Why Not Me?

On November 28, 2017November 14, 2017 By roberthansen1317In cancer, Christian life, poems, PoetryLeave a comment

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You look at me with tears in your eyes

Begging, pleading, asking God why?

You say I am too young

Too much life left to be done

High school graduation, jobs, marriage, children

Heroes and villains and all that will remain hidden

I am telling you it’s okay

I smile and simply say

Why not me?

Maybe it has to be

If it’s God’s plan and it’s my time

Then in His hands I will be fine

A plan

We can’t understand

A better lesson learned

A life being returned

My heart given to someone new

My kidneys will be donated too

My lungs will help someone breathe

Parts of me will continue to be

Maybe a foundation in my name

Will raise enough to change the game

In the meantime don’t be sad

Remember the time we have had

A lifetime wrapped up in just a few short years

When you cry let them be joyful tears

Things happen that only He can see

So I ask again, why not me?

Why should it be yourself

Or even someone else?

I am strong, brave, and courageous, can’t you see?

That is why I say why not me?

I trust in God’s plan so I don’t ask why me?

Let your smile be the last thing I see

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If you would like to help, there are many foundations to donate. Here are a few:

http://www.championforchildren.org/portfolio-item/lindseys-wish/

https://www.sambishfoundation.org/

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Little Giants by Tay Barton –

Sing Me To Heaven by Bradley Walker –

Kola by Damien Jurado –

Braid My Hair by Randy Owen –

Thy Will by Hillary Scott –

No One Fights Alone by Christian Spear –

Temporary Home by Carrie Underwood –

I’m Gonna Love You Through It by Martina McBride –

Let Mine Slip Away

On November 27, 2017November 27, 2017 By roberthansen1317In Christian life, marriage, poems, Poetry10 Comments

I heard Sleeping In The Stars and I could picture a couple through all the years and the words poured out.

Then I decided at the end why not do a soundtrack so listen along to the story.

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I remember our first date

It seems just like yesterday

The way you smiled and played with your hair

I remember thinking, God this isn’t fair

The way she’s stealing my heart

I could see the end as we start

We talked all night and into the next day

We held hands and I didn’t let mine slip away

It was a beautiful day for late July

It didn’t compare to my beautiful bride

You walked down the aisle and our eyes met

How your smile lit up the church I’ll never forget

We said I do and I could forever see

I couldn’t picture my life without you and me

We danced throughout the night and into the next day

We held hands and I didn’t let mine slip away

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We rushed to the hospital saying it was too soon

She was due in August and it was only June

We prayed she would be alright

I held your hand oh so tight

Eighteen years and now she’s on her own

Time flew by as she had quickly grown

We held her hands as she went on her way

A tear slipped my eye because I didn’t want mine to slip away

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Through all the years and ups and downs

We were legends in this small town

Everyone thought we had it all together

But we had nights that seemed like forever

Sometimes we held on just by our fingertips

Sometimes life can be one strange trip

When we went to bed at the end of each long day

We held our hands and I didn’t let mine to slip away

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The doctors didn’t know if you would make it to Christmas Day

I knew what they didn’t, you were stubborn that way

You smiled and I played with your hair

I thought to myself, God this isn’t fair

For just one more day, one more minute I was begging

But I knew the years we shared were a blessing

A savior given, an angel taken as Christmas Eve turned to Christmas Day

I held your hand, I didn’t let mine slip away

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It Happens Like That by Granger Smith-

I’ll Name The Dogs by Blake Shelton-

Legends by Kelsea Ballerini-

Bein’ A Dad by Chris Janson-

Damn Good At Holding On by Tim McGraw and Faith Hill –

The Best Part Of Me by Lee Brice –

Five More Minutes by Scotty McCreery-

Five More Minutes by Granger Smith –

Sleeping In The Stars by Tim McGraw and Faith Hill-

Food For Thought- Happy Thanksgiving

On November 22, 2017November 22, 2017 By roberthansen1317In Christian life, poems, Poetry9 Comments

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A watermelon will not grow in your stomach if you swallow the seed

Who thought I’ll cover grasshoppers in chocolate and call them a delicacy?

Would you eat a puffer fish knowing you might die

If the chef didn’t prepare and cook it just right?

How many times did people eat oranges with the rind

Before someone decided to peel one for the first time?

The same for a banana, who decided to peel?

Believe it or not, here is some food that is real

Would you eat fried tarantula if you didn’t live in Cambodia?

