When The Darkness Came

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When the darkness came, I let it come

I didn’t hide and I sure as heck didn’t run

It just kept coming and coming

I know I should have done something

I watched it as it got closer and closer

I let it engulf me, I let it take over

Each passing minute I was losing light

But I was tired, too tired to fight

Have you been there? When nothing is left

When the darkness is no longer a guest

But a full-time occupant, permanent resident

The time is coming, the end is imminent

I wish I could’ve fought, I really did

I wish I would’ve ran, would’ve hid

The darkness came for me, it was hunting

My strength was gone so I did nothing

There’s only me, only me to blame

For I let it come when the darkness came

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My Arms by Ledger-

Far From Home by Sam Tinnez-

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Follow You by Rasmus Hagan-

Follow Me by In Flames-

Even Here by JJ Heller-

Everybody’s Going Through Something by Chris Janson-

Everybody Cries Sometimes by Damien Dawn-

Fighting For by Lyra Blue-

The Darkest Things

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The darkest things are the hungriest things

They eat and eat but never get their fill

The darkest things seek and seek

Searching but they never find their thrill

The darkest things are the loneliest of the lonely

Searching for their prey until they find

Then the darkest of things start to search again

Leaving all their wreckage behind

The darkest of things, they thirst and thirst

The darkest of things sleep with throats parched

The darkest things do not love, they put hate first

For the darkest things, they have no heart

The darkest things some say don’t exist

The darkest things don’t need to eat

But trust me when I tell you, I must insist

They do exist and have the sharpest of teeth

The darkest things look everywhere

The darkest things search near and far

The darkest things will never stop

Until the darkest things darken the brightest star

The darkest things come and go

The darkest things let you feed on the past

The darkest things aren’t finished

Until the darkest things watch you take your last

The darkest things try to make life so grim

The darkest things can make the strong weak

The darkest things want you to feel alone

The darkest things aren’t the only who seek

The darkest things don’t even like the stars and moon

The darkest things want to stay in the darkest night

Cause the darkest things, yes, the darkest things

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Father by Jeremy Camp-

Terrify The Dark by Skillet-

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Enough by Koryn Hawthorne-

Enough by Social Club Misfits-

Hitchcock Movies

Hitchcock Movies
I wanna be a Marvel superhero

But I always feel like I’m less than zero

Did I just say that? Let me push rewind

Man I’ve been messed up a long time

I want the whole world to know my name

Maybe I’m just playing the wrong game

I can’t believe these choices I make

Man, I think I’m losing my way, I’ve lost my way

It’s like I’m tearing my world apart

Ripping out my heart, do I have a heart?

Can’t you see me? Can’t you see me? Can’t you see….

It seems like I have Hitchcock movies playing in my head

I have killer birds and psycho killers

I don’t know what I’m gonna do, my soul is dead

I only need one thing but I have all these fillers

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I push you away, tell you to leave

Then ask, why won’t you reach out to me?

Why are all these demons in my head?

Man, I’d be better off dead, am I already dead?

I want to rip out my brain, am I going insane?

If I’m being honest I know I’m the only one to blame

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Oh my God what have I done?

Oh my God what have I become?

Can’t you see me? Can’t you see me? Can’t you see….

It seems like I have Hitchcock movies playing in my head

I have killer birds and psycho killers

I don’t know what I’m gonna do, my soul is dead

I only need one thing but I have all these fillers

I’m on my knees

Begging you please

Take my life, take my life, take my life

Cut these demons out, I’ll give you the knife

Can’t you see I’ve hit the bottom

I’m no longer fighting Him, fighting Him

Rip off these chains

Take my shame

You alone have taken my sin, You alone give me reason to live

You alone forgive all, You alone forgive all, You alone forgive

You can see me, You can see me, I know you see….

It seems like I have Hitchcock movies playing in my head

I have killer birds and psycho killers

I don’t know what I’m gonna do, my soul is dead

I only need one thing but I have all these fillers

I only need one thing

Fully Known by JJ Heller – 

Guard Your Heart by 1 Girl Nation –  

Outta My Mind by Anthem Lights – 

Therapy Session by NF – 

Madness In Me by Skillet – 

Running With Giants by Thousand Foot Krutch – 

Shadows In The Dark

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I have a story to tell you

It is hard to believe, but I swear it’s true

I hardly believe it myself

But it is a story I must tell

You see just last night I saw shadows in the dark

I swear it’s true, cross my heart

I know you are thinking, “How can there be shadows with no light?”

