I Was Thinking…

IMG_1078IMG_1131I took last week off from posting because we were on vacation in Florida. We drove like we always do and that gave me time for thinking.

I was thinking I would try to do one new post last week and reblog some of my older ones but the wifi didn’t work that well. It was hit and miss for some reason and I didn’t want to spend hours waiting for it to work. Maybe that was God just telling me to relax and not worry about posting.

I was thinking I was going to run every day. I remember when I was younger I would wait until the middle of the day to run in the summer time. I liked running in the heat. I ran 3 the first day, 5 the second day then missed the next two days. Planned on running 10 miles but cut it short at 7. It was too hot and humid, 73 and 90% humidity average every day, at 7:30 in the morning. The old me would’ve toughed out the 10 but the wiser, older me said call it and live for another day. Being in the sun all day and that 7 mile run I think beat me so I missed one more day.  Then I put mind over matter and did 5, 5, 3 three days in a row. Got used to the heat and humidity.  Overall, I guess 6 out of 9 mornings wasn’t  bad.IMG_1224

I was thinking on the drive back how much it costs taxpayers for states to put up mile marker signs every tenth of a mile. It used to be one every mile marker then they had to add one for every tenth, why? Sure, if you are broke down you can give a more exact location but I think they could find you if you said I am between mile marker 3 and 4.

I was thinking who would want to live in Atlanta? I’m sure it has a lot of positives but traffic is a nightmare. Yes, call me a fool for driving through instead of around.  This is at 10 pm. IMG_1300

I was thinking I am getting too old to be driving straight through to Florida. 17-18 hours straight.  My wife helps out some but by the time I get tired it’s one in the morning and I feel bad asking her to drive at that hour. I worry about drunk drivers and her falling asleep so I try to tough it out.  Let me tell you what helps, Arbonne energy fizz. Two or three of them and I am awake. My wife is an Arbonne distributor if you want more info.

I was thinking at two in the morning I need to find a way to get all my thoughts and ideas down. I can’t talk into a recorder and wake every one else up. Anyone have ideas on something that can read your thoughts and put them down in writing?

I was thinking one of the best chorus I have heard is NF’s Mansion song.

Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I’m trapped in
And it’s lonely inside this mansion

How many of us are chasing perfection, but have broken legs and will never get to perfection.

And then parts of two verses really speak to me :

Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See my problem is I don’t fix things
I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happen
Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?
Come upstairs and I’ll show you what I mean
This room’s full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it’s hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep

So this part of my house, no one’s been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don’t let no one in there
Cause if I do, there’s a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
Cause I don’t want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I’ll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I’m barricaded inside
So stop watching
I’m not coming to the door
So stop knocking, stop knocking
I’m trapped here
God keep saying I’m not locked in
I chose this
I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the world out ain’t solving the problem
But I didn’t build this house because I thought it would solve ’em
I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there
But it’s not, I’m not the only thing that’s living in here
Fear came to my house years ago I let ’em in
Maybe that’s the problem
Cause I’ve been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it’s obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I’m in the position it’s either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
Cause in order to do that I’d have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don’t know anymore

Yes I am partial to it because it reminds me of what’s in my head. Also looking forward to his new cd coming out, Therapy Session. Sounds like it will speak to me.

 

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I was thinking how we are all like sand on the beach. Some of us get blown about by the wind and water, always trying to find where they belong and who they are. Find God, you will find who you are. Some of us are always getting in other people’s shorts, irritating and leaving some marks. Most of us are all in this together, there for everyone to enjoy and to spread the love of who God made us to be to everyone who we come in contact with.

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I was thinking how great is God. The sunsets and sunrises.  His forgiveness. His grace. The gifts He gives all of us to further His kingdom. How some of us are like Jonah and try to run away, others are like Peter and deny our savior to save ourselves. How some of us are like Judas and betray Jesus. How some of us are like Noah and just say yes God, whatever you want. The most amazing thing is how He loves us all the same and gives us all the same forgiveness.  IMG_1218IMG_1252

I was thinking I could post a lot more if I didn’t put music to each one but then that’s part of why I started so…

Mansion by NF – 

Did You Really Think by Wess Morgan – 

Don’t Believe Everything You Think by Lee Brice – 

Rest Stop by Matchbox Twenty – 

Don’t Think I Don’t Think About It by Darius Rucker – 

New, Forgotten, Unknown 3/25/16 New Music Friday

No new musician followers this week. Please feel free to share/purchase the song I wrote with Lily Messer and Ceylon Wise. I have many more songs I would like to get out there but can not financially afford to record them. If interested in teaming up together, feel free to contact me.

