This Darkness

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I wrote this several years ago when I was trying to turn the words into a song. That hasn’t worked out, maybe because I’m not as good  a song writer as John Cooper and Skillet.  The first two songs after the post reflect that. Some day I will get there. Just have to keep writing.

 

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This Darkness

 

Even when I’m in this darkness

I feel your hand reaching out

When every night the skies are starless

You whisper and it sounds like a shout

 

I fall deeper and deeper in

I run from You, run from my shame

I sin, I sin, I sin, I sin again

I don’t understand how You still call my name

 

This darkness is overwhelming

Your voice is like a rope

This darkness is all consuming

Your word is my hope

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Why can’t I get out of this mess?

Why do I run from Your love?

When I am struggling to find rest

I hear You say lift your eyes  above

 

Everytime I feel your warmth shine

I run, I run, I run to the cold rain

Everytime You say give me all I says it’s mine

And I fall, I fall, it’s always the same

 

This darkness is overwhelming

Your voice is like a rope

This darkness is all consuming

Your word is my hope

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As I struggle to comprehend

As I struggle to understand

I hear you say this isn’t the end

and then I reach for your hand

 

This darkness is overwhelming

Your voice is like a rope

This darkness is all consuming

Your word is my hope

I reach for your hand

When I am consumed by all my problems

When I have hit rock bottom

When I can’t see through the darkness

I hear You say you love me regardless

I reach for your hand

 

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I Want To Live by Skillet – 

Out Of Hell by Skillet – 

I Will Rise Again by Jason Gray – 

In This Darkness by Ginny Owens – 

Rise by  Colton Dixon – 

Rise by Sixx AM – 

Face Everything And Rise by Papa Roach – 

In The Darkness by Dustin Kensrue – 

March Out Of The Darkness by Papa Roach – 

I Wrote This One For You

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She might be out in the crowd

Singing all the words out loud

She might think I wrote this one  for her

For the times that weren’t  and the times that were

But I wrote this one for you

He might think I wrote this for him and his boys

They can sing along with out of tune noise

Another song to the girls they serenade

But that’s not why these words were made

Cause I wrote this one for you

I wrote this one for you

Because  you’ve always been true

I climbed the mountain and passed through the valley

Because you were always there with me

I wrote this one for you

They hear the piano and the kids dance around

The  words can pick them up when they are down

It’s one of those songs that get stuck in your head

They’ll think I wrote it for them but instead

I wrote this one for you

Because you’ve always been true

I’ve climbed the mountain and passed through the valley

Because you were always there with me

I wrote this one for you

I don’t know where I would be

If you hadn’t come running after me

If you hadn’t pulled me into your arms

And protected me from harm

So they can sing your  song

So they can sing right  along

They can stand on their chairs

They can hold their phones in the air

They can sing right til the last note ends

And they can think I wrote this one for them

But  I wrote this one for you

I wrote this one for you

I wrote this one for you

 

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1 Song by Matthew West-  

The One I Wrote For You by Cheyenne Jackson-  

This One’s For You by Luke Combs- 

Your Song by Elton John- 

Have All The Songs Been Written by The Killers- 

Still Writing Songs About You by Old Dominion – 

Hitchcock Movies

I wrote this May 28, 2016.

I picture it being harder, faster,  maybe Skillet, Thousand Foot Krutch or NF could take it on. LOL, I can only dream.  Well, since I have all but given up on my words becoming songs you get to be the first ones to see what’s in my head today. After all, it seems like every time I give up on something in my life, God steps in so….. I will wait, I know in God’s time and His will. Maybe it will never happen.  Until it does or until it doesn’t….I will let God take these words where He wants them to go.  I will keep writing what He puts in my head.

Hitchcock Movies
I wanna be a Marvel superhero

But I always feel like I’m less than zero

Did I just say that? Let me push rewind

Man I’ve been messed up a long time

I want the whole world to know my name

Maybe I’m just playing the wrong game

I can’t believe these choices I make

Man, I think I’m losing my way, I’ve lost my way

It’s like I’m tearing my world apart

Ripping out my heart, do I have a heart?