I say you are correct, but this world isn’t always black and white

So sit down and listen, let me tell you my story

It won’t take long, in case you are in a hurry

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You see I was walking home, it was the darkest of nights

No where could be found a single light

(Except of course from the windows of a few brave souls up that late)

But their light didn’t cast a shadow for this was my fate

The wind ripped through the trees

I was scared, (but keep that between you and me)

I knew deep down in my bones

I just knew I wasn’t alone

I could feel the enemy all around

They made such a terrible sound

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The gnashing and gnawing gave me a fright

I could hear them, but they were out of sight

I had chills up and down my spine

I felt as if I was running out of time

It was right then and there I said a little prayer

God, if you have just a little time to spare 

Even though a lot of bad I have done

Do you think you could help me out some?

It was then I saw the first shadow

He took the lead so I decided to follow

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Soon I saw ten or fifteen more

I felt a peace that wasn’t there before

They told me their names

No two were the same

There was Integrity,  Honesty, Compassion and Loyalty

There was Kindness, Forgiveness, Responsibility and Humility

There was Hope, Love, Faith, Joy,  Courage and Trust

They told me each one of them also lives in us

They told me we are so distracted by the darkness of this place

That we often do not see them, even when we are face to face

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They walked me to where I needed to go

They left before I could thank them though

I am thanking them now by writing this to you

My friend when you are lost and don’t know what to do

When you are in despair

And think there’s no one who cares

Think of something good, something you can not see

No matter the darkness, there is a light in you and me

There is a light that can penetrate the darkest of dark

You just have to believe with all your heart

That in  your darkest of  darkest nights

There are shadows that can only be caused by the light

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I Wanna Go Back by David Dunn – 

No One Can Steal Our Joy by Tenth Avenue North – 

Rise by Danny Gokey – 

The Cure by Unspoken  – 

At The Corner Of Unicorn Lane

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At the corner of Unicorn Lane

Right before you get to Leprechaun Street

There lives a…. I don’t want to tell you it’s name

It’s not something most would want to meet

Some say it’s small, like an elf, fairy or pixie

Some say it’s big, like a Sasquatch, an ogre, or a Nephilim

I have seen it and to talk about it is quite risky

What I will say  is that it doesn’t look like any of them

 

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Some say it’s a hybrid, like a griffin, a Minotaur or a mermaid

Others say it’s a shapeshifter, a werewolf, Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

I have seen it and trust me, don’t get in its way

The last person that did has disappeared, perhaps has died

I’ve heard some says it’s a Kirin or a dragon

I’ve heard some say it’s a Chupacabra or a vampire

I have seen it and it’s worse than you can imagine

I can understand that  you might think I’m a liar

Let me continue please

I’m not an expert but it’s important what I have to say

Trust me, it’s for your safety

For it doesn’t matter if it’s night or day

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Some say it is a hideous creature

Others say it looks just like you and me

Some say it has the scariest features

It’s always different for those  unfortunate enough to see

So when you go down Leprechaun Street

And you get to the corner of Unicorn Lane

Please keep walking, I beg you to move your feet

Especially on a cold dark night when it starts to rain

Enough already! You exclaim. Just tell me does it really exist?

I hesitate, not sure if you can handle the truth

Please stop asking ! I can’t say! Oh, why do you insist?

Are you ready? Are you sure? It… it’s…. aahhhh it’s YOU!

 

 

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Monster by Skillet – 

The Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace – 

Dark Side Of Me by Coheed and Cambria – 

Darker Side Of Me by Veer Union – 

Jekyll and Hyde by Jonathan Thulin – 

Monster by Stitched Up Heart – 

The Monster Is Loose by Meat Loaf – 

Monster You Made by Pop Evil – 

Way Way Down In The Deep

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Way, way, way down in the deep

Is a monster who is waking from a long sleep

If you are still enough, you can feel a slight breeze

As it slowly unfurls it’s wings

Can you hear the demons sing?

God only knows the horror it will bring

From way, way, way down in the deep

Is a monster who is not afraid of defeat

A monster who believes it can not be beat

Can you feel the electricity in the air?