A scorpion or a rat if you didn’t live in China?

What about a fertilized duck embryo, feathers, feet and all?

Birds nest soup? Live octopus? Sheeps head? A wine made from a seagull?

Makes you happy that we will eat a turkey

Some mashed potatoes, noodles, and green beans

Jello salad is not that healthy

But have you had rattlesnake chili?

Of course I am sure some people would never eat a pop tart or a twinkie

Ketchup on scrambled eggs or mashed potatoes with gravy

Who thought to roast a marshmallow? Can you roast a Peep?

A Hamburger Donut? Pickled pigs feet? Not for me

Baltic Sea Herring, winged termites or frog legs?

Turtle Soup or Witchetty grubs? Not even if you beg

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Rocky Mountain Oysters, let’s just say they are not seafood

In Italy they eat a cheese with maggots in it called Casa Marzu

Now go enjoy your dinner this Thanksgiving

I pray you won’t eat anything that is still living

Whether you are eating a little or eating a lot

Remember those who today will eat not

And one more thing, even though it is not food for thought

What color would a chameleon be if it stood in front of a crayon box?

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The Day After Thanksgiving by Brandon Heath –

I Know What It’s Like

On November 17, 2017November 17, 2017 By roberthansen1317In Christian life, poems, Poetry4 Comments

I know what it’s like to feel all alone

I know what it’s like to be a stranger in your own home

I know what it’s like to have words to speak

Only to have them not come out when our eyes meet

I know what it’s like to have your heart broken

By words that should’ve been left unspoken

I know what it’s like to walk the streets of NYC and feel like the only one there

I know what’s it’s like to have someone who loves you say they no longer care

I know what it’s like to lose and to mourn

I know what it’s like see the joy of a life born

I know what it’s like to fake a smile

I know what it’s like to go the extra mile

I know what it’s like to be rejected

I know what it’s like to feel neglected

I know what it’s like to struggle with fear

I know what it’s like to shed a tear

I know what it’s like to feel like I don’t matter

I know what’s it’s like to wonder why I can’t hear the laughter

I don’t know what it’s like to be crucified on a cross

I don’t know what it’s like to die for all those who are lost

I don’t know what it’s like to perform a miracle

I don’t know what it’s like to be thought of as only mythical

I don’t know what it’s like to look down from Heaven above

I don’t know what it’s like to shed a tear for all those I love

I know what it’s like to be at the bottom of despair

I know what it’s like to feel His hand there

I know what’s it like to be forgiven

I know what it’s like to be still and listen

I know what it’s like to feel His touch and my heart leap in my chest

I know when I move on from this life in His home I won’t be a guest

I know what it’s like to experience His grace

I don’t know what I will do when I actually see His face

I know what it’s like to look the devil in the eye

I know what it’s like to thank God I am still alive

Do You Know by Tonic –

Life Ain’t Always Beautiful by Gary Allan –

Good To Be Alive Today by Michael Franti –

Beautiful Life by Seventh Time Down –

Awful Beautiful Life by Darryl Worley –

Good To Be Alive by Andy Grammer –

Good To Be Alive by Jason Gray –

Good To Be Alive by Meghan Trainor –

Good To Be Alive by Skillet –

Your Choice

On November 17, 2017November 17, 2017 By roberthansen1317In Christian life, Fathers-Daughters, marriage, poems, PoetryLeave a comment

When I first started this I was thinking it would be about old friends or old relationship, like Adele’s Someone Like You song. Then I heard RaeLynn’s Love Triangle and it went a different direction. Hope you like. Dads, be there for you kids, no matter what. They need you in their life. The statistics of how children turn out without a father in their lives are not good. Be there. Be thankful for them. Love them. Be thankful for forgiveness. One of the most important things you can do as a dad is to love their mom. Show them what a real man and a real father and a real stick it out, work it out relationship should look like.

When I left it wasn’t your choice

It must be strange to hear my voice

After all these years

After you cried a million tears

“I’m sorry I was wrong.”

“I should never have left you for so long.”

“I’m sorry I decided to leave.”

“I know that must be hard for you to believe.”

“I felt like there was no other way.”

“When I packed my bags and left that day.”

“Your mom has raised you well.”

“You’re beautiful inside and out I can tell.”

I could also tell I had scarred her

Her first question, “Why didn’t you try harder?”

“Wasn’t I worth trying?”

“Do you know how many nights I spent crying?”