 

Thanks for all the follows, musicians and non-musicians.

Some other music from non-followers and followers I have listened to this week.

 

Modern Love by The Coasts –

 

Tambourine by Elton John – 

 

When I’m Gone  by Joey & Rory –  

 

Stay Close , Let Go by Manafest –     

 

Take Me Back Trusted  by Meredith Andrews –  

Vertigo by Phases –

Old Moon New by Randy Rogers Band –    

 

Pay It Forward by Rick Springfield –  

 

Never Ending by Rihanna –  

Oh My Love by The Score – 

Suburbia by Troy Sivan –  

Reasons For The Tears I  Cry Made by Vince Gill – 

 

The Train by Macklemore and Lewis – 

Used To by Mutemath – 

White Horse by Kevin Max – 

and our song:

I Question You by Lily Messer – 

On Itunes :  https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/i-question-you-single/id1018588943

Dear God, Are You Hearing My Prayers?

 

Dear God,

Are you hearing my prayers? I have been praying the same prayer for as long as I can remember but my prayer isn’t being answered. Is there another way I can reach you? Can I  send an email, text, tweet, Facebook message, any other way? Can You at least send me a message received? Should I keep praying or should I move on to another prayer? Do You get tired of hearing the same prayer every day?

Am I asking for too much? Am I asking with little faith? I don’t think so. Is my heart sincere? I think so. You say ask and it will be given to me. I believe in You and believe You will answer my prayer request. I just want to make sure You are getting it. I know you probably get more prayer requests each day than there are grains of sand so I could understand if one or two get missed. I’m not saying you miss any or anything, just saying I understand if You did. How do you keep track of all of them anyway?  Health requests go in one file, relationships in another, financials in another or are they grouped by person or country?

Back to my prayer, sorry I got sidetracked. I seem to do that when I pray also. Can you figure out what I am asking when I start then go elsewhere then come back to you ten minutes later right where I left off?  Sorry but my mind is constantly going, thought in, thought out, start, stop, start, where was I? Oh yeah,  as you know I have been praying for people I know to get their health back, to even get partial health back. I am sure to be 80% would be a lot better than where they are now. It seems like some of them are getting worse. Or they get better only to relapse. Some of them have a much stronger faith than I do and I know they are praying to get better also. It is okay to pray for themselves right? I know I pray for me. Fix my mind God. Are their prayers stuck in your inbox also? Have you checked your spam folder? I know there are many  people out there that pray for bad things or things they shouldn’t be praying for so maybe they go straight to spam so you don’t have to even acknowledge them. Maybe some honest prayers get stuck there also.

 

I don’t know God. I am just throwing ideas out there why my prayers aren’t getting answered. How about just send me a sign that you received it and will get to it when you can get to it?  I know maybe my prayer requests are probably far down on your list. Look at all the evil in the world. The people starving. The homeless. The lonely. The deathly sick. The enslaved. The persecuted. I pray for them also and honestly, I know answers to my prayers can wait so You can take care of all those worse off than me. Those with more urgent requests. Please take care of those first. I totally understand.

Just in case you have missed them here is what I pray for. I pray for my wife and daughters, God. I just pray that they walk with You in this life. I pray for my friends and family to get their health back and to trust in You. I pray for my church to follow You, the truth. I pray for my job to stay secure. I pray You heal my mind and help me resist temptation. I thank You for giving me another day to rely on You. As You know that is the super condensed, none rambling version. Whenever You can get to them. I will try to be patient while You take care of the ones that need Your help more than I do.

I have noticed as I get older my prayers have changed. Those things I prayed for in my youth, I am glad You didn’t answer a lot of those prayers. I could only imagine what kind of mess I would be in now if You had. I have learned to be a lot more patient than in my youth. I can only imagine where all the people I prayed bad things to happen to would be if You answered them. I am glad You ignored them. I am glad You handled those situations in Your way  and not my way. Even if Your way was just to give them grace and mercy. I am  glad You didn’t answer people’s prayers about me either, extending me that same grace and mercy.