A monster like this is truly rare

It will tear you apart and not even care

I don’t mean to cause you to panic or for you to fear

But many of you do not believe this monster is near

But it is closer than you think and its goal is clear

Its eyes are open, its wings have unfurled

It doesn’t care if you are a boy or a girl

It only wants to destroy the world

But tonight, I travel and I can not sleep

For way, way, way down in the deep

Is a monster that I seek

I travel to the darkest of places

Looking, searching for the tiniest of traces

Don’t worry, I am not afraid to face it

I feel the wind stir, I can smell the evil

It knows I am coming, it mistakes me as feeble

But God has chosen me to protect his people

I travel deeper into the depths of darkness

This monster thinks I am nothing, that I am harmless

But I won’t leave here without carrying its carcass

From way, way, way down in the deep

I have found this monster I seek

Before it fully wakes, it will die in defeat

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Made For This by Carrolton – 

The Elements by Tobymac – 

Nobody by Casting Crowns – 

This Could Change Everything by Francesca Battistelli – 

Monsters by Shinedown – 

Noah Scape

There was a man named Noah Scape

Who felt misfortune was always his fate

He hated everything on this earth

Not once did he ever say a kind word

When people saw him coming

The other way they’d go running

Noah Scape would quite often offend

Surprisingly, or maybe not, Noah had many friends

But the ones he had felt the same as he

Noah Veil, Betty Wont, Miss Happs, and Y. Me

Dee Zaster, Emma Fraid, Hope Lescase,

Lois Steem, Shirley Knott, and Ray Neday

They all felt the world was out to get them

Perhaps, that is why they were all friends

But one day Noah Scape

Fell into it in a bad way

He needed help

But he truly felt

His troubles he could not share

No one he knew would care

With his head down he walked away

Wishing he could find Sunny Daze

A girl he knew once upon a time

Or maybe Yul B. Allright

He was always positive

And always quite supportive

Gene Yess was thoughtful and smart

Phil Hope always spoke from the heart

Then Noah thought maybe his life wasn’t a mess

Truly in his heart he knew he had to confess

That where he was in his life

His choices were part of his demise

So he chose right there and then

To begin his life again

For he had been miserable for quite a while

His face nearly cracked when he started to smile

The clouds started to part and the sun began to shine

Noah realized the light had been there the entire time

For where he was was not where he had to be

His eyes only needed to be open so he could see

He only had to make better choices

And listen to more positive voices

Now Noah knew that it was never to late

For there had always been a way out for Noah Scape

I Want To Say Thank You

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I usually do not post on the weekend but sometimes you have to.

I want to say thank you

For running into the unknown

For responding to the call

Not knowing if you’ll make it back home

For keeping our town safe

When you are patrolling the streets

For stopping, just to say hi

For getting the cat out of the tree

For keeping our kids safe

By being in our schools

For writing me that speeding ticket

When I chose to break the rules

Thank you for working late

Missing your family’s supper

I know your job is hard

And some are making it tougher

But I just wanted to take a minute

To let you know some of us care

That cry with you, that stand with you

That respect you, that says a prayer

That some of us will stand by your side

We’ll remember the heroes

Who responded on their last ride

Stay strong, stay protected, get home safe

It might not be the popular thing to say

But when have I cared about that

So thank you, not only today

But every day

Photos of some of police officers killed in the line of duty since May 1, 2020 because of gunfire, assault, or vehicular assault.

