Patching Walls and Scrubbing Floors

Patching Walls And Scrubbing Floors

Patching walls and scrubbing floors

Replacing broken dishes, replacing doors

What happened to our love?

Yelling words that keep the neighbors awake

Slamming doors hard enough to cause a quake

Why is there so much bad blood?

You’re not the same and neither am I

We stare in disbelief and wonder why

How did we get to this place?

We keep playing these head games

I know we are both to blame

Can we have a heart to heart, face to face?

I pull my hair out, frustration sets in

Halfway through I wonder why did we begin

Are you still here?

Have you checked out, want to be anywhere else

We have our children, quit thinking of your self

This was my worst fear

Can we get to where we were before?

Instead of patching walls and scrubbing floors

Do we walk away or give it one more try?

Were all these years just a mistake?

Was our love for each other fake?

Do we talk it out or say one last goodbye?

Are we just actors in a movie, playing our role

On to the next scene, same ole same ole

I don’t want to be in this movie

I’m here, let’s take that first step

Look to the future and try to forget

Take a good look at you, a good look at me

There is only one way to heal, to make us better

We need to look to the One who brought us together

‘Cause I’m done fighting these wars

I’m done patching walls and scrubbing floors

If We’re Honest by Francesca Battestelli –  

House Divided by Josh Wilson –

Restored by Matthew West – 

I Don’t Wanna Fight by Westlife – 

Don’t Know What You Got Til It’s Gone by Cinderella – 

Until It’s Over by Oleander – 

Do I by Luke Bryan – 

Angry All The Time by Tim Mcgraw – 

Take It Back by Toni Braxton & Babyface- 

Fighting For Something by The Wrecking – 

Love Is Not A Fight by Warren Barfield – 

Tired of Fighting With You by Barenaked Ladies – 

Feel Again by Blue October – 

Losing Ground by Tyrone Wells – 

Fight For It by Estelle –

What Are We Fighting For by John Berry – 

Exhale by Plumb – 

I Give Her To You

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I wrote this one around the same time I wrote the one from yesterday. It’s when I gave up and gave her to God that is when things started to change. I felt at peace and God started to change Kim. It’s when I listened to God and let her go and gave her to Him.

Sometimes when your at your wit’s end and you keep trying to fix it yourself, you just need to stop and give it to God and let Him do the work.

In case you missed it, here is the post from yesterday:

It’s Not About You

I Give Her To You

Today I decided to quit

I gave you my heart

My words couldn’t get through

Now it’s time for Yours to start

Today I decided to pray

I know you can carry this boulder

I give it all to You to lead her

I give it to you to take off my shoulders

She’s left You, her family and friends

For something is leading her to sin

It’s her choice to make

It’s her soul at stake

Today, I give her to You

Today, I gave up

Today, I decided to walk away

Today, I decided to leave

Today, I heard You say stay

Today, I give her to You

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You say be still and let Me speak

It’s not for you to understand

Today she will hear My words

Today she will grab My hand

You say You waited for me not to do it myself

You say You waited for me to let You in

When things are a mess I am the only one you need

You say only You can lead her from her sin

Today, she turned back to you

Today, she cried until she heard your voice

Today, she gave up and gave it to You

Today, when I gave up, she made her choice

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Right On Time by Aaron Cole (feat TobyMac) – 

Battles by The Afters –  

No Fight Left by JJ Heller – 

Give It All by We Are Messengers – 

It’s Not About You

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A few years back, my wife and I went through a very difficult time. Through the many days and nights of fighting and lost sleep, nothing was changing.

In a moment of quietness, when I had all but given up, I heard God’s voice. It’s the only time I have ever heard God’s voice, at least so clearly.

I heard a voice say let her go. It startled me actually. It was so clear that I looked around the room to make sure I was alone. I, on the brink of giving up anyway, said that’s what I was going to do anyway. Then I heard the voice say, no, let her go to me. This isn’t about you.

I then wrote this.

Also, for those of you who don’t believe God can speak to us in this world today, when we were going through this a lady we barely knew at our church sent Kim an email. She said I don’t know what you are going through, but God told me to send this song to you. It was Need You Now by Plumb which was exactly what my wife, and I,  needed to hear.

Just remember when you are experiencing something terrible, maybe it’s not about you. Maybe God knows you are strong enough to take it and will use you to help someone else.

It’ Not About You

I didn’t want to be married

She wasn’t what I looked for

You had us cross paths

You brought her to my door

I asked You why and You said

It’s not about you, it’s about her

She will help you believe in me

Come to me, marry her and no other

Now I’m asking why, why, why

It’s not about you, it’s about her

I’m crying out why, why, why

You say bring her to me, her Father

I can’t believe she did this

She’s left the both of us

Is this what You wanted

How can I ever trust?

