When The Sun Sets In The Ocean

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At the end of the day when the sun sets in the ocean

Does she welcome him with arms wide open?

Does she tell him how much he was missed?

Does he cherish each and every kiss?

Does he talk about the damage he’s done?

How people pray for rain but there is none?

How the ice caps are less and less?

How the heat from him is causing a mess?

Or does he talk about all the good times

People laughing, basking in his sunshine

The picnics and the foods that grow

Does he talk of times from not long ago?

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Does she talk about the storms and hurricanes?

Does she talk about how she wishes she could see the plains?

Does she complain about her waters rising?

Does she blame him for the people dying?

Or does she talk about how the people play

How they jump over or try to ride her waves

The joy in someone’s eyes as they see her for the first time

Does she wonder if their love is strong or are there warning signs?

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Or do they talk about what a wonderful team they are

How they are always together to look at the stars

How both of them together can cause great things to occur?

Does she tell him how much she loves him and he loves her?

When they are all alone in the dark

Do they share what’s deep in their hearts?

When he wakes to start another day

Is there a tear in the ocean’s waves?

When he is gone and up high in the sky

Does he think of her with a twinkle in his eye?

Does she say hurry home soon?

Does he say tonight we will watch the moon?

So much can happen, so many feelings and emotions

At the end of each day when the sun sets into the ocean

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In Case You Didn’t Know by Brett Young – 

Walk Away by Goo Goo Dolls-  

If We Were Vampires by Jason Isbell –  

The Story by Brandi Carlile-  

One Day At A Time by Brian Courtney Wilson- 

House On Fire by Rise Against – 

Ordinary People by John Legend- 

I  Won’t Give Up By Jason Mraz – 

 

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I Planned On Coming Back

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The character in this poem leaves to find himself, but in reality, it could be about each and every one of us who have “checked out” of their marriage. Those who are there but are not there. Don’t think they will always be there waiting for you to come back.

It could be for you, my readers, since I have not posted in a month. Has it really been that long? I never meant for it to be that long but sometimes I get caught in a tornado and I wait to land in OZ.

I planned on coming back

I just needed a short break

But I got lost counting the sand

Thinking you would wait

 

I spend my days staring out at the water

Wasting memories in the ocean breeze

Order another rum and coke

The memory of you dances in front of me

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Seeing the moon’s reflection

Looking up at a million stars

As one falls from the sky

I make a wish to heal these scars

 

I walk farther and farther away

I can’t understand why I can’t pick up the phone

Why I can’t get on that airplane

Why I can’t come back home

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I never meant these days to turn to months

I never meant to leave you like that

A lost heart trying to find its way

But I always planned on coming back

I knew my time had passed

As the months turned to years

I don’t know why I couldn’t turn around

The dolphins can taste my tears

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What was I missing?

What was I trying to find?

I realize it was right in front of me

But I can no longer call you mine

 

I can tell you didn’t expect to see me here

Face to face and I state it is a fact

I promise you this

I was always planning to come back

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I can see it in your eyes, I see it in your smile

I found myself but now I know that it’s too late

I say I’m sorry and turn to leave

Why did I think you would wait?

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The Gospel by Ryan Stevenson – 

The Haunting by Jackie Evancho –  

Just Like Everybody by Ben Moody- 

Remember Who I Was by James Arthur –  

What Kind Of Man Am I by John Mellencamp- 

Never Let You Go by Manafest – 

Mansion by NF – 

No Man’s An Island by Tenth Avenue North – 

Always On My Mind by Willie Nelson-  

Not Broken Anymore by Blue October – 

If I Told You by Darius Rucker – 

Can’t Keep You Here by Jennifer Paige – 

Sorry by Aquilo- 

 

The Pier

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I remember the first time I saw her. Standing all alone in the water. I stood in awe at how beautiful she was. A true work of art. It was love at first sight.

It was our first vacation together to the beach. Our first of many.

I remember the first time I walked out on her, I stood so far out into the ocean. The beach looked so far away. I was so far out all the people on the beach looked like ants.

