I came home from work Friday night and Kim told me Deanna, one of her best friends and mentor, told her about a vision her daughter had. Her daughter just finished her freshman year of college and truly lives for Jesus. Deanna said maybe Rob can turn her vision into a poem or a song. I took Kylie up to get her shower ready and sat down and this is what came out.
It is truly an inspiring vision and I hope my words do it justice.
Gave You My Heart
I gave you my heart and you walked away
You’re my dad, you were supposed to stay
I couldn’t keep it all together today
I grabbed what was left of my heart and walked to the beach
Walked far enough until your memory was out of reach
I screamed at you dad until I was too hoarse to speak
Then I saw a piece of sea glass so bright
It had such a mysterious light
It was like a piece of day in the darkest night
I bent down and dug with my free hand
There had to be more pieces under the sand
That’s when I felt the presence of another man
It was like a dream as my other hand held my heart
The one that you, dad, had ripped apart
Then I had a thought, this isn’t the end but a brand new start
I felt this man telling me to turn in his direction
But I couldn’t so I grabbed my sea glass collection
And I tried to hold a piece just right to see his reflection
I couldn’t turn around, I knew what he wanted me to do
I couldn’t give him my heart dad, I had given it to you
And I was scared he would walk away with it too
Then his hand touched my shoulder
My courage grew just a little bit bolder
My tears started to flow as I began to molder
I turned and as he reached for me I saw the scars on his hand
He looked at me and I knew he wasn’t just a man
That’s when I dropped my sea glass in the sand
I let him hold me for what seemed like an hour
I could feel his gentleness, as well as his power
I felt his love pour down on me like a summer shower
I whispered, “If I give you me heart will you walk away?”
He said “I’m your father. I’ve never left, I will always stay.”
I knew he was telling the truth so I gave my heart to him that day
(image credit: Kevin Carden Photography)
Busted Heart ( Hold On To Me) by For King and Country –
I wrote this one around the same time I wrote the one from yesterday. It’s when I gave up and gave her to God that is when things started to change. I felt at peace and God started to change Kim. It’s when I listened to God and let her go and gave her to Him.
Sometimes when your at your wit’s end and you keep trying to fix it yourself, you just need to stop and give it to God and let Him do the work.
In case you missed it, here is the post from yesterday:
A few years back, my wife and I went through a very difficult time. Through the many days and nights of fighting and lost sleep, nothing was changing.
In a moment of quietness, when I had all but given up, I heard God’s voice. It’s the only time I have ever heard God’s voice, at least so clearly.
I heard a voice say let her go. It startled me actually. It was so clear that I looked around the room to make sure I was alone. I, on the brink of giving up anyway, said that’s what I was going to do anyway. Then I heard the voice say, no, let her go to me. This isn’t about you.
I then wrote this.
Also, for those of you who don’t believe God can speak to us in this world today, when we were going through this a lady we barely knew at our church sent Kim an email. She said I don’t know what you are going through, but God told me to send this song to you. It was Need You Now by Plumb which was exactly what my wife, and I, needed to hear.
Just remember when you are experiencing something terrible, maybe it’s not about you. Maybe God knows you are strong enough to take it and will use you to help someone else.
I wrote this one a few years back and have been saving it for when I get my big break in the music business but since that is not likely to happen, YET, I have decided to let it out into the world.
Picture you are at a concert, maybe Skillet or Ashes Remain or Jeremy Camp, and they are singing and when they get to the chorus and sing You will know, the crowd sings back who we are.
We watched the waves roll to the sea
My God, My Music, My Life 