Been A Long Time (video)

Been A Long Time

Been a long time since I picked up the phone

But tonight, the demons have come back home

And damn, I’m not feeling all that strong

And I really don’t know if I want you to say hello

My hands are shaking at what you’ll be thinking

First thing you’ll ask is have I been drinking

I’m about to hang up when it starts ringing

You pick up and I say I’m sorry, I don’t know

And you say it’s okay, tell me what’s on your mind

And we sit in silence as the words are too hard to find

And I ask, do you ever wish we could hit rewind?

Before there was a me and you, before the scars

Damn, I was happy before it all got messed up

I was okay before we fell in love

And I always believed I was enough

Now I can’t unbreak my heart

And I know there’s nothing you can say

I’m trying to get through this day

Trying to believe something good will come my way

And I’m sorry I picked up the phone

Just feeling like the darkness has taken over the light

And it’s so hard to keep on fighting but I fight

And I really don’t know why I called you tonight

Guess I was hoping to feel a little less alone

Friends Like That (storybook)

I have started trying to find something different to try to stand out so some of my posts I’m making storybooks with.

Hope you enjoy.

Friends Like That

Always been several old timers

Saturday mornings down at the diner

No one sits in the corner booth

That’s where them boys stretch the truth

Talking politics and about their wives

And how that fish was twice its size

Harley’s not around to join them anymore

But when the bell rings they look at the door

I pay my bill and tip my hat

Wishing I had friends like that

But how to be a good friend I’m still learning

I am back at the diner Saturday morning

The boys come slowly walking in

And I noticed Tom is missing

Hear them say it’s a damn shame

And how death won’t take his name

And I listen to them as they tell their war stories

How they laugh and cry at the memories

Then the door opens and the bell rings

They stop talking, look up ,wishing the same thing

When they hold their breathe in silence

I can feel their pain in those few seconds

Then they’re back to recalling when

Saying how grateful they’ve been

I can’t help but smile as they remember back

And I can’t help to wish I had friends like that

The Horse That Learned To Trust Again (video)

The Horse That Learned To Trust Again

There was a horse that frolicked in the fields all day. When he got tired or hungry, he would walk to the big apple tree that stood by the creek. He would grab an apple and lay down in the shade of the tree. He grew up with that tree and he loved that tree.

He thought the tree would always be there.

But late one afternoon, as the horse sat under the tree, a terrible storm came to the farm. It came so fast that the horse was caught off guard and had to stay under the tree for shelter.

But as the winds roared, the rains poured , the thunder rolled and the lightning stuck, the horse was feeling uneasy.

Then the tree was struck by lightning. As it caught fire, sparks flew down and the horse’s mane caught on fire. He ran out into the rain to save his mane and ran to the barn as fast as he could.

As he stayed in the barn, he started thinking how could the tree do this to him? He had spent a lifetime with that tree. Why would the tree hurt him so?

He spent several days in the barn. Depressed and anxious about going back into the fields. But as the days went by, he became lonely, and his belly started grumbling.

He took a few tentative steps into the field and he wondered if he would ever be okay again. Would he always feel this way?

He looked back at the barn and started to wonder if he could really trust it, even as it had never given him a reason not to.

Days went by and he started to heal and he would sometimes look at where the charred remains of the tree stood.

Sometimes he missed the tree. Sometimes he missed the apples and the shade.

But as each day passed, he grew more into who he was meant to be. He grew stronger, he grew healthier, and he found the true love and happiness that was inside of him.

He looked at the barn and smiled, because he even learned to trust again.

It’s Hard For You Too

You asked me to the movies

Shared your raspberry Icee

Asked if I wanted some of your popcorn

All these things you’ve never done before

You move to sit a little bit closer

I’m wishing this movie wasn’t over

It’s so hard to smile when it’s done

Fighting the tears about to come

You may never say the words out loud

But you might miss having me around

Saying goodbye to your friends

As your new lives begin

And I know this because I was there too

Caught between two worlds that are pulling you

I know the last few years have been tough

Remember you are loved, you are enough

Listen, because it’s so easy for me to see

You are a better human than I’ll ever be

Smart , beautiful inside and out, and confident

And out of all the people on this continent

You need to take care of you, ask for help

It’s okay to not be okay, take care of yourself

I will always be here, one call away

Call, text, Snapchat, anytime night or day

I know if you read this you’ll say it isn’t true

It’s okay, because I was once in your shoes

So go out into this world and make your mark

You’ve been given wings, time to fly, time to start

Don’t be afraid to fail

Take care of your mental health

No matter where you are I’ll be in the stands

Because, my daughter, I’ll always be your biggest fan

Looking through your windshield

While looking in your rear view

Letting you go is hard for me

But I know it’s hard for you too

This Is Not Goodbye by Sidewalk Prophets-

Biggest Fan by In Paradise –

These Are The Days by Cory Asbury –

They Grow Up Too Fast by Jimmy Charles –

I Pray You Find Your Way

Good morning heron, out here all alone

Do you ever wish you could sing a song?

It’s nice seeing you in the morning light

Don’t leave heron, why do you take flight?

Is there something you are seeking?

Is there something you are needing?

Do you like being out here by yourself?

Do you ever wish you were something else?

Is flying away a game you like to play?

Trust me heron, I’m not going to chase

I’ve chased after things prettier than you

And that’s something I no longer will do

I don’t need the drama or the games

I’m looking for someone who wants to stay

I’m only chasing after things that give me peace

Things that put my heart, mind, and soul at ease

I wonder heron, will you ever settle down?

Can you break down the walls so that you can be found?

It’s a wonderful gift to be truly and fully known

To be able to feel safe in your own home

I was surprised you weren’t here this morning

Wherever you are, I hope you’re soaring

To be honest, I kind of missed you today

So silently I say, I pray you find your way

God, I Need A Win

God, you know I’m still saying my prayers at night

But now when I’m done I look at the stars and sigh

‘Cause, honestly, I feel like giving up the fight

God, I need a win

God, I know you know who I am

So I know you can understand

I think too much about your plan

God, I need a win

I can only shed so many tears

I’m missing my smile that’s disappeared

Wondering when it’ll reappear

God, I need a win

God, sometimes I feel all alone

Wandering this world without a home

Sometimes, I’ve all but given up hope

God, I need a win

God, I’m not going to lie

I’d be okay with a tie

An answer to my why

God, I need a win

God, even if it’s only temporary

The eye of the storm so I can have time to breathe

Need a minute so this doesn’t overwhelm me

God, I need a win

This journey, am I at the beginning

In the middle, closer to the ending ?

I hate to ask, but are you listening

God, I really need a win