I learned all about her. From the beginning when she was first being made until now. All the storms she had been through, everything that made her into the beauty she is today. I couldn’t help but wonder if other people looked at her the way I did.

How many sunrises and sunsets have we seen from that pier? How many long talks have we had walking the beaches and that pier while holding hands?

Every year, before we would go back, I would look at the old photos of us taken on that pier.  The first one taken when we’re just dating, the first one taken as a married couple, the first one with our daughter as a baby and all the ones through the years as she, and we, grew older.

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Throughout the years, I always knew the pier would be there when we were. The times when we would walk early in the morning and the fog was so thick we could barely see our hands in front of our face. But somehow, I knew the next step would land on the next plank.  On the dark nights when we could not see the end of the pier because of the darkness, I still knew it was there.

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Then I looked at the last picture, the one from last year. The pier was showing her age but she was still so beautiful to me. Our daughter had grown so strong and beautiful, ready to go out on her own. There was something off about the picture though. There was a light missing from your eyes. Maybe the smile wasn’t as big as years past.

Maybe it was just my imagination. I couldn’t get the thought out of my head.

Do you believe in coincidences?  As I was staring at the picture there was a breaking news alert. The hurricane hit the pier and she was gone. I couldn’t believe it. All those years of storms and sunshine, cold winter nights and hot summer days, all the things the pier had been through and now she was gone.

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A tear came to my eyes as I stared In disbelief. Was it real or was I dreaming?  Was she really gone? All these pictures, all the memories, all of it gone. No, they were still there but as I looked at the empty space in the ocean I knew things would never be the same.

I couldn’t help but look at the last picture again. The one where the light in your eyes was gone and your smile wasn’t as big. All the storms we have faced and survived.  All the good days and the bad days. I couldn’t help shake the feeling that a storm was coming.  A storm bigger than we have ever faced before.

We will survive it or we will fall like the pier?

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Almost Broken by Sister Hazel-  

Church Clothes by Kelleigh Bannen – 

Performance by The XX – 

A Day To Be Alone by One Less Reason – 

Even If by MercyMe – 

That Could Still Be Us by Keith Urban- 

Where We Go From Here by Jason Gray – 

Where Do We Go From Here by Oleander – 

Something Beautiful by One Less Reason – 

Broken Together by Casting Crowns – 

I Loved Our Time Together (When You Were On A Sedative)

 

Trying to be funny but…my sense of humor can be warped at times.

 

I loved our time together when you were on a sedative

In the moment was all we had to live

No hurts, no regrets, the past was the past

It had been ages since we laughed like that

Even though the doctor was two and a half hours late

I can honestly say I didn’t mind the wait

No kids, no outside pulls, no tv

Just you and me ( and that constant beep)

We made jokes the entire time

Reminded me of when you were first mine

Before life got in the way

But we can start anew today

It was good to hear you laugh

If you did now it would tear you in half

You will heal and so will we

Marriage definitely is not easy

I can’t wait until my knee is done

So we can have some more fun

And love our time together when I am on a sedative

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When You’re With Me by The Afters – 

Let It Be Tonight by Rick Astley- 

Love You All The Way by Sean McNeill – 

In Love Again by Colbie Caillat – 

God Only Knows by Michael Buble – 

No One Cried

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My new smash #1 hit song. Crossed over to country, rock , pop and Christian charts. #1 in 37 countries, over 3 million downloads.  That my friends is called visualization. Now let’s see what you think and make it happen.

Just add music and the right voice, maybe like Justin Furstenfeld of Blue October or Chris Brown from One Less Reason or Meat Loaf, but the last two have new cd’s out so maybe the next one and Blue October had new cd at beginning of year so…

No One Cried

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

Tore our world apart

Can’t stitch a broken heart

Cupid missed the mark

Too much hurt, too much pain

Does it matter who’s to blame

What did we gain ?

