – 

Remind Me by Brad Paisley and Carrie Underwood – 

Would You Go With Me by Josh Turner – 

I’ll Stand By You by The Pretenders – 

Meant To Be by JJ Heller – 

What Faith Can Do by Kutless – 

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Thank You For Staying

I know it hasn’t been easy

Being married to me

I take two steps forward and three steps back

Tell you how much you mean to me then I attack

The voices in my head won’t go away

Some days I want to run and others days I want to stay

Through it all I want to say thank you for staying

The words I say I know are not nice

I’ve said I would stop more than twice

You deserve better than me

I have to be honest I can’t see

Why you have chosen to stay

I just wanted to thank you today

Thank you for staying

I know you need more conversation

I know I really should show more appreciaton

You are the sun that shines so bright

That will burn off this fog that consumes my nights

I know part of God must live in you

To stay through all the hell I put you through

I know it’s not easy but I wanted to say thank you for staying

I know these times are rough

You have proven you are more than tough

Where you get your strength from God only knows

Somehow your love only seems to grow

I would be an empty shell of a man

If you ever said I never want to see you again

I just wanted you to hear me say thank you for staying

Fighter by David Nail –  

Champion by  Oleander  –  

Thank You For Loving Me by Bon Jovi –  

Commitment by Sanctus Real – 

Face Of Love by Royal Southern Brotherhood – 

Hard To Love by Lee Brice – 

 

Save Me From Myself by Christina Aguilera – 

No One Cried

 

No One Cried

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

Tore our world apart

Can’t stitch a broken heart

Cupid missed the mark

Too much hurt, too much pain

Does it matter who’s to blame

What did we gain ?

(No one cried)

 

Pulled out my hair

Thought I still cared

Looked for us everywhere

Thought I wanted more

Picked myself up off the floor

Walked out the door

(No One Cried)

 

We said forever

Made a vow together

Guess we forgot to remember

Doesn’t it make you sad

Doesn’t it make you kinda mad

How did it get this bad

(No One Cried)

 

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

No more slow dances

No more second chances

Maybe under different circumstances

The candle flame burned out

Nothing left to work out

Nothing left to talk about

(No One Cried)

 

Two became one became two

Apart we grew

Same picture different view

No one tried

To keep the love alive

No place left to hide

Tears from the past

When love was meant to last

The end slowly came fast

 

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

(Guitar solo  then next part is acoustic slow)

 

Maybe someday we will find

Why we couldn’t  hit rewind

Back to when you were mine

When you cross that memory

The one of you and me

And you smile for what used to be

When the memories fade

We remember what we once made

We will let a tear escape

 

As the love we had disappears

Throughout the years

We shared some tears

There’s no more left to cry

We said our final goodbye

Wish we would’ve tried

(No one cried)

 

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

I wish we would’ve tried

A part of me died

A part of me cried

I wish we, I wish we would’ve tried

A part of me died

I cried….

 

 

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Death Without A  Funeral by Jason Gray –  

What Happened To Perfect by Lukas Graham – 

Tender Is The Night by Whitford St. Holmes – 

Too Late by Angels Fall – 

Wreck You by Lori McKenna – 

It’s Over by Rod Stewart – 

Let Me Go by Avril Lavigne – 

Used To Love You by Gwen Stefani – 

Was A Time by Anthony D’ Amato – 

Where Do We Go From Here by Oleander – 

The Getting Over It Part by Blue October – 

Sometimes by One Less Reason – 

Is Nothing Sacred by Meat Loaf – 

I Give Her To You

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I wrote this one around the same time I wrote the one from yesterday. It’s when I gave up and gave her to God that is when things started to change. I felt at peace and God started to change Kim. It’s when I listened to God and let her go and gave her to Him.

Sometimes when your at your wit’s end and you keep trying to fix it yourself, you just need to stop and give it to God and let Him do the work.

In case you missed it, here is the post from yesterday:

It’s Not About You

I Give Her To You

Today I decided to quit

I gave you my heart

My words couldn’t get through

Now it’s time for Yours to start

Today I decided to pray

I know you can carry this boulder

I give it all to You to lead her

I give it to you to take off my shoulders

She’s left You, her family and friends

For something is leading her to sin

It’s her choice to make

It’s her soul at stake

Today, I give her to You

Today, I gave up

Today, I decided to walk away

Today, I decided to leave

Today, I heard You say stay

Today, I give her to You

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You say be still and let Me speak

It’s not for you to understand

Today she will hear My words

Today she will grab My hand

You say You waited for me not to do it myself

You say You waited for me to let You in

When things are a mess I am the only one you need

You say only You can lead her from her sin

Today, she turned back to you

Today, she cried until she heard your voice

Today, she gave up and gave it to You

Today, when I gave up, she made her choice

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Right On Time by Aaron Cole (feat TobyMac) – 

Battles by The Afters –  

No Fight Left by JJ Heller – 

Give It All by We Are Messengers – 

It’s Not About You

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A few years back, my wife and I went through a very difficult time. Through the many days and nights of fighting and lost sleep, nothing was changing.