Police Officer Tamarris Leon-Wesley Bohannon | St. Louis Metropolitan Police Department, Missouri
Deputy Sheriff Ryan Phillip Hendrix | Henderson County Sheriff's Office, North Carolina
Investigator Luis
Detective James M. Skernivitz | Cleveland Division of Police, Ohio
Trooper Thomas William Devlin | Massachusetts State Police, Massachusetts
Captain Stanley Curtis Elrod | Georgia Department of Natural Resources, Georgia
Corporal Bryant Searcy | Wayne County Sheriff's Office, Michigan
Police Officer Bryan Brown | Tohono O'odham Nation Police Department, Tribal Police
Sergeant Ricardo Perez-Ortiz | Puerto Rico Police Department, Puerto Rico
Police Officer Sheena Dae Yarbrough-Powell | Beaumont Police Department, Texas
Trooper Caleb Starr | Michigan State Police, Michigan
Special Agent John Bost, III | United States Department of Justice - Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco, Firearms and Explosives, U.S. Government
Deputy Sheriff Dylan Pickle | Monroe County Sheriff's Office, Mississippi
Deputy Sheriff William Garner | Franklin County Sheriff's Office, Georgia
Police Officer Jonathan Shoop | Bothell Police Department, Washington
Police Officer Ismael Chavez | McAllen Police Department, Texas
Police Officer Edelmiro Garza, Jr. | McAllen Police Department, Texas
Police Officer Anthony Dia | Toledo Police Department, Ohio
Police Officer Jason Judd | Peoria Police Department, Arizona
Sergeant Craig Vincent Johnson | Tulsa Police Department, Oklahoma
Police Officer Destin Legieza | Brentwood Police Department, Tennessee
Wildlife Officer Julian Keen, Jr. | Florida Fish and Wildlife Conservation Commission, Florida
Police Officer Dale Thomas Provins, Jr. | Jefferson Hills Borough Police Department, Pennsylvania
Deputy Sheriff James H. Blair | Simpson County Sheriff's Office, Mississippi
Animal Control Officer Darrian May Young | Monroe County Sheriff's Office, Michigan
Sergeant Damon Gutzwiller | Santa Cruz County Sheriff's Office, California
Sheriff Andy Deric Clark | DeKalb County Sheriff's Office, Missouri
Police Officer Scott Hutton | Alexander Police Department, Arkansas
Lieutenant Stephen P. Williams | Moody Police Department, Alabama
Police Officer Waldis
Deputy Constable Caleb Daniel Rule | Fort Bend County Constable's Office - Precinct 4, Texas
Police Officer Nathan James Lyday | Ogden Police Department, Utah
Police Officer Cody N. Holte | Grand Forks Police Department, North Dakota
Trooper George Baker | Louisiana State Police, Louisiana
Deputy Sheriff Wyatt Christopher Maser | Bonneville County Sheriff's Office, Idaho
Police Officer Michael S. Mosher | Overland Park Police Department, Kansas

Time To Say Goodbye

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It’s the same story every night

I tell myself it’s time to say goodbye

I feel like I am just wasting time

I’ve got other things I need to do

If only I could break up with you

I can’t tolerate the stress you put me through

But it’s harder to do than I thought

And sometimes I feel like I cannot

You’re an addiction I have fought

Here is the cold hard fact and you have to face it

I want to get better and you want me complacent

You want me to stay here but I want to go places

But tonight will be the night

Candy Crush, I’m telling you goodbye

Wait, you’re giving me an hour of free lives

Ok maybe tomorrow……I can say goodbye

Who The Hell Are They?

64 Quotes After Grief and Life After Loss Whats your Grief

I wrote this one for the loss of any loved one but since it is suicide prevention week, I thought I would say this: If you are thinking about suicide, reach out, ask for help, you are not the only one affected by your decision. You are loved.

They say I will heal in time

They say one day I’ll be fine

They say everything happens for a reason

They say life is full of seasons

They say life will go on

They say every night ends at dawn

They say I’m not going crazy

They say one day I’ll smile at your memory

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Tell me, who the hell are they?

Have they ever been in this much pain?

Have they ever screamed and yelled at God?

Have they ever wondered, have they ever thought

That they can’t go on another day

I wonder then what they would say

Have they ever fell to their knees

Begging God, begging him please?

64 Quotes After Grief and Life After Loss Whats your Grief

They say there will be bad and good days

They say you’re not that far away

They say one day the pain will end

They say one day I’ll love again

They say time heals all wounds

They say one day I’ll notice the flowers bloom

That I’ll think of you and smile

When your old number I dial

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But tell me, who the hell are they?

Have they ever been in this much pain?

Have they ever screamed and yelled at God?

Have they ever wondered, have they ever thought

That they can’t go on another day

I wonder then what they would say

Have they ever fell to their knees

Begging God, begging him please?

I just want to be sad, I want to be angry

I just want you here beside me

I don’t want to be angry, I don’t want to be sad

I just want you back, I want you back

I don’t want to cry when I say your name

One day they say, one day, so they say

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What I Wouldn’t Give by We The Kings-

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