I Am Not Who I Am

I am not who I am

I have setbacks and I have sin

I may lose and I may win

I am not my selfish ways

I am who You have made

I may be slow to forgive

I may forget how You want me to live

I may give joy, I may give pain

I may lose what I have to gain

Some days I follow, some days I fall

Some days are silent, some days I hear Your call

Sometimes I pray all night and all day

Sometimes I forget and I have nothing to say

Sometimes I scream and shout

Sometimes I wonder what this life is about

Sometimes I know You, sometimes I forget who You are

Sometimes You seem so close, sometimes You are so far

Help me to remember who You made me to be

Help me to remember it’s only You I seek to please

Help me to remember I am not who I am

Help me to remember You died so I can

Remind Me Who I Am by Jason Gray – 

Change It All by No Resolve – 

Honest To God by Devin Dawson – 

A Troubled Heart, A Kind Heart

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A troubled heart used to beat so strong

A kind heart, thought he could survive the wrongs

A troubled heart broken but still loves

A kind heart pauses and then just shrugs

A troubled heart stitched back together for the hundredth time

A kind heart thinking I will try just one more time

A troubled heart looks around but can’t speak

A kind heart slowly becomes weak

A troubled heart wishes someone could see the trouble it’s in

A kind heart too tired to try, too worn out to try again

A troubled heart wonders why it’s still alive

A kind heart decides to give up tonight

A troubled heart can no longer see

A kind heart decides to no longer beat

A kind heart turns into a hard heart

A hard heart turns to stone, sets itself apart

A hard heart tries not to feel

A hard heart makes walls of steel

A hard heart acts like it doesn’t care

But inside a kind heart still beats there

A hard heart looks at a world that deceives

A kind heart must choose to continue to beat

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Oh My Soul by Casting Crowns- 

Troubled Heart by Kutless – 

Joy Is In Our Hearts by Sara Groves – 

 

 

 

This Chapter

I wrote this awhile ago,  just a reminder no matter what you are going through, it is only a chapter.  Keep flipping the pages, the next chapter could have you on top. Hope you enjoy reading.

This Chapter

 

This chapter in my life is only a chapter

Full of sadness and so little laughter

This chapter is only part of my story

That I must go through to see your glory

When I look back at what has been witten before

Did I love this life or I did I love You more

I read the chapters that have been

I am amazed how much I have sinned

This chapter is only a small part

How will I let this chapter affect my heart

This chapter is like a grain of sand

This chapter is being written by Your hand

I ponder on the blank pages of the future

I know your hands will finish the picture

As hard as I try to write the words down

I know only in You will they be found

These early chapters written on how I’ve died and how I’ve lived

How selfish I have been and how little did I give

This story is not complete and only You know how it will end

Will I live the rest trusting in you, not trying to comprehend

This chapter is only a small part

How will I let this chapter affect my heart

This chapter is like a grain of sand

This chapter is being written by your hand

God I pray as you write the next chapters

I pray it will be You I seek, You I am after

Even if in the present I don’t understand

I pray I will remember it is all part of Your plan

Seasons by Lydia Laird – 

A Season by Pillar – 

Seasons In The Sun by Terry Jacks – 

God Of Every Story by Laura Story – 

My Life Is Based On A True Story by Joey & Rory- 

My Story by Big Daddy Weave – 

New Story by Johanna J – 

Story Of My Life by Bon Jovi – 

The Chapters That Follow by Danger Silent – 

Write Your Story by Francesca Battistelli – 

I’m Proud Of You

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He never said I am proud of you

She never said I love you too

He never held you in his arms

And it’s you that you think you should harm

When she never said she wanted you

And you don’t know what to do

When the voices all seem so loud

And you feel your world is crashing down

Hear Me when I say I am proud of you

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When you shake like a leaf

I just need you to believe

That I love you, that I am proud of you

When all you feel is shame

And everyone else you blame

For the choices you make

For the hearts you break

And you don’t know what to do

When you don’t think they are there

And you don’t think anyone cares

When you can’t find another word to say

Just look to me and say my name

And you’ll know what to do

Come to me my love

Look to the heavens above

I cherish you, I want you

And know I am proud of you

I am your father, and you are my child

You mean the world to me, you are worthwhile

I hold you in my heart and in my arms

I will give you life and do you no harm.