You whisper be strong

This is why you are here

To show My love for her

Be strong and do not fear

I need you to stay

It may seem unfair

But you will lead the way

This cross you must bear

She needs to see my love

She needs to know I’m her Father

She needs to find who she is in me

She needs to know she’s my daughter

But it’s made me question you

(trust in Me and know my ways are good)

It’s made me to never want to trust

(My ways are good, I will never harm you)

What do I do, where do I turn?

(turn to Me, I will always be there)

This isn’t about you

it’s all about her

It’s not about you

Your marriage will be stronger

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Strong Enough by Matthew West-  

Stronger by Mandisa-  

Stronger Than We Think by Danny Gokey- 

Stronger Than You Think You Are by Taranda Green- 

The Mask

This is my last Halloween post. I hope you enjoyed the stories. If you missed any be sure to go back and check out The Maze, The Funhouse of Mirrors and The Haunted House.

Even though I am no Edgar Allan Poe this is the scariest yet ( but don’t worry, it has a happy ending.)  We all wear masks! This mask story is just one of many I could tell. It is a true story and it could happen to you. Not that the other stories weren’t true- that’s up for you to decide. Reader beware!

You wake up each morning

Ignore all the warnings

With a smile on your face

Our love was being replaced

Breakfast made and the kids are dressed

Don’t even know their lives are about to be a mess

Out the door they go to school                                                                                                   You let the devil make you a fool

I come home from work

But you’ve been digging in dirt

You show me that beautiful smile

Right now, you are just in denial

You wear a mask of past shames

Yet, you continue to play games

You say you aren’t the one to blame

The mask of your past caused this pain

You where the mask of lies and deceive

Your family is the one you leave

You’re wearing a mask

Did you think this would last?

But you can’t hide it well

Did you think I couldn’t tell?

Oh love, what have you done?

Was it all just for fun?

You’re tearing our world apart                                                                                                   You’re breaking our kids hearts

Fast forward through the hurt and lies

Fast forward through the tears we cried

Fast forward through the pain                                                                                                   What did you think you had to gain?

I gave up and God stepped in

“Now let me take all this sin, ”

He whispered to me “it’s not about you,

I want you to  stay until I am through”

He walked us through the dirt and mud

Our love went from ashes to a bud

You removed the mask you wore so long

Now you are back with God where you belong

Through all His redeeming grace

Our marriage found a new starting place

So my friends what can I say?

You have to pray to God each day

What can get you through the worst?

In your marriage, God must come first

Don’t fall for the tricks of the evil one

Don’t let your marriage come undone

His words are smooth but they are not true                                                                           Don’t let the devil come between God and you

Be careful of the seeds you sow

Guard your heart with the truth you know

Be careful of the mask you wear

Let Jesus carry the cross you bear

Remember when you first fell in love                                                                                       Love each other, look to God above

Don’t let the devil come and destroy

Don’t fall for his games, his ploys

Even though you once believed he who lied

Because of God, our marriage survived

The devil tried but he isn’t winning                                                                                          With God our end became a new beginning

This story is scary because it is true

I will pray it doesn’t happen to you

But if it does, it doesn’t have to be the end of your story

Let God use your struggles and pain for His glory

If I Told You by Jason Walker – The perfect song for this post. Please listen.

Masqerade by Jonathan Thulin – 

Change This Heart by Sidewalk Prophets – 

You Are Loved by Stars Go Dim – 

Behind The Mask by Eric Clapton – 

Something More by Secondhand Serenade – 

You Don’t Know How Beautiful You Are by Jon Foreman – 

Sick Charade by Letter Black – 

The Real Me by Natalie Grant – 

In A Hole Again by Tesla – 

Giving It Up by Kristian Bush – 

Love Heals Your Heart by Third Day – 

First Song I Sing by Sara Groves – 

Give Me Jesus by Jeremy Camp – 

You Loved Me First by MikesChair – 

Let Me See Her

 

My neck hurts from looking behind

A memory flashed and I lost my mind

I wasn’t here but in another time

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

It’s like I take one step forward and two steps back

I pray to God to let me move but I sit here while the devil attacks

I’ve been here so many times I think I’ve lost track

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

I know God that she’s your daughter

Let me see her like You do

I know in your hands you got her

Let me see her like you do

I know what she did , that’s not her

Let me see her like you do

It’s crazy how life got in the way

We grew apart until that fateful day

That’s the day she decided not to pray

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

Oh God let me forget, I just wanna forget

Maybe the lesson to be learned hasn’t happened yet

Her sins are forgiven , You paid that debt

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

I know God that she’s your daughter

Let me see her like You do

I know in your hands you got her

Let me see her like you do

I know what she did , that’s not her

Let me see her like you do

Oh God I’m tired of being angry

Oh God I know this person isn’t me

Oh God help me to see, help me to see

Oh God Help me to forgive

Oh God I just want to live

Oh God to Your will let me submit

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

Let me see her God like you do

Let me see her God like you do

Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath – 

Daughter Of The King by Tricia Brock – 

In The Eyes by 1 Girl Nation – 

Father’s Eyes by Mark Schultz – 

His Eyes by Steven Curtis Chapman – 

Beloved by Jordan Feliz – 

Beloved Child by Tru-Serva – 

Beloved by Lara Landon – 

 