I also just want to say thank you God for answering prayers I didn’t ask for. Giving me what I didn’t know I wanted or needed. I also want to thank you for answering my prayer to use me a few years ago. It was not the way I wanted You to use me but it has made me a stronger person. It also helped my wife be closer to You.

Thanks for taking the time to listen. More prayers coming your way. I will trust in You and wait for your answers, even if your answer is an unanswered prayer. You know what is best for me.

 

Healing by Blessid Union Of Souls – 

Pray by Manafest – 

Unanswered Prayers by Garth Brooks – 

Pray For Me by Kirk Franklin  – 

If His People Prayed by Casting Crowns – 

Somebody Said A Prayer by Billy Ray Cyrus – 

Sinners Prayer by Deitrick Haddon – 

Say A Prayer by Veridia – 

Pray It Down by 7eventh Time Down – 

Pray For Me by Sixx Am – 

Pray About Everything by Luke Bryan – 

Pray by Sanctus Real – 

The Power Of Prayer by Matthew West – 

One Prayer Away by Jonathan McReynolds – 

A Mother’s Prayer  by Rachel Aldous – 

The Marriage Prayer by John Waller – 

Let Us Pray by Steven Curtis Chapman – 

Just Pray by Moriah Peters and Rhett Walker – 

I Pray For You by John Rich – 

I Only Know To Pray by Sherry Anne – 

Pray For You by Blessid Union of Souls – 

 

 

Not Broken Anymore

 

As I was getting my thoughts together to write this and  I  asked myself this question. Was I ever really broken?  Sure, I have a few dents in my fender and some scratches in my paint but was I broken. I think I have felt like I was, many times. Is there a difference between being knocked down and being broken? Is it all just a matter of how you think about it?

This is how, and why, I think I am broken. Or at least why I have broken pieces.

I am broken because I have no close friends. I take all responsibility for this because I don’t reach out to anyone. I don’t reach out to my family enough so don’t take it personal. Sometimes I envy people that have a lot of friends but then I hear them complain how they are always having something to do and never have time to relax. Then I say I don’t know how anyone has time. Maybe I am selfish and just want my time to be my time. I would rather spend my days and nights off with myself or my family. I find it hard to stay in touch with people on Facebook let alone take the time to do something with them. But, with that being said, I also miss having a couple close friends I could talk to about anything. I know I have to take the time to invest in that and I don’t have the answers on how to do that without giving up something else. Maybe it comes down to my lack of trust. Maybe I am just not that interesting of a person for others to take their time to get to know me.

I am broken because my marriage isn’t where I want it to be.  Well, whose is right? We all wish we had a better marriage. Again, this falls mostly on me.  I am not a talker. I will give all the time I can but I am just not an open book. Too many thoughts bouncing around in my head. Trust issues from the past. Every time I think of doing something to make our marriage better I get sucked into what’s the point. We can talk about the issues and it gets better for a few then we find us back where we were. Don’t get me wrong, I love my wife and don’t want to be anywhere else and our marriage is good, it’s just not where I think it should be. Maybe my expectations are too high. Maybe I don’t give enough. Maybe I think it’s more about me than her. A lot of maybes but how can I get from here to there. I know what to do, what’s holding me back?

I am broken because I am not emotional.  Miss the game winning shot, make the game winning shot, I have the same emotions. At times I think if everyone close to me were taken out of my life that I would feel nothing. Life goes on. Would I really feel that way if it happened? Beats me. At times I think I could live on a deserted island with just me and some fruit trees and I would be okay. Oh yeah, don’t forget to give me a volleyball so I have someone to talk to when I get tired of talking to myself. But that’s not really a problem because I don’t talk. I doubt I would talk to the volleyball.

I am broken because I don’t keep in touch with my family. Yeah I know, life is short and it can be ripped away and say what you have to say today because tomorrow isn’t guaranteed but…. I don’t call home to talk to mom enough. I barely have any contact with my brother. I should reach out to my daughters who are not at home anymore more. Yep, these are  on me also.

So am I broken? I know what is wrong. 99% of it is all me so maybe I am not broken. How many people are out there that don’t know they are the problem. How many people are out there that are searching for who they are. I know who I am . I have come to understand who I am and where I want to be. I just have to take the steps to fix me. I would say maybe I am not broken, maybe I just have broken pieces.