And know I am proud of you

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Father Be Pleased by Todd Dulaney – 

What Version Of Me

What version of me

Will I let you see

The one who can smile through the pain

The one who dances in the rain

The one who keeps it all inside

The one who can’t find a safe place to hide

The one who screams at God to take it all away

The one that says yes God today is the day

The one who would take a bullet for you

The one who will walk away, find someone new

The one who has a million voices in his head

The one who will only listen to the one who bled

The one who has fears and doubts

The one who has life figured out

Tell me what version  you want to see

Does anyone want to know the real me

The hurt I feel, the anger locked away

The one who wonders who will listen to what I have to say

The one who says this one’s pretty good, maybe  they’ll like

The one whose voices in his head are always in a fight

The one who only knows how to pray

The one who says forget about it, live for another day

The one who loves with all his heart

The one who won’t let you know he fell apart

The one who wears the mask

The one whose real face won’t last

So tell me, what version do you want to see today

I can be that person if that’s the only way

Or

Should I just be me?

I Can Just Be Me by Laura Story –  

I Don’t Want To Be by Gavin Degraw – 

Do You Wanna Know by Kesha – 

Well, I was in an Art Of Dying kind of mood today.

Raining by Art of Dying – 

Best I Can by Art of Dying – 

Tear Down The Wall by Art of Dying – 

Best I Can by Decyfer Down – 

Best I Am by Flaw – 

 

Whataya Want From Me by Adam Lambert – 

Monster You Made by Pop Evil – 

Who Am I by Casting Crowns – 

Continue To Love

Catch up on the love and not hate series

Birds Of A Different Color

Birds Of A Different Color: The Sequel 

Birds Of A Different Color : Christmas Eve

Birds Of A Different Color: A New Chapter

Birds Of A Different Color- A New World

Birds Of A Different Color- The Division

Birds Of A Different Color – The Reconciliation

Birds Of A Different Color- Tragedy At Mandalay Bay

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The birds gathered in mourning again

Another school shooting, when will it end?

Another police officer killed in the line of fire

The evil tragedies were making the birds feel dire

The hawk looked at the eagle and asked, “what can we do, what can we say?”

“Why do they always seem to choose hate?”

“Why do they choose to live like this?”

“Sometimes, this life seems to be pointless”

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The eagle answered as he shed another tear

“We can not give up, we can not live in fear.”

“We must continue to have faith.”

“In all this mess, God will lead the way.”

“We must teach them it all starts at home.”

“We must tell them we are never alone.”

“We must give this country back to God!”

“How we live now is deeply flawed.”

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“We teach not to pray in school,

that it’s all about me and forget the golden rule.”

“Young birds  don’t learn how to fail,

so when they do, they don’t cope well.”

“Their entire lives are out for the world to see,

everything has to be perfect and they can never be in need.”

“They post pictures and Snapchat with smiles,

not letting anyone see they are going through trials.”

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“Holding it all inside until one day they snap,

do something that they can never take back.”

“It’s a tough world in which they live,

it is up to us to teach them they have so much to give.”

“Be honest and show some vulnerability,

Asking for help doesn’t mean you have a disability.”

“Hawk, we must stand strong,

show this world where they have gone wrong.”

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“We must give life and not take,

wake from their slumber, they must wake!”

“We must lend a helping hand,

we must heal this land!”

“They must know they are truly loved,

they must know about God above.”

“We will stand united in the face of adversity!”

“We must live our lives purposely,

showing love to all who enter our nests,

by going out in the world and telling the rest

about the good news of the one who died,

the one who loves, we must put away our pride!”