Close Your Eyes by Michael Buble –  

 

Angry

If It’s Only An Hour

 

Many of us always seem to be too busy to spend time with our significant others. I know my wife and I are really bad about making times for ourselves. It is something we always talk about but seldom do. We get up early to work or work out, we go all day and Kylie goes to bed at 9:30 then we are right behind her, getting rest for the next early morning. However, I know there is time if we make it. What about you? Do you make the time? 30 minutes, an hour, if that’s all you have make them count.

If It’s Only An Hour

If it’s only an hour

To help our love flower

Then I will take the time

To keep our love alive


 

If it’s only sixty minutes

Then I will buy  the tickets

We will dance to each song

We will keep this love strong


 

If it’s only three thousand six hundred seconds

In each and every one I will be present

We will laugh and talk

We will hold hands as we walk


 

If it’s only sixty minutes

This my dear, you can believe it

I will  reconnect with you

I will do everything I can do


 

If it’s only an hour

I will do all that’s in my power

To show you what our love  means to me

To show you, show you  what I see

Until God gives us another hour

Sway Blue October – 

Disconnected by 5 Seconds of Summer  – 

Together by Steven Curtis Chapman – 

Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars – 

I’m Yours by Jason Mraz – 

Love Like Crazy by Lee Brice – 

When The Crazy Kicks In by Francesca Battestelli – 

Restored by Matthew West – 

Restore by Chris August – 

When We Love by Love and the Outcome – 

Chocolate and Ice Cream by Plumb – 

Beautiful by Plumb – 

Better Man by American Analog – 

The First Bud Of Spring- A Love Story

 

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It was a long, cold, dark winter. One that she didn’t think would ever end. There was snow, rain, and sleet. A couple of times there was enough ice to nearly break the branches on the trees. The little girl held on. She waited for the warmer weather, the better times, the warmth of the sun. She knew it would come, it was just a matter of time. As she waited patiently, she would say her prayers, she would thank God for protecting her and her mommy and daddy during these cold, dark, winter nights.

Finally, the day had come. The first bud of spring appeared out of the ground. The bud peeked out of her shoot and could feel the warmth surround her. She was filled with so much joy that, at first,  she didn’t notice she was the only bud sprouting. After basking in the warmth of the sunshine for a few minutes she looked around, startled that she was the only one. Where was everyone else? Was she going to be all alone? Did she come out too soon? Was colder weather coming back and she would die because of her eagerness to sprout? She was filled with fear and doubt but she stayed strong. She knew God had a plan for her. It was then that a little girl saw her and started yelling for her dad to come see the new flower. The little girl was so excited that the bud could not help but smile. Her excitement was contagious.

 

A little while later another bud awakened. He also took a moment to take in the warmth around him. He then looked to see if the others had awakened and that was when he saw her. She was within inches of him and he knew he would love her. It didn’t take long for her to notice him either, even though it took the help of a little girl yelling “Look, daddy, now there’s two!”

 

They welcomed the spring with all the other buds that started to awaken. With all the other flowers around them, they knew they were meant for each other. When the rains came, he would lean towards her to cover her petals. When the strong winds came they would lean into it together, holding stems. They were inseparable. When the bees came they opened their petals for them so they could spread their seeds to other lands where there were no flowers. They also knew that the bees relied on their pollen to take back to their hives for food. It was a beneficial relationship.  Everything was new and exciting.

Then summer came. It was a scorching summer, one like they had never seen. There was no water. Many flowers died but not our couple. They shared what they had with each other. Every little drop of moisture was shared between them. Luckily, they were also planted where they had shade for part of the day. They counted the hours down together until they were cooled by the shade. Every once in awhile the little girl would come out with a can of water and help keep them alive. They were often too tired to open their petals wide enough for the bees to come but they did their best. They knew the only way to survive this summer was with the help of others. They prayed their prayers for rain, for cooler temperatures but it was not to be. Sometimes in life, God doesn’t answer prayers and there are reasons only He knows why. They had reached a point in their relationship that they were still together, but they didn’t talk much. Too much too worry about, too much life got in the way. When was their next rain drop, how would they make it through another day without food, why couldn’t they be like they were in the spring? Did they waste this whole season of their life? They knew better because they still shared the little water they had, they still  protected each other but the excitement was gone.

