The Cheesecake Factory, our first date. I remember it like it was yesterday, what you wore, most of what we talked about it, your laugh, your smile, your innocence.
You asked if you could order a Bud Light with your salad. I smiled and thought it was the cutest thing I’d ever heard. I ordered the Louisiana Chicken Pasta with a Mich Ultra. I was never a fan of Bud Light.
We’ve only been back once in the last nineteen years since then. We were going through our first rough patch and I thought it would help to remember.
It didn’t go well.
But we survived, we healed.
At least I felt as if we did.
Now, I am sitting across from you for the third time at this restaurant. If my memory serves me well, this may be the exact table we sat at. If it’s not, it’s pretty close.
I brought us back here, back to the starting line, to see if we can get a new start. Remember why, how, when we fell in love.
I’m not ready to cross the finish line yet.
But here we are.
You order an Angry Orchard , without asking. You started drinking cider years ago when you went gluten free. I still order the Louisiana Chicken Pasta. I know, so many choices but I like what I like. But I order an IPA.
I guess we all change in our own ways.
We both kind of half smile at each other. It feels like we both are afraid to speak first.
How did we get here?
Slowly the words come but the conversation doesn’t flow like it did all those years ago. Every word seems like a struggle. Both of us are afraid to say the wrong thing so we don’t say much at all.
I try to say something funny. But you don’t laugh. Man, how I miss the sound of your laugh. Right now, it would light up my world just to see you smile. But you don’t.
I reach across the table and touch your hand. You start to pull away but you leave it there. But there’s no feeling there. No spark. No emotion.
Damn this sucks.
We eat in silence but there are so many words in my head.
How did we get here? Can this be fixed? What did I do? What did I not do? Is it worth fixing? Why can’t we talk like we used to? Why’s it so hard to tear down these walls we built? Why can’t we get back to where we were all those years ago, in this same restaurant, when we fell in love? Love, what is it, does it even exist? What happened to that light in your eyes? When did you know it was over? When did I quit trying? How did we lose it all? Why can’t we find something to connect us again?
I can’t turn my mind off. And maybe that’s the problem. Maybe I think too much instead of just being me, letting it flow.
Maybe it’s as simple as you don’t love me anymore.
Maybe that’s all there is too understand.
We finish our meals and both look at each other , another half smile.
And I know. In my heart I know.
Back here at the starting line, we’ve crossed the finish line.
Say Something by A Great Big World –
Over For You by Morgan Evans –
Leave Me Again by Kelsea Ballerini –
Hard Season by Matthew West-
Just Say I’m Sorry by Pink/Chris Stapleton-
I know it’s only made of wood and stone
But it’s the first place we called our home
It’s where we went when you became my wife
Where our girls grew up and learned about life
Where we had safety after a hard day
And it’s where we came when we lost our way
Where memories were more than the past
Where I thought our love would always last
Now there’s a for sale sign in the yard
And I never thought it would be this hard
To say goodbye to some wood and stone
And I never thought I’d feel this alone
In a place we called our home
We smile through our last Christmas Eve
And I really wish I could believe
Santa could save our love and our home
I watch you sitting there reading your book
You catch me and smile with a knowing look
Sometimes I swear you can read my mind
Wanting to give it another try, but it’s time
I see all the presents under the tree
But the only gift I want is for you to love me
That’s a miracle only God can provide
Cause we’re already living separate lives
Now there’s a for sale sign in the yard
And I never thought it would be this hard
To say goodbye to some wood and stone
And I never thought I’d feel this alone
In a place we called our home
We smile through our last Christmas Eve
And I really wish I could believe
God could save our love and our home
I wonder if these floors will still creak in a few years
I wonder if these walls will remember our laughs and tears
These windows never quite kept out the cold
There are so many stories left untold
Now there’s a for sale sign in the yard
And I never thought it would be this hard
To say goodbye to some wood and stone
And I never thought I’d feel this alone
In a place we called our home
We smile through our last Christmas Eve
And I really wish I could believe
We could save our love and our home
Wrapping Presents For Myself by Chris Isaak –
New Year’s Day by Rob Thomas –
Christmas Through The Years by Matthew West –
That Silent Night by Jim Brickman feat Kenny Rogers –
No One Cried
No one tried
No one died
No one cried
We just walked away
Like tomorrow is just another day
No words left to say
We just walked away
No one died
No one tried
No one cried
Tore our world apart
Can’t stitch a broken heart
Cupid missed the mark
Too much hurt, too much pain
Does it matter who’s to blame
What did we gain ?