They say I am made in God’s image. God must be messed up. Even God disappeared for many years. People were constantly asking God where are you? Maybe He is an introvert also. Or just likes to get away by Himself and take a look at what He has made. Does He still think it is all good?

I know God isn’t messed up. I know He loves me and accepts me for who I am. I know I am made in His image. I know this world has made me the way I am. Not God. I know He will take my broken pieces and put them together. I know it takes effort on my part. God doesn’t make mistakes. I know where I am and where I need to go. With God’s help I will get there. It may not be today, it may not be tomorrow but one day… one day it will all click. I am not sad or mad or any of that. I just know I have something that needs to be fixed.

I know I have family that loves me. I know I have friends that think about me and pray for me. I know God loves me. You can take me off your worry list. I will be okay. I know I have it a lot better than most. I know through the pain and the rain there will be a joy and the sun one day. I know things are never as bad as they seem. I know to put me back together again I just need to take one step at a time until all the broken pieces are fixed and I am not broken anymore. I have broken pieces but I am not broken. I am whole in the hands of the one who made me.

Not Broken Anymore by Blue October – 

The Broken by 3 Doors Down – 

Tell Your Heart To Beat Again by Danny Gokey- 

Take Us Back  by Mavis Staples – 

Broken Places by Plumb – 

Fix Me by Icon For Hire – 

Scars by Jonny Diaz – 

The Broken Beautiful by Ellie Holcomb – 

Broken & Beautiful by Mark Schultz – 

The Broken by Bebo Norman – 

All The Broken Pieces by Matthew West – 

We Are The Broken by Seventh Day Slumber – 

 

New, Forgotten, Unknown 3/18/16 New Music Friday

Two new musician followers this week. I hope by me sharing your music that you will get more fans to listen to your music. Please feel free to share/purchase the song I wrote with Lily Messer and Ceylon Wise. I have many more songs I would like to get out there but can not financially afford to record them. If interested in teaming up together, feel free to contact me.

Want You Back by Austin Hafner – 

Hollow Man by The Tosspints –  

Thanks for all the follows, musicians and non-musicians.

Some other music from non-followers  I have listened to this week.

 

I’ve Got Two Wings by Elton John – 

 

It Is What It Is by Lecrae – ] 

 

Glory by Meredith Andrews –  

Like I Do by Brian McKnight – 

Oceans by The Coasts – 

Romance In The South by Frank Foster – 

Only God Knows by Green River Ordinance – 

Suppertime  by Joey & Rory – 

No Kind Words by The Macabees –

Shine , Pray by Manafest –   

Take Us Back by Mavis Staples – 

Sunrise by Meredith Andrews –  

Running Away by Phases – 

Neon Blues by Randy Rogers Band –  

Never Heard The Music by Rich Mullins – 

That One by Rick Springfield – 

 

One More Mistake Made by Vince Gill –  

Things That I Lean On by Wynonna & The Big Noise –  

 

and our song:

I Question You by Lily Messer – 

On Itunes :  https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/i-question-you-single/id1018588943

Expecting A Harvest

 

I was looking at our garden to get an idea of what to plant where this year. I didn’t do so well last year. It was the first year I planted the seeds, my wife usually does. I either planted them too deep or we bought a bunch of bad seeds. I can’t imagine all the seeds we bought were bad so I would have to say the former.

The only thing that produced all summer was broccoli. By the end of summer we had a bunch of tomatoes and peppers come up. We finally had lettuce after I reseeded the area. Everything else was pretty much a dud. Unlike the year before when we had abundance and gave a lot away.

Strangely enough we had carrots pop up. I didn’t plant carrots. The wife planted carrot seeds the year before but we didn’t get any. Now two years later, they were here.

I have big plans this year for a big harvest. I ripped out the raised beds and will be tilling the area so wish me luck. I believe, I know, the wife will be planting the seeds. She obviously can do that a lot better than I can.

Isn’t our walk with Jesus a lot like a garden.  He who made us gives us a choice to believe in Him or to not believe in Him. We can either plant a garden or not plant a garden. We all have seeds to plant.

If we choose to believe in Him and choose to plant a garden then we have to listen to His words, seeds, to help us grow. We have to believe in His plan for our lives during the rainy difficult seasons and the dry hot seasons. To produce good fruits you need rain and sunshine.