Can’t you see me? Can’t you see me? Can’t you see….

It seems like I have Hitchcock movies playing in my head

I have killer birds and psycho killers

I don’t know what I’m gonna do, my soul is dead

I only need one thing but I have all these fillers

 

I push you away, tell you to leave

Then ask, why won’t you reach out to me?

Why are all these demons in my head?

Man, I’d be better off dead, am I already dead?

I want to rip out my brain, am I going insane?

If I’m being honest I know I’m the only one to blame

Oh my God what have I done?

Oh my God what have I become?

Can’t you see me? Can’t you see me? Can’t you see….

It seems like I have Hitchcock movies playing in my head

I have killer birds and psycho killers

I don’t know what I’m gonna do, my soul is dead

I only need one thing but I have all these fillers

I’m on my knees

Begging you please

Take my life, take my life, take my life

Cut these demons out, I’ll give you the knife

Can’t you see I’ve hit the bottom

I’m no longer fighting Him, fighting Him

Rip off these chains

Take my shame

You alone have taken my sin, You alone give me reason to live

You alone forgive all, You alone forgive all, You alone forgive

You can see me, You can see me, I know you see….

It seems like I have Hitchcock movies playing in my head

I have killer birds and psycho killers

I don’t know what I’m gonna do, my soul is dead

I only need one thing but I have all these fillers

I only need one thing

Fully Known by JJ Heller – 

Guard Your Heart by 1 Girl Nation –  

Outta My Mind by Anthem Lights – 

Therapy Session by NF – 

Madness In Me by Skillet – 

Running With Giants by Thousand Foot Krutch – 

No One Cried

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My new smash #1 hit song. Crossed over to country, rock , pop and Christian charts. #1 in 37 countries, over 3 million downloads.  That my friends is called visualization. Now let’s see what you think and make it happen.

Just add music and the right voice, maybe like Justin Furstenfeld of Blue October or Chris Brown from One Less Reason or Meat Loaf, but the last two have new cd’s out so maybe the next one and Blue October had new cd at beginning of year so…

No One Cried

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

Tore our world apart

Can’t stitch a broken heart

Cupid missed the mark

Too much hurt, too much pain

Does it matter who’s to blame

What did we gain ?

(No one cried)

 

Pulled out my hair

Thought I still cared

Looked for us everywhere

Thought I wanted more

Picked myself up off the floor

Walked out the door

(No One Cried)

 

We said forever

Made a vow together

Guess we forgot to remember

Doesn’t it make you sad

Doesn’t it make you kinda mad

How did it get this bad

(No One Cried)

 

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

No more slow dances

No more second chances

Maybe under different circumstances

The candle flame burned out

Nothing left to work out

Nothing left to talk about

(No One Cried)

 

Two became one became two

Apart we grew

Same picture different view

No one tried

To keep the love alive

No place left to hide

Tears from the past

When love was meant to last

The end slowly came fast

 

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

(Guitar solo  then next part is acoustic slow)

 

Maybe someday we will find

Why we couldn’t  hit rewind

Back to when you were mine

When you cross that memory

The one of you and me

And you smile for what used to be

When the memories fade

We remember what we once made

We will let a tear escape

 

As the love we had disappears

Throughout the years

We shared some tears

There’s no more left to cry

We said our final goodbye

Wish we would’ve tried

(No one cried)

 

No one tried

No one died

No one cried

We just walked away

Like tomorrow is just another day

No words left to say

We just walked away

No one died

No one tried

No one cried

 

I wish we would’ve tried

A part of me died

A part of me cried

I wish we, I wish we would’ve tried

A part of me died

I cried….

 

 

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Death Without A  Funeral by Jason Gray –  

What Happened To Perfect by Lukas Graham – 

Tender Is The Night by Whitford St. Holmes – 

Too Late by Angels Fall – 

Wreck You by Lori McKenna – 

It’s Over by Rod Stewart – 

Let Me Go by Avril Lavigne – 

Used To Love You by Gwen Stefani – 

Was A Time by Anthony D’ Amato – 

Where Do We Go From Here by Oleander – 

The Getting Over It Part by Blue October – 

Sometimes by One Less Reason – 

Is Nothing Sacred by Meat Loaf – 

 

This Darkness

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I wrote this several years ago when I was trying to turn the words into a song. That hasn’t worked out, maybe because I’m not as good  a song writer as John Cooper and Skillet.  The first two songs after the post reflect that. Some day I will get there. Just have to keep writing.