“We must remember when the winds are strong,

that even the strongest winds don’t last that long.”

“When the wind blows out the light,

we have to be persistent to reignite.”

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“We can never give up!”

“We must stop the hate and continue to love.”

“We can never, ever give up the fight!”

“Let our light light up the darkest night!”

Then the hawk, who was still new to the faith

Asked the eagle,  “how do we get others to see things our way?”

“We lead by example,” said the eagle, “let our actions be clear.”

“No matter the hate, no matter the terror, we will not fear!”

“We will pursue the enemy, even when they hide,

we will win because God himself will fight by our side.”

The hawk and eagle then flew over the land

Many other birds joined them, taking their stand

Their numbers grew as they flew from shore to shore

They helped birds, other animals, humans, and more

They talked their words but backed them up

These birds were showing the world how to love

Will you join the movement and show others how to live?

Let your actions show by the way you give

Never ever be dismayed and never ever give up

Help us make hate extinct as we always show love

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Weep With Me by Rend Collective – 

Not Even Now by Alisa Turner – 

Bleed The Same by Mandisa – 

Help Us by Tasha Page Lockhart – 

Give Love by Andy Grammar – 

Divided States of America by The Script –  

Prayer For Peace by North Mississippi All-Stars –  

Moving Forward by G.I. – 

Faith Hope Love Repeat by Brandon Heath –  

Come, In Our Dark Time by David Haas – 

I’ll Keep On Praying by Karen Peck – 

No Valentine’s Day

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There will be no Valentine’s Day today

For those whose life you took away

I’ve been at a loss on what to say

How could you be so void of love?

Why would you kill those here to protect us?

Prison time for you is just not enough

A 911 call and they went running

They had no idea what was coming

A knock on the door and you started gunning

You have a history of being a crook

Did your multiple times, then off the hook

But that’s no excuse for the lives you took

You’ve left children without a dad

Wives, trying to be strong when they are sad

It breaks my heart, I am more than mad

Your senseless act of violence

Now there is nothing but silence

But I pray they find God in the quietness

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I wish I could say tomorrow they will be alright

I wish I could say tomorrow the sun will shine bright

I just pray they know our love will surround them tonight

So many lives were changed that day

I pray for strength for the families to make it through today

I pray that  God will show them the way

I pray our community will be stronger

I pray that hate will be no longer

I pray we will remember these heroes of honor

They were husbands, fathers, and friends

Someday, maybe someday, our hearts will mend

Tomorrow their brothers will answer the call again

Today, thank a policeman, who willingly puts his/her life on the line

Today, thank all first responders as they do a lot more than just fight crime

Today, pray for the families whose loved ones won’t be coming home this time

We see it all over America, seven times this past week alone a police officer killed in the line of duty. As a reporter said, it feels completely different when it happens in your neighborhood. I will second that. Westerville has a strong police presence. Everywhere I go, it seems like I see a police officer. I tend to take it for granted. I cannot, we cannot, take them for granted anymore.

Thank you for being at our schools, protecting our children.

Thank you for being at the library I visit so often.

Thank you for being at our church, protecting our congregation.

Thank you for patrolling our streets,  protecting our families and our neighbors.

We do not show it enough but know that you are loved, respected, and appreciated.

Thank you for keeping us safe. Thank you for sacrificing your lives everyday. Thank you to your families.

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Heal (Find A Way) by Brian Courtney Wilson- 

Officer Down by Hannah Ellis – 

You Still Put The Uniform On by Holly Cahill- 

Hold The Light by Dierks Bentley – 

Last Call by Dave Bray – 

Even Then by Micah Tyler- 

Shelter by Carrollton-  

Sleeping In The Stars by Tim McGraw and Faith Hill-  

If I Had Only Known by Reba McEntire –  

I Miss You Daddy –  

By My Side

IMG_1078We watched the waves roll to the sea

As we sat out on the beach

In those two weathered chairs

I watched the breeze blow your hair

Our feet sinking in the sand

Reaching out to hold your hand

We watch the seabirds fly

Just sitting there, watching the world go by

The wind carrying a thousand memories

Every one had you sitting beside me

A flower in your hair, a smile on your face

And I thought this is such a beautiful place

The view was spectacular but it wouldn’t be the same

If you weren’t by my side in that picture frame

By My Side by Ned Ledoux – 

Love You All The Way by Sean Mcneill – 

Dance With Me by Phillip Phillips – 

The Wave by Blake Shelton – 

Gave You My Heart

 

I have posted this a couple times before.