We have to tend to our faith and to our garden. We have to discern what is good in our lives and take care of the good. We have to get rid of the weeds. We have to prune. We have to read the Bible, follow His word. Take out what is bad in our life and cut out the things that get in the way of us moving forward.

 

I have to protect my garden. I have to keep the rabbits, squirrels and chipmunks out or they will eat it all. They will destroy our garden if not. I have to protect my life.  I have to keep the devil and all his minions out. I have to not believe his lies, his tricks, and his schemes or they will destroy my life.

When the time is right to pick the ripe vegetables and fruit, we have to do it then to produce more.  Just like when God gives us the opportunity to share our faith we should do it then. Not wait for the next time you see them or the next opportunity.  I know I have failed in this area many times and then I never see the person again. I have to quit walking in fear and pick the produce when it is ready to be picked.

Seeds. I plant the seeds and wait for them to grow. Some come up quicker than others. Some are bountiful and others are not. Just like in life we plant seeds and wait to see the results. Some we can see right away, others take months and even years to ripen. Some we may never see ripen. They may not happen in our lifetime. But we, as Christians, have to keep planting the seeds and let God be the gardener. The seeds I plant can be the words I say, my actions, a smile, anything that would show Jesus in me.

I welcome the sun, I welcome the rain. I will look to God to bring a good harvest. I will plant the seeds the best I can and wait for God to bring the seeds to life. Both in my garden and in my words I share with you.

Send The Rain by William McDowell – (the last 2 minutes where he talks) – 

Send The Rain by William McDowell – 

The Harvester by Brandon Heath – 

Sow Good Seeds by Mavis Staples – 

Find Your Wings by Mark Harris – 

Like Jesus by Son of Adam – 

Love Like Jesus by Rhett Walker Band – 

Planting Seeds by Nimo Patel – 

American Farmer by Alabama – 

Amarillo Sky by Jason Aldean – 

Bring On The Rain by Jo Dee Messina – 

I’ll Grow My Own by Chris Cagle – 

 

The Drummer

CAM00118I’m the drummer. I sit in the back and you will probably never know my name. I am hardly ever in the spotlight. I am confident in my abilities. I do not need to be in the front. You usually won’t catch me singing. I’m the drummer.

I’m the drummer. I keep the beat going. If I mess up, it messes the entire song up. I can’t mess up. The singer can mess up, get winded and miss a word or two, can even start to sing the wrong lyrics but I can’t mess up. I have to play my best every night. I can’t have an off night.

I am the anchor of the band. I keep the rhythm and time going. I can push the beat faster or slow it down. I don’t do any fills that don’t need to be done. I listen to the rest of the band. I help keep the timing of the song in check.  You can feel the power in my arms and legs. You can feel the beat in your heart. You can feel the energy build as I pick up the pace, sweat dripping off my face.

I’m a drummer. I can play anything. Country, rock, pop, hip-hop, gospel, Christian, alternative- you name it, I can play it. I can identify what a song needs and play it with the right sound and feel to make you feel it.

A band with a strong, reliable, confident, dynamic drummer is a band with a strong foundation.  Think of me as the engine of a car. All the parts working together but without me, the car won’t go anywhere. Don’t get me started on drum machines. There is nothing like a live drummer. Drum machines will never replace what I can do. What I can bring to the rest of the band.

I have the best seat in the house. I see the rest of my band mates. I pick them up if they are having an off night.  I can see you, my audience. I feel your energy bouncing off mine. There is no other feeling like it. Can you feel the bass drum? Can you hear the clash of the cymbals?  Can you feel my heartbeat?

Reminds me of someone I have come to know. His name is Jesus. He has the best seat in the house.  He is the driving force behind the rest of us, his band. He has perfect time and rhythm. If you turn away from Him, your song will be a mess. If you are having an off night, He can pick you up. He sees us, hears us, watches us. He is our biggest cheerleader. He wants us and loves us.

If your heart and His heart beat in time, you can feel Him. You can hear Him. There is no one else like Him. There are others that try to be like Him but they are only drum machines. They will never ever replace Jesus. Listen to His voice. Listen to his beat. Do you hear it? Can you feel it?

Dedicated to my dad. He could play anything I brought home by ear.