 

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This Darkness

 

Even when I’m in this darkness

I feel your hand reaching out

When every night the skies are starless

You whisper and it sounds like a shout

 

I fall deeper and deeper in

I run from You, run from my shame

I sin, I sin, I sin, I sin again

I don’t understand how You still call my name

 

This darkness is overwhelming

Your voice is like a rope

This darkness is all consuming

Your word is my hope

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Why can’t I get out of this mess?

Why do I run from Your love?

When I am struggling to find rest

I hear You say lift your eyes  above

 

Everytime I feel your warmth shine

I run, I run, I run to the cold rain

Everytime You say give me all I says it’s mine

And I fall, I fall, it’s always the same

 

This darkness is overwhelming

Your voice is like a rope

This darkness is all consuming

Your word is my hope

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As I struggle to comprehend

As I struggle to understand

I hear you say this isn’t the end

and then I reach for your hand

 

This darkness is overwhelming

Your voice is like a rope

This darkness is all consuming

Your word is my hope

I reach for your hand

When I am consumed by all my problems

When I have hit rock bottom

When I can’t see through the darkness

I hear You say you love me regardless

I reach for your hand

 

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I Want To Live by Skillet – 

Out Of Hell by Skillet – 

I Will Rise Again by Jason Gray – 

In This Darkness by Ginny Owens – 

Rise by  Colton Dixon – 

Rise by Sixx AM – 

Face Everything And Rise by Papa Roach – 

In The Darkness by Dustin Kensrue – 

March Out Of The Darkness by Papa Roach – 

I Was Going To Change The World

 

I always thought I would change the world. Then I looked at the world and said good luck Rob.

When I look back on who I was and who I am I can honestly say I don’t think the world has changed me. At times it did. At times I was completely different than the person I knew was. I let external circumstances affect the internal me. If I were to count I would have to say those times I could count on one hand. God has changed me a lot more than this world ever could.

If you knew me when I was fifteen or now, at the ripe old age of forty five, I think you would say I am the same. Not all of that is good.  I don’t talk much. I keep my thoughts to myself. Not much bothers me. Some would call it emotionally detached but I call it life goes on. Does that make me a bad person ? I don’t think so.  Do people often think I don’t care or I am self centered ? I bet they do, but that’s not the case.

I don’t have a “Facebook ” life or a perfect marriage. It’s not all sunshine and roses. Sometimes it’s thunderstorms and thorns. I am being more vulnerable that I ever have and it’s scary. I know God is with me every step. It makes me braver. It doesn’t matter if people approve of me or what I write. I try to please one person only and since He gives  me the words I only hope they come out as He intended. I honestly don’t know how or why some of the thoughts I get pop into my head, often at the weirdest times.

A little over a year ago I felt God push me to start this blog. After many no’s from me and many yes’s from God, I started to write. One thing that I found when I was looking how to get followers was to be consistent in your theme. Consistent is one thing my brain doesn’t follow. Yes, I talk about God , life and music – but I am all over the place.

Whatever God puts in my head or on my heart.

So maybe I haven’t changed the world. But I haven’t let the world change me either. Maybe, just maybe, God has taken these words and changed one of you. Made you see things differently.  Made you think if God can do this for him then maybe He can do that for me.

If I helped change one person then that is enough.  Because maybe that one person can change one person who can change one person and when it is all said and done,

WE CAN CHANGE THE WORLD TOGETHER.

Thanks for reading.  Be sure to keep this open in your browser all week so you don’t forget me. 🙂

I won’t be posting anything else this week to spend time with the family and disconnect from the world.

Here are a few of my posts over the last year plus a month. If you are a new follower and missed the old posts, feel free to click on whatever catches your eye. Maybe some followers that have been with me for awhile would just like to revisit some that touched you before. This isn’t all my posts.