(No one cried)
Pulled out my hair
Thought I still cared
Looked for us everywhere
Thought I wanted more
Picked myself up off the floor
Walked out the door
(No One Cried)
We said forever
Made a vow together
Guess we forgot to remember
Doesn’t it make you sad
Doesn’t it make you kinda mad
How did it get this bad
(No One Cried)
No one tried
No one died
No one cried
We just walked away
Like tomorrow is just another day
No words left to say
We just walked away
No one died
No one tried
No one cried
No more slow dances
No more second chances
Maybe under different circumstances
The candle flame burned out
Nothing left to work out
Nothing left to talk about
(No One Cried)
Two became one became two
Apart we grew
Same picture different view
No one tried
To keep the love alive
No place left to hide
Tears from the past
When love was meant to last
The end slowly came fast
No one tried
No one died
No one cried
We just walked away
Like tomorrow is just another day
No words left to say
We just walked away
No one died
No one tried
No one cried
(Guitar solo then next part is acoustic slow)
Maybe someday we will find
Why we couldn’t hit rewind
Back to when you were mine
When you cross that memory
The one of you and me
And you smile for what used to be
When the memories fade
We remember what we once made
We will let a tear escape
As the love we had disappears
Throughout the years
We shared some tears
There’s no more left to cry
We said our final goodbye
Wish we would’ve tried
(No one cried)
No one tried
No one died
No one cried
We just walked away
Like tomorrow is just another day
No words left to say
We just walked away
No one died
No one tried
No one cried
I wish we would’ve tried
A part of me died
A part of me cried
I wish we, I wish we would’ve tried
A part of me died
I cried….
Death Without A Funeral by Jason Gray –
What Happened To Perfect by Lukas Graham –
Tender Is The Night by Whitford St. Holmes –
Too Late by Angels Fall –
Wreck You by Lori McKenna –
It’s Over by Rod Stewart –
Let Me Go by Avril Lavigne –
Used To Love You by Gwen Stefani –
Was A Time by Anthony D’ Amato –
Where Do We Go From Here by Oleander –
The Getting Over It Part by Blue October –
Sometimes by One Less Reason –
Is Nothing Sacred by Meat Loaf –
When I first started this I was thinking it would be about old friends or old relationship, like Adele’s Someone Like You song. Then I heard RaeLynn’s Love Triangle and it went a different direction. Hope you like. Dads, be there for you kids, no matter what. They need you in their life. The statistics of how children turn out without a father in their lives are not good. Be there. Be thankful for them. Love them. Be thankful for forgiveness. One of the most important things you can do as a dad is to love their mom. Show them what a real man and a real father and a real stick it out, work it out relationship should look like.
When I left it wasn’t your choice
It must be strange to hear my voice
After all these years
After you cried a million tears
“I’m sorry I was wrong.”
“I should never have left you for so long.”
“I’m sorry I decided to leave.”
“I know that must be hard for you to believe.”
“I felt like there was no other way.”
“When I packed my bags and left that day.”
“Your mom has raised you well.”
“You’re beautiful inside and out I can tell.”
I could also tell I had scarred her
Her first question, “Why didn’t you try harder?”
“Wasn’t I worth trying?”
“Do you know how many nights I spent crying?”
“I promise daddy, I could’ve been better!”
“Don’t you think I was worth one call, one letter?”
“I know you and mom had your troubles
But why did you keep me outside your bubble?”
“Do you know many nights I yelled into my pillow at you?”
“Do you know how many days I wondered what did I do?”
I just stared at her, how could I cut her out of my life?