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Bang The Drum All Day by Todd Rundgren – 

Wipe Out by The Surfaris – 

John Bonham Drum Solo  – 

Neil Peart (Rush) Drum Solo – 

Jen Ledger (Skillet) Drum Solo – 

Drum Solo from the movie Whiplash – 

 

 

New, Forgotten, Unknown 3/11/16 New Music Friday

One new musician follower. I hope by me sharing your music that you will get more fans to listen to your music. Please feel free to share/purchase the song I wrote with Lily Messer and Ceylon Wise. I have many more songs I would like to get out there but can not financially afford to record them. If interested in teaming up together, feel free to contact me.

Remind Me by Conrad Sewell – 

Thanks for all the follows, musicians and non-musicians.

Some other music from non-followers and followers I have listened to this week.

Detour Sign by Aoife O’ Donovan – 

The Driver by Charles Kelley –  

Hide Away by Daya – 

Boots On The Ground by Frank Foster – 

Keep My Heart Open by Green River Ordinance – 

Good Kings Highway by Kevin Max – 

Cruising  by Lecrae –  

Growing Up by Macklemore and Ryan Lewis –  

Dedicated by Mavis Staples – 

Deeper by Meredith Andrews – 

Cooler by Phases –  

The Best Damn Thing by Rick Springfield – 

If I Stand by Sidewalk Prophets (Rich Mullins cover) – 

I’ll Be Waiting On You by Vince Gill – 

He Gotcha by Virtue – 

Jesus and a Jukebox by Wynonna & The Big Noise – 

and our song:

I Question You by Lily Messer – 

On Itunes :  https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/i-question-you-single/id1018588943

Mentality of a Runner

The mind is a funny thing. I think it is especially true to runners, at least for me. It seems no matter how many races I run, I always wonder if I will finish this one. Keep in mind I have never not finished a race. Not with a torn meniscus during a marathon. Not with running a half marathon without training for it, after not running for almost 16 months prior because of the torn meniscus. No, I did not have surgery. I believe God healed it because I can run still. You can read about it here:  https://mygodmymusicmylife.wordpress.com/2015/06/07/my-running/

The worse part of all of it is my mind is stronger than my body at this point. I get frustrated because I’m not where I think I should be. Of course it seems like it’s one injury after another. All these little nagging things. I wasn’t injured for 43 years then the last 3 years is killing me.  I don’t think I will know what it will feel like to run at 100%, if I ever get there. One day I feel good and go out and run 2 miles at 7:18 pace. Next day I go out and do 10 miles at 8:00 pace. I start to think I am almost back to where I was. Then a few days later I go out to run 10 with my wife and can’t do 2 miles without stopping.  My mind wanted me to go but my body wasn’t cooperating. Can you say frustrating?

I won’t give up. I may have to stop but I won’t give up. I have to keep telling myself it has only been 3 months since I have been able to run good at 20 miles per week. Rome wasn’t built in a day but my mind says you have done this a million times, why are you struggling?

Part of me says stop until you are 100% and other parts of me say keep going, it will slowly get better.

I have been doing some cross training just to do something on days when I can’t run. Here is another part of how the mind works. I do box jumps and can do all three heights: 20″, 24″ and 30″. No matter how many times I do them, my first attempt I hesitate. At the 20″ height even. It’s like you can do this, you have done this many times but the mind says wait a minute here, think about this, can you do it?  Once I get the first jump in the mind switches to how many times can you do it?

 

Here is another kicker. I try to out-think myself during races. If I say I want to beat a certain time, I usually don’t. If I tell myself I don’t care how I do, I do awesome. My two fastest times are when I didn’t care how I did. So why don’t I go into every race saying I don’t care how I do? Good question.

Then for most of the longer races I run there are pacers. If you are not familiar these are runners that hold up a little sign with the time they will finish. The most comfortable races I have ever felt is when I got with the group I wanted to finish with and stayed there. Until I start to out-think the pacer and tell myself this is too slow. What are they going to do, sprint the last mile to make up the difference? They can’t be right at this pace. Let me tell you, they are right. One half marathon, the first I ran with a pacer, I felt good for 7 miles then decided the pacer was going to slow and I took off, only to have the same group pass me at mile 12 and I finished behind them.

The other time I ran with pacers was the first marathon I did. My wife and I ran with the 3:45 group and we were rocking  it. After 15 miles I was telling my wife this feels easy. Then she had to use the bathroom and I tore my meniscus and well, now I am where I am now.

I have found running with a pacer takes my mind out of it, which is a good thing. Why don’t I run with pacers all the time? Another good question.