Before they knew it Autumn was here. They had made it through the difficult summer and were enjoying another season of their life. The rains came again, as well as cooler weather. When he looked at her she was still the most beautiful, most loving, most caring flower in the garden. When she looked at him he was still the bravest, strongest, most handsome flower this side of Eden. They held each other’s petals more each day, knowing that their days were winding down. They reflected on the spring and the summer. Days when their love was new and days when they didn’t know if they would make it. They thought of their seeds spread far and wide, soon to be new flowers that would spread their love and beauty around the world. It wasn’t easy, they had moments of doubt but they fought for each other, they fought for their love. They survived.

Soon the cold winds blew again. They held on for as long as they could but with each passing day, their petals would fall off. They knew it wouldn’t be long now but they held on for each struggling moment. Relying on each other to get by. Praying for just one more second. She was the first to go, as she was the first to sprout. He wasn’t far behind her.

 

The little girl, all bundled up from the cold,  looked at her daddy and said, “Look, daddy, the first two here are they last two to leave. I wonder if they were happy here, I wonder if they were in love.”

“Now, now,” said the daddy, “we know flowers can’t fall in love but if they could, those two would definitely have been like me and your mom. Through all the seasons and all the weather, the rain, the sun, the cold, they were standing right beside each other. Holding petals all the while.”

The little girl giggled. Through the cold, dark, winter nights she was safe as she anxiously waited for the first bud of spring to blossom again.

I Will Be Here by Steven Curtis Chapman –  

Then by Brad Paisley – 

Stand By You by Rachel Platten – 

Love Like Crazy by Lee Brice – 

The End Is Not The Answer by Three Days Grace – 

Worth Fighting For by Nine Days – 

When I Said I Do by Clint Black – 

Forever Changed by Carrie Underwood – 

Remind Me by Brad Paisley and Carrie Underwood – 

Would You Go With Me by Josh Turner – 

I’ll Stand By You by The Pretenders – 

Meant To Be by JJ Heller – 

What Faith Can Do by Kutless – 

 

 

Patching Walls and Scrubbing Floors

A great country song title don’t you think? It turned out more like a poem but put in the right hands and with some reworking I think it would make a good country song.

This has been bouncing around in my head for 67 days and this weekend I think it all came together. Do any of you have 37 drafts like I do? I have some as old as 152 days that I hold on to. Sometimes I look at my drafts and say that was 83, or 41, or 152 days ago? Seems like just yesterday that thought was in my head.  Sometimes a  thought pops in my head, or a title and I write it down to finish later. Sometimes its a few lines and sometimes it’s a couple paragraphs but then it stops, waiting for God to finish it.

Let me know if you like it. Have a great Leap Day. What are you doing with the 24 extra hours this year?

Patching Walls And Scrubbing Floors

Patching walls and scrubbing floors

Replacing broken dishes, replacing doors

What happened to our love?

 

Yelling words that keep the neighbors awake

Slamming doors hard enough to cause a quake

Why is there so much bad blood?

 

You’re not the same and neither am I

We stare in disbelief and wonder why

How did we get to this place?

 

We keep playing these head games

I know we are both to blame

Can we have a heart to heart, face to face?

I pull my hair out, frustration sets in

Halfway through I wonder why did we begin

Are you still here?

 

Have you checked out, want to be anywhere else

We have our children, quit thinking of your self

This was my worst fear

Can we get to where we were before?

Instead of patching walls and scrubbing floors

Do we walk away or give it one more try?

 

Were all these years just a mistake?

Was our love for each other fake?

Do we talk it out or say one last goodbye?

 

Are we just actors in a movie, playing our role

On to the next scene, same ole same ole

I don’t want to be in this movie

 

I’m here, let’s take that first step

Look to the future and try to forget

Take a good look at you, a good look at me

There is only one way to heal, to make us better

We need to look to the One who brought us together

‘Cause I’m done fighting these wars

I’m done patching walls and scrubbing floors

If We’re Honest by Francesca Battestelli –  

House Divided by Josh Wilson – 

Restored by Matthew West – 

I Don’t Wanna Fight by Westlife – 

Don’t Know What You Got Til It’s Gone by Cinderella – 

Until It’s Over by Oleander – 

Do I by Luke Bryan – 

Angry All The Time by Tim Mcgraw – 

Take It Back by Toni Braxton & Babyface- 

Fighting For Something by The Wrecking – 

Love Is Not A Fight by Warren Barfield – 

Tired of Fighting With You by Barenaked Ladies – 

Feel Again by Blue October – 

Losing Ground by Tyrone Wells – 

Fight For It by Estelle – 

What Are We Fighting For by John Berry – 

Exhale by Plumb –