In a moment of quietness, when I had all but given up, I heard God’s voice. It’s the only time I have ever heard God’s voice, at least so clearly.

I heard a voice say let her go. It startled me actually. It was so clear that I looked around the room to make sure I was alone. I, on the brink of giving up anyway, said that’s what I was going to do anyway. Then I heard the voice say, no, let her go to me. This isn’t about you.

I then wrote this.

Also, for those of you who don’t believe God can speak to us in this world today, when we were going through this a lady we barely knew at our church sent Kim an email. She said I don’t know what you are going through, but God told me to send this song to you. It was Need You Now by Plumb which was exactly what my wife, and I,  needed to hear.

Just remember when you are experiencing something terrible, maybe it’s not about you. Maybe God knows you are strong enough to take it and will use you to help someone else.

It’ Not About You

I didn’t want to be married

She wasn’t what I looked for

You had us cross paths

You brought her to my door

I asked You why and You said

It’s not about you, it’s about her

She will help you believe in me

Come to me, marry her and no other

Now I’m asking why, why, why

It’s not about you, it’s about her

I’m crying out why, why, why

You say bring her to me, her Father

I can’t believe she did this

She’s left the both of us

Is this what You wanted

How can I ever trust?

You whisper be strong

This is why you are here

To show My love for her

Be strong and do not fear

I need you to stay

It may seem unfair

But you will lead the way

This cross you must bear

She needs to see my love

She needs to know I’m her Father

She needs to find who she is in me

She needs to know she’s my daughter

But it’s made me question you

(trust in Me and know my ways are good)

It’s made me to never want to trust

(My ways are good, I will never harm you)

What do I do, where do I turn?

(turn to Me, I will always be there)

This isn’t about you

it’s all about her

It’s not about you

Your marriage will be stronger

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Strong Enough by Matthew West-  

Stronger by Mandisa-  

Stronger Than We Think by Danny Gokey- 

Stronger Than You Think You Are by Taranda Green- 

Tonight Feels Different

The stars shine a different light

They seem to be a little more bright

These city streets always filled with noise

But tonight all I hear is your voice

I walk these streets, your hand in mine

It seems like I’ve done this a million times

But tonight feels different

Somehow the Dj seems to know

To play our song on the radio

I sing along, mostly out of tune

I sing our song to the moon

People look at me like I’ve lost my mind

They don’t know this love took me so long to find

That’s why tonight feels different

When we are apart

You take my heart

Its impossible to explain

How I feel when you call my name

My stomach is filled with butterflies

Every time I look in your eyes

But tonight feels different

You walk across the room and you shine so bright

It’s like  God gave you your very own spotlight

We dance, a little off beat

We kiss, your lips so sweet

We walk, hand in hand

I think I am a lucky man

 

I don’t know why but tonight feels different

Is tonight a long awaited answer to a prayer asked?

Is tonight a hope for the future, a forgetting of the past?

Is tonight a new beginning?

I don’t know but I can’t stop grinning

I can finally see you like God sees you

That’s enough to start our love anew

Tonight feels different

Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton – 

Lady In Red by Chris Deburgh – 

Die A Happy Man by Thomas Rhett – 

For The First Time by The Script – 

Tonight Feels Different by Riley Smith – 

Heartbeat by Carrie Underwood – 

Something Beautiful by Steven Curtis Chapman – 

I Think This Is Over

I’m glad I am sober

Watching you sleeping

Watching you breathing

I think this is over


 

Lost in my thoughts

Losing my mind

Can we push rewind?

What have we lost?


 

Remembering how we met

Your heart beats, am I still there?

Then I realized I didn’t care

It’s time to take the next step


 

I  remember when I used to laugh

You used to smile

I feel I’m always on trial

Together we don’t make a half


 

I’ve talked, yelled, I’ve tried

I can’t fix what you’ve become

I can’t undo what has been done

I hurt too, you know I’ve cried


 

I reach out, touch your shoulder

Watching you sleeping

Watching you breathing

I think this is over, this is over


 

I try to hold you, love you

You act like I’m an alien

You used to be so radiant

This isn’t going to be easy to do


 

I’ll stop short of calling you a liar

I don’t know what else to say

I think yesterday was our last day

I’m past the point of being tired


 

I think I better do this quick

I won’t lose my nerve

Too exhausted to swerve

This is just making me sick


 

But I am glad I am sober

Watching you sleeping

Watching you breathing

Your heart beats , am I still there?

Then I realized I didn’t care

I think this is over

What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts – 

If You’re Gonna Leave by Emerson Hart – 

All She Wrote by Firehouse – 

Over You by Daughtry – 

Leave by Matchbox Twenty – 

The Getting Over It Part by Blue October – 

Not Meant To Be by Theory Of A Deadman – 

Mean To Me by Tonic –