(No one cried)

 

Pulled out my hair

Thought I still cared

Looked for us everywhere

Thought I wanted more

Picked myself up off the floor

Walked out the door

(No One Cried)

 

We said forever

Made a vow together

Guess we forgot to remember

Doesn’t it make you sad

Doesn’t it make you kinda mad

How did it get this bad

(No One Cried)

 

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

No more slow dances

No more second chances

Maybe under different circumstances

The candle flame burned out

Nothing left to work out

Nothing left to talk about

(No One Cried)

 

Two became one became two

Apart we grew

Same picture different view

No one tried

To keep the love alive

No place left to hide

Tears from the past

When love was meant to last

The end slowly came fast

 

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

(Guitar solo  then next part is acoustic slow)

 

Maybe someday we will find

Why we couldn’t  hit rewind

Back to when you were mine

When you cross that memory

The one of you and me

And you smile for what used to be

When the memories fade

We remember what we once made

We will let a tear escape

 

As the love we had disappears

Throughout the years

We shared some tears

There’s no more left to cry

We said our final goodbye

Wish we would’ve tried

(No one cried)

 

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

I wish we would’ve tried

A part of me died

A part of me cried

I wish we, I wish we would’ve tried

A part of me died

I cried….

 

 

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Death Without A  Funeral by Jason Gray –  

What Happened To Perfect by Lukas Graham – 

Tender Is The Night by Whitford St. Holmes – 

Too Late by Angels Fall – 

Wreck You by Lori McKenna – 

It’s Over by Rod Stewart – 

Let Me Go by Avril Lavigne – 

Used To Love You by Gwen Stefani – 

Was A Time by Anthony D’ Amato – 

Where Do We Go From Here by Oleander – 

The Getting Over It Part by Blue October – 

Sometimes by One Less Reason – 

Is Nothing Sacred by Meat Loaf – 

 

Thank You For Staying

I know it hasn’t been easy

Being married to me

I take two steps forward and three steps back

Tell you how much you mean to me then I attack

The voices in my head won’t go away

Some days I want to run and others days I want to stay

Through it all I want to say thank you for staying

The words I say I know are not nice

I’ve said I would stop more than twice

You deserve better than me

I have to be honest I can’t see

Why you have chosen to stay

I just wanted to thank you today

Thank you for staying

I know you need more conversation

I know I really should show more appreciaton

You are the sun that shines so bright

That will burn off this fog that consumes my nights

I know part of God must live in you

To stay through all the hell I put you through

I know it’s not easy but I wanted to say thank you for staying

I know these times are rough

You have proven you are more than tough

Where you get your strength from God only knows

Somehow your love only seems to grow

I would be an empty shell of a man

If you ever said I never want to see you again

I just wanted you to hear me say thank you for staying

Fighter by David Nail –  

Champion by  Oleander  –  

Thank You For Loving Me by Bon Jovi –  

Commitment by Sanctus Real – 

Face Of Love by Royal Southern Brotherhood – 

Hard To Love by Lee Brice – 

 

Save Me From Myself by Christina Aguilera – 

 

 

 

Tonight Feels Different

The stars shine a different light

They seem to be a little more bright

These city streets always filled with noise

But tonight all I hear is your voice

I walk these streets, your hand in mine

It seems like I’ve done this a million times

But tonight feels different

Somehow the Dj seems to know

To play our song on the radio

I sing along, mostly out of tune

I sing our song to the moon

People look at me like I’ve lost my mind

They don’t know this love took me so long to find

That’s why tonight feels different

When we are apart

You take my heart

Its impossible to explain

How I feel when you call my name

My stomach is filled with butterflies

Every time I look in your eyes

But tonight feels different

You walk across the room and you shine so bright

It’s like  God gave you your very own spotlight

We dance, a little off beat

We kiss, your lips so sweet

We walk, hand in hand

I think I am a lucky man

 

I don’t know why but tonight feels different

Is tonight a long awaited answer to a prayer asked?

Is tonight a hope for the future, a forgetting of the past?

Is tonight a new beginning?

I don’t know but I can’t stop grinning

I can finally see you like God sees you

That’s enough to start our love anew

Tonight feels different

Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton – 

Lady In Red by Chris Deburgh – 

Die A Happy Man by Thomas Rhett – 

For The First Time by The Script – 

Tonight Feels Different by Riley Smith – 

Heartbeat by Carrie Underwood – 

Something Beautiful by Steven Curtis Chapman –