Have a good week.  Will post again Friday with some new music.

I have had talks with God.  God I am tired   Thank You God   God, We Need To Talk     Dear God, Are You Hearing My Prayers?   Dear God, We Are Worth Saving                                 Thanks God, But No Thanks

I have talked about my life. I’m an introvert   What I Learned Last Week   The Older I Get      Date Night         Today Was A Good Day        My Hometown      Kayhla’s Wedding      Kylie’s Baptism    23 Days Down, 59 Days To Go      Happy 10 Year anniversary to my wife

I have talked about my dad and those that have passed before us.    Memorial Day                    Happy Father’s Day    In Memory of My Father – Two Years Today                                                    The Drummer   For Those Of Us Left Behind

I have talked of the importance of being a good father and what a good father we have in God          Move With Me Now- from the Loop      Thank You Mo Willems                                           I Am With You Daughter   Daughters       Date Night                                                                              It’s All About Me – A Child’s Version                                                                                                    Imperfect Father, Imperfect Daughter, Perfect Love

I have talked about running. My Running    Steps of Faith                                                              The Ups and Downs of Training a 9/10 Year Old- and my spiritual life                                   Learning From Disappointments                                                                                                         Learning From Disappointments Part 2 – from my wife Kim, NYC Marathon runner         The Boston Marathon- The Race    Cap City Half Marathon – USA National Championships

I have tackled bullying and people with disabilities.   Let Me Win, But If I Can’t Win       Who You Are    When You Look In The Mirror

I’ve beat on the government for the crap they allow in our foods and I’ve posted some fitness thoughts to combat the crap.  My Interview With The FDA  Where Are You?          Temple Fit Tip of the Week 10/1    Temple Fit Tip Of The Week 10/8                                             Temple Fit Tip Of The Week 10/15   Temple Fit Tip Of The Week 10/28                                         Temple Fit Tip – Show Up Everyday          Do You Stress About The Number On The Scale?

I have told stories.  The Maze    The Funhouse of Mirrors                                                               The Haunted House     Ungrateful      The Turkey   The Story Of A Snowflake                        The Ornament    The Christmas Tree   The Widow     The Pebble     The First Bud Of Spring- A Love Story      I Could Believe In God – A Story     Rodney The Raccoon – Inside The Mask     I Didn’t Like You      Let Me Fail

I have wrote poems. When Words Fail    I Am Only Words    Now That I Know The Words      Thunder In My Heart   If It’s Only An Hour    No Clue    If I Were An Island  I Can’t Even Put It In A Song    Random Thoughts In A Poem              Gave You My Heart           Why Not Mine?      Pen To Paper    I Know What It’s Like     What Version Of Me     The Mask                    Standing In The Fire

I have wrote song lyrics, or maybe they are just poems. Some of them I can hear in my head. I can hear the music. God just didn’t give me the ability to get out what’s in my head to make it a reality. I believe in God and His plan and I believe one day He will have someone cross my path that will write the music. Maybe someone already has but they are too afraid to get the music out of their head. Don’t be afraid. This Disease                         Don’t Be Afraid    I’m Not Superman     Living In Sin     This Chapter                               Graduation Song      Hitchcock Movies   Bruises And Scars   Let Me See Her                  Patching Walls and Scrubbing Floors

I’ve had some just totally random thoughts and posts just to clear my head. Rants and Raves    What Has Happened?     Random Thoughts In A Poem                                                         I Was Thinking…      The Music Never Dies     Cinderella and Forgiveness                                          I’m Getting A Divorce       GPS           Are You Ready For Some Football?                                    Record Companies, The Voice, & American Idol

I have wrote about  my every day life and how what I see can relate to God.                       What if it’s EVERYTHING    What I Learned Last Week   My Ride – It’s A Beautiful World      Running With Sin    I Have A Friend   How Trees Are Like People   Expecting A Harvest

I have written about the good, the bad, the ugly, and the beautiful parts of being married or in a relationship.   You can read all of those in the posts above and on other posts I have not listed if you check out my site.