I know I am mentally strong. I finish what I start. I don’t think a lot of people would be doing what I am doing with the injuries I have. Maybe I am just stupid. If I could just get my mind to heal my body… in God’s time and in His will to do so. I wait patiently, sometimes. Other times, c’mon, heal me so I can run. There is something for me to learn in all this.

It is also like that in my walk with Jesus. Some days the devil take my mind and put thoughts in my head like you will never get back to 100%. Here we go again, another frustrating day, just give it up.

 

Jesus  takes my mind and washes it new. He reminds me He died for me. He tells me I can do it. I can do all things through Him.

Bad things happen, bad days happen. You have to have the mentality to get back up, brush yourself off and get back on the right track. Jesus is with you. Never ever give up.

We Won’t Give Up by The Afters –  

Running In The Rain – Motivational – 

Never Give Up – Motivational –  

It’s Possible – Motivational – 

Rise and Shine – Motivational – 

Running With God – Motivational – 

Champion by Nelly – 

I Won’t Give Up by Jason Mraz –  

Don’t Give Up by White Lion – 

We Will Never Give Up by Sanctus Real –  

 

 

My Interview With The FDA

 

Disclaimer : This is not a real interview unless you count the voices in my head as being the ones interviewed.

Why isn’t this even being discussed in our political debates. I have read that more than 2/3 of U.S. adults are considered overweight. By eating a more nutritious diet, many diseases related to heart diseases, strokes, diabetes, and cancer can be reduced by $71 billion a year. With rising health insurance rates, the quickest and easiest way to reduce health costs is in our food, and to be more active.

My interview with the FDA : For the first time the FDA has set a daily cap for sugar. The goal is for Americans to limit added sugar to no more than 10 percent of daily calories. That amounts to most people about 12.5 teaspoons, or 50 grams, per day. That is the same as one can of Coke. Add low fat yogurt, granola, whole grain breads , ketchup, pasta sauce etc. Dr. Frank Hu, a member of the dietary guidelines committee, states there is a lot of hidden sugar in our food supply, it’s not just in sweets.

Me: Thanks for meeting me today, and congratulations on setting a limit on what our sugar intake should be.

FDA: Thanks for having me, it was a long time coming, we knew we had to do something.

Me: Let’s get right to the meat of it, what difference will it make if you set the limits of 50 grams per day but no one in the food industry changes the way they make our food.

FDA: It’s about choices and what you eat. You have to see that if you have more than the 50 grams of sugar we recommend it is not healthy for you.

Me: I take a look at my refrigerator and say I eat one Yoplait Yogurt , now with 25% less sugar, 2 pieces of wheat bread- dry, and a glass of 8 oz of cold milk, I am at 36 grams. I haven’t even left my breakfast table and I am one 8 oz glass of milk away from almost being 50 grams. What am we supposed to eat the rest of the day?

FDA: Like I said, it is all about the choices you make. By the way, milk isn’t included because it is not considered an added sugar. Lactose is considered a natural sugar.

Me: (staring at him in disbelief) Thanks for clearing that up. So I am down to 25 grams of added sugar, half way to our “limit” per day and I just finished breakfast. For dinner I have spaghetti with 3/4 cup of sauce, which has an astounding 21 grams of added sugar in spaghetti sauce. Do you not regulate these industries?

FDA: Yes we do.

Me: Then why would you allow companies that make spaghetti sauce to add so much sugar? By The way, I had a salad with my spaghetti with two teaspoons of salad dressing, another 6 grams of added sugar. It was “fat-free” also. Now I am over 50 grams and I didn’t even eat lunch.

FDA: Choices you make as a consumer affect how and what you eat. You have to stay away from processed foods.

Me: (flabbergasted) Stay away from processed foods? 80% of the grocery store is processed foods. The 20% that isn’t is priced where a lot of families can not afford them. They are forced to eat processed foods.

FDA: Is that a question ?

 

Me: According to my research the FDA :

  • Protects the public health by assuring that foods (except for meat from livestock, poultry and some egg products which are regulated by the U.S. Department of Agriculture) are safe, wholesome, sanitary and properly labeled; ensuring that human and veterinary drugs, and vaccines and other biological products and medical devices intended for human use are safe and effective

FDA: That is correct.