I came home from work Friday night and Kim told me Deanna, one of her best friends and mentor, told her about a vision her daughter had. Her daughter just finished her freshman year of college and truly lives for Jesus.  Deanna said maybe Rob can turn her vision into a poem or a song. I took Kylie up to get her shower ready and sat down and this is what came out.

It is truly an inspiring vision and I hope my words do it justice.

Gave You My Heart

I gave you my heart and you walked away

You’re my dad, you were supposed to stay

I couldn’t keep it all together today

I grabbed what was left of my heart and walked to the beach

Walked far enough until your memory was out of reach

I screamed at you dad until I was too hoarse to speak

Then I saw a piece of sea glass so bright

It had such a mysterious light

It was like a piece of day in the darkest night

I bent down and dug with my free hand

There had to be more pieces under the sand

That’s when I felt the presence of another man

It was like a dream as my other hand held my heart

The one that you, dad, had ripped apart

Then I had a thought, this isn’t the end but a brand new start

I felt this man telling me to turn in his direction

But I couldn’t so I grabbed my sea glass collection

And I tried to hold a piece just right to see his reflection

I couldn’t turn around, I knew what he wanted me to do

I couldn’t give him my heart dad, I had given it to you

And I was scared he would walk away with it too

Then his hand touched my shoulder

My courage grew just a little bit bolder

My tears started to flow as I began to molder

I turned and as he reached for me I saw the scars on his hand

He looked at me and I knew he wasn’t just a man

That’s when I dropped my sea glass in the sand

I let him hold me for what seemed like an hour

I could feel his gentleness, as well as his power

I felt his love pour down on me like a summer shower

I whispered, “If I give you me heart will you walk away?”

He said “I’m your father. I’ve never left, I will always stay.”

I knew he was telling the truth so I gave my heart to him that day

(image credit: Kevin Carden Photography)

Busted Heart ( Hold On To Me) by For King and Country – 

Let Down Your Guard by JJ Heller – 

Every Beat Of My Broken Heart by Hawk Nelson – 

Take  A Broken Heart by V Rose – 

I Let My Heart Open by Charles Billinsgley –  

 

Here’s My Heart by Lauren Daigle – 

Friend Of A Wounded Heart by Point of Grace-  

And I Still Love You

I know your life, your lies, your dishonesty

your brokenness, your goodness, your inconsistency

your addiction, your pain, your heart, your soul

your hopes, your dreams you as a whole

And I still love you

 

I love you for who you are, not who you should be

I love you for not what you’ve done but for what you will do

I love you when you curse my name and when you confess

I love you when you are holy and when you are a mess

Why do you question, doubt, challenge My love

I am telling you to get up, rise up, look Above

Fight your doubts, fears, questions, and lies

I will be here, always, forever, by your side

 

I gave My Son, tortured, beaten died on the cross

Trials, troubles, doubts, I have felt the loss

Darkness, troubles, questions  you shall not fear

Faith, hope, love you will persevere

 

When your name I scream, I speak, I whisper

When times are tough, complicated or simpler

Your seconds, minutes, days are planned in the pages I wrote

Be still, listen, above the noise hear the words I spoke

 

Don’t overthink, don’t let your heart sink

You can’t ever break our bond, our link

Don’t get deflated, frustrated, aggravated

It’s really that simple and it’s not complicated

Everything you’ve done, are doing, will do

Doesn’t change the fact that I will always love you

And I will always love you