I have tried to share the love of music each Friday. You can check all those posts out if you would like.  I am sure there are a lot of musicians you have never heard of.

 

 

That’s How You Change The World by Newsboys – 

We Could Change The World by Matt Redman – 

We Are More by Ziggy Marley – 

Love Will Find Away by Michael Franti – 

Let Me See Her

 

My neck hurts from looking behind

A memory flashed and I lost my mind

I wasn’t here but in another time

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

It’s like I take one step forward and two steps back

I pray to God to let me move but I sit here while the devil attacks

I’ve been here so many times I think I’ve lost track

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

I know God that she’s your daughter

Let me see her like You do

I know in your hands you got her

Let me see her like you do

I know what she did , that’s not her

Let me see her like you do

It’s crazy how life got in the way

We grew apart until that fateful day

That’s the day she decided not to pray

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

Oh God let me forget, I just wanna forget

Maybe the lesson to be learned hasn’t happened yet

Her sins are forgiven , You paid that debt

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

I know God that she’s your daughter

Let me see her like You do

I know in your hands you got her

Let me see her like you do

I know what she did , that’s not her

Let me see her like you do

Oh God I’m tired of being angry

Oh God I know this person isn’t me

Oh God help me to see, help me to see

Oh God Help me to forgive

Oh God I just want to live

Oh God to Your will let me submit

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

Let me see her God like you do

Let me see her God like you do

Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath – 

Daughter Of The King by Tricia Brock – 

In The Eyes by 1 Girl Nation – 

Father’s Eyes by Mark Schultz – 

His Eyes by Steven Curtis Chapman – 

Beloved by Jordan Feliz – 

Beloved Child by Tru-Serva – 

Beloved by Lara Landon – 

 

Close Your Eyes by Michael Buble –  

 

Angry

Bruises And Scars

 

The bruises are gone but the scars remain

She will never look at you the same

You were supposed to be her protector

You were never meant to neglect her

What were you thinking ?

Do you blame it on your drinking?

That’s no excuse , that doesn’t make you a man

Tell me where do you stand?

You think those words won’t leave a mark

Man those go straight to her heart

They leave a scar only she and God can see

Why don’t you just let her go free

Let her learn to spread her wings

Let her learn how much beauty she brings

Would you want your daughter treated like that?

Always flinching, always watching her back

Man, why can’t you understand?

She was made from God’s own hand

If you keep treating her like that

I know where you will spend eternity at

Daughter, I know you want to scream and shout

On your knees, your prayers, He hears, that I never doubt

Don’t despair

Know someone cares

Daughter, I pray no matter what you go through tonight

You’ll remember the scars Jesus bears so you know there is a light

When the bruises are gone and the scars remain

Daughter I want you to know that He knows your name

He knows your name, He knows your name, He knows your name

October is officially domestic violence month but we don’t hear about it. All we hear in October is breast cancer, a worthy cause to fight also and one that needs to be fought daily as well. We don’t see any football teams wearing purple. It simply isn’t talked about.  Domestic violence is something we need to look at every day, because every day someone you know is the victim of it.  One in three women, one in four men are victims. One of of every fifteen  children are exposed to domestic violence and 90% of these children witness domestic violence a year. Domestic violence is the third leading cause of homelessness in the United States.  Domestic violence costs more than $37 billion a year in law enforcement involvement, legal work, medical and mental health treatment, and lost productivity at companies.

These are reported.  Most domestic violence incidents are NEVER reported.  Speak up, speak out, and make a difference for victims of domestic violence. The time is now to change these facts.

Silenced my Mersi Stone – 

Face Down by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus – 

Alyssa Lies by Jason Michael Carroll –  

The Door by JJ Essen – 

Leaving You Behind by Emii – 

Lies and Bruises by Ryan Daniel – 

Luka by Suzanne Vega – 

No More by Kuzie James – 

Voices Carry by Til Tuesday – 

Broken Girl by Matthew West – 

Beautiful by MercyMe – 

God’s Daughter by Son of Adam – 

I Believe You Domestic Abuse and Faith Community –

He Knows My Name by The McRaes – 

He Knows My Name by Francesca Battistelli –