Me: I read an article where Michael Taylor, the FDA  deputy commissioner for food states: “We simply do not have the information to vouch for the safety of many of these chemicals,” said Michael Taylor, the FDA’s deputy commissioner for food.  At a pace far faster than in previous years, companies are adding secret ingredients to everything from energy drinks to granola bars. But the more widespread concern among food-safety advocates and some federal regulators is the quickening trend of companies opting for an expedited certification process to a degree never intended when it was established 17 years ago to, in part, help businesses. A voluntary certification system has nearly replaced one that relied on a more formal, time-consuming review — where the FDA, rather than companies, made the final determination on what is safe. The result is that consumers have little way of being certain that the food products they buy won’t harm them.

“We aren’t saying we have a public health crisis,” Taylor said. “But we do have questions about whether we can do what people expect of us.”

FDA: I have not read that article nor can I comment on it at this time.

Me: Why not attack the food industry that the FDA has allowed to put so much sugar and other junk in our foods for the benefit of making a dollar instead of recommending unattainable guidelines on how much sugar we should have?

FDA: We are in the process of..   (I rudely interrupt)

Me: What can you tell me about the foods that are banned in other countries but is still allowed in the United States. Foods such as pink slime, that is used as an additive to bulk up cheap meat. Found in: Hot dogs, burgers, chicken nuggets. Health Hazards: This ‘meat’ is more likely to carry pathogens because it’s pulled from the bone. Banned in: European Union.

Genetically Engineered Foods that are modified for insect resistant but cause damages to animals and humans alike. Found in: Papayas, corn, and many other crops. Health Hazards: Animals fed GE foods have suffered intestinal and organ damage, tumors, birth defects, premature death and in some cases, sterility by the third generation. Banned in: Austria, France, Germany, Greece, Hungary and Luxembourg.

Synthetic hormones that are added to our beef and milk cattle. Health Hazards: Cancer Banned in: European Union, Japan, Australia, and China.

The poison arsenic which is added to chicken to make their veins look pinker and healthier. I don’t know about you but I would rather eat a healthy chicken instead of one given poison to give the appearance of healthy. Health Hazards: Cancer Banned in: European Union.

Ractopamine is a drug that makes its way into most pig and cattle feed. Similar stuff is commonly used in asthma medication and makes animals more muscular while reducing fat and increasing profit margins. Health Hazards: Weight gain, increased heart rate, insomnia, headaches, and tremors. Banned in: This additive has been banned in the European Union, Russia, and even China.

Brominated Vegetable Oil (BVO) is an emulsifier – it stops flavouring from separating and floating to the surface of sports drinks. The main ingredient, bromine, is a poisonous chemical used in flame retardant that is considered corrosive and toxic. Health Hazards: Thyroid issues, autoimmune disease, major organ system damage, birth defects, growth problems, schizophrenia, hearing loss and cancer amongst rats. Banned in: Over 100 countries.  Can I repeat that, banned in over 100 countries but still legal in the US.

Shall I continue?

FDA: I believe this interview is over. Have a good day.

Me: Wait, I have more. Color additives such as red 40 and yellow 5 are artificially created from coal tar and petroleum. Research has shown that bland coloured food is far less appealing to customers, so companies pump food full of this stuff. Found in: Pretty much everything we eat, from candy to macaroni and cheese. Health Hazards: Brain cancer, nerve-cell deterioration, and hyperactivity in children. Banned in: Much of the European Union.

Olestra. This fat substitute has been known to cause anal leakage and reduce the amount of vitamins found in the human body. Found in: Fat-free chips Health Hazards: Oily anal leakage and vitamin depletion Banned in: UK and Canada, amongst many others.

Antibiotics are commonly used on US farms to promote animal growth and combat the unnatural and squalid conditions of their pens. Around 80% of all antibiotic use in the US is in cows, salmon and other animals. Found in: Meat Health Hazards: The overuse of antibiotics may be linked to an increase in drug-resistant bacteria that make people sick. Banned in: European Union, Australia and New Zealand.

Where are you going? Don’t the citizens of the United States deserve better food?

 

I really don’t have any good songs to go with this so..

Mr. Jaws by Dickie Goodman – I remember listening to this on 8 track. It’s funny how some things stick with you. It had the Streak and Camp Grenada on it. Think it was a K-Tel or something. 

Interview by Carly Simon – 

Questions by Jack Johnson – 

Complicated Questions by Finger Eleven –