There was nothing I could say, she was right
She had so many questions that hurt me so
But nothing like the pain I caused her I know
I cried my first tear
I let go of all my fears
All the times I could’ve
All the times I should’ve
I let them all go, left the past in the past
Here she was in front of me at last
I asked, “Will you ever forgive me?”
“I did dad, a long time ago can’t you see?”
“I prayed for you!”
“I waited for you!”
“I did have so much anger and hate
But God taught me that love was the only way.”
“As hard as it was I slowly learned to forgive
So that I could learn to live.”
“I opened up the walls surrounding my heart.”
“Here I am dad, willing to give us another start!”
I lost it all, I crumbled in her arms
I promised her I would never again harm
If God could help us reunite
Then I knew I had to give Him my life
Thank you for mended relationships
Thank you God for fixing this
Never again will something come in between
I will spend the rest of my life letting her know how much she means
Love Triangle by Raelynn-
Perfect Story by Idina Menzel –
Every Other Weekend by Kenny Chesney and Reba McEntire-
Two Houses by Matthew West –
Family by TobyMac –
Hey Mom and Dad by Sloppy –
Song For My Father by Sarah McLachlan –
Forgiveness by Matthew West –
Forgiveness by TobyMac feat LeCrae –
Forgiveness Is A Miracle by Jason Gray –
My new smash #1 hit song. Crossed over to country, rock , pop and Christian charts. #1 in 37 countries, over 3 million downloads. That my friends is called visualization. Now let’s see what you think and make it happen.
Just add music and the right voice, maybe like Justin Furstenfeld of Blue October or Chris Brown from One Less Reason or Meat Loaf, but the last two have new cd’s out so maybe the next one and Blue October had new cd at beginning of year so…
No One Cried
No one tried
No one died
No one cried
We just walked away
Like tomorrow is just another day
No words left to say
We just walked away
No one died
No one tried
No one cried
Tore our world apart
Can’t stitch a broken heart
Cupid missed the mark
Too much hurt, too much pain
Does it matter who’s to blame
What did we gain ?
(No one cried)
Pulled out my hair
Thought I still cared
Looked for us everywhere
Thought I wanted more
Picked myself up off the floor
Walked out the door
(No One Cried)
We said forever
Made a vow together
Guess we forgot to remember
Doesn’t it make you sad
Doesn’t it make you kinda mad
How did it get this bad
(No One Cried)
No one tried
No one died
No one cried
We just walked away
Like tomorrow is just another day
No words left to say
We just walked away
No one died
No one tried
No one cried
No more slow dances
No more second chances
Maybe under different circumstances
The candle flame burned out
Nothing left to work out
Nothing left to talk about
(No One Cried)
Two became one became two
Apart we grew
Same picture different view
No one tried
To keep the love alive
No place left to hide
Tears from the past
When love was meant to last
The end slowly came fast
No one tried
No one died
No one cried
We just walked away
Like tomorrow is just another day
No words left to say
We just walked away
No one died
No one tried
No one cried
(Guitar solo then next part is acoustic slow)
Maybe someday we will find
Why we couldn’t hit rewind
Back to when you were mine
When you cross that memory
The one of you and me
And you smile for what used to be
When the memories fade
We remember what we once made
We will let a tear escape
As the love we had disappears
Throughout the years
We shared some tears
There’s no more left to cry
We said our final goodbye
Wish we would’ve tried
(No one cried)
No one tried
No one died
No one cried
We just walked away
Like tomorrow is just another day
No words left to say
We just walked away
No one died
No one tried
No one cried
I wish we would’ve tried
A part of me died
A part of me cried
I wish we, I wish we would’ve tried
A part of me died
I cried….
Death Without A Funeral by Jason Gray –
What Happened To Perfect by Lukas Graham –
Tender Is The Night by Whitford St. Holmes –
Too Late by Angels Fall –
Wreck You by Lori McKenna –
It’s Over by Rod Stewart –
Let Me Go by Avril Lavigne –
Used To Love You by Gwen Stefani –
Was A Time by Anthony D’ Amato –
Where Do We Go From Here by Oleander –
The Getting Over It Part by Blue October –
Sometimes by One Less Reason –
Is Nothing Sacred by Meat Loaf –
My God, My Music, My Life 