“I promise daddy, I could’ve been better!”

“Don’t you think I was worth one call, one letter?”

“I know you and mom had your troubles

But why did you keep me outside your bubble?”

“Do you know many nights I yelled into my pillow at you?”

“Do you know how many days I wondered what did I do?”

I just stared at her, how could I cut her out of my life?

There was nothing I could say, she was right

She had so many questions that hurt me so

But nothing like the pain I caused her I know

I cried my first tear

I let go of all my fears

All the times I could’ve

All the times I should’ve

I let them all go, left the past in the past

Here she was in front of me at last

I asked, “Will you ever forgive me?”

“I did dad, a long time ago can’t you see?”

“I prayed for you!”

“I waited for you!”

“I did have so much anger and hate

But God taught me that love was the only way.”

“As hard as it was I slowly learned to forgive

So that I could learn to live.”

“I opened up the walls surrounding my heart.”

“Here I am dad, willing to give us another start!”

I lost it all, I crumbled in her arms

I promised her I would never again harm

If God could help us reunite

Then I knew I had to give Him my life

Thank you for mended relationships

Thank you God for fixing this

Never again will something come in between

I will spend the rest of my life letting her know how much she means

Love Triangle by Raelynn-

Perfect Story by Idina Menzel –

Every Other Weekend by Kenny Chesney and Reba McEntire-

Two Houses by Matthew West –

Family by TobyMac –

Hey Mom and Dad by Sloppy –

Song For My Father by Sarah McLachlan –

Forgiveness by Matthew West –

Forgiveness by TobyMac feat LeCrae –

Forgiveness Is A Miracle by Jason Gray –

Let Me See Her

On November 10, 2017November 10, 2017 By roberthansen1317In Christian life, God in your marriage, marriage, poems, Poetry2 Comments

My neck hurts from looking behind

A memory flashed and I lost my mind

I wasn’t here but in another time

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

It’s like I take one step forward and two steps back

I pray to God to let me move but I sit here while the devil attacks

I’ve been here so many times I think I’ve lost track

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

I know God that she’s your daughter

Let me see her like You do

I know in your hands you got her

Let me see her like you do

I know what she did , that’s not her

Let me see her like you do

It’s crazy how life got in the way

We grew apart until that fateful day

That’s the day she decided not to pray

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

Oh God let me forget, I just wanna forget

Maybe the lesson to be learned hasn’t happened yet

Her sins are forgiven , You paid that debt

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

I know God that she’s your daughter

Let me see her like You do

I know in your hands you got her

Let me see her like you do

I know what she did , that’s not her

Let me see her like you do

Oh God I’m tired of being angry

Oh God I know this person isn’t me

Oh God help me to see, help me to see

Oh God Help me to forgive

Oh God I just want to live

Oh God to Your will let me submit

Let me see

Let me see

Let me see her

Let me see her God like you do

Let me see her God like you do

Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath –

Daughter Of The King by Tricia Brock –

In The Eyes by 1 Girl Nation –

Father’s Eyes by Mark Schultz –

His Eyes by Steven Curtis Chapman –

Beloved by Jordan Feliz –

Beloved Child by Tru-Serva –

Beloved by Lara Landon –

Close Your Eyes by Michael Buble –

If I Could Say Something

On November 10, 2017November 10, 2017 By roberthansen1317In Christian life, marriage, poems, PoetryLeave a comment

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Standing here, too afraid to speak

Oh God, when did I become so weak?

Standing here, unable to move

Lost and I haven’t a clue

I wish we both weren’t so angry

I wish I could just say I’m sorry

But I just stare in disbelief

Wide awake but still asleep

I used to hold you so tight

Now we sleep with a light

Where did it all go so wrong

Maybe I can find it in a country song

Instead I sit waiting for the light to change

This all just seems so strange

How the words used to flow

Now, they have nowhere to go

I open my mouth to silence

The words are being defiant

I shake my head and look at you again

I remember the spark from back then

If you could only read my mind

You would know I’m trying to try

I close my eyes and you’re still there

You always will be the answer to a prayer

Red light will always turn green

If I could only say what I mean

But the words remain unspoken

And your heart remains broken

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Trains Go By by Josh Ritter-

Use Your Words by Jessie James Decker –

Rut by The Killers –

But We Lost It by Pink –

Silence by Grace Carter-

Say Something by A Great Big World –

Waiting For The Light To Change by Tonic-

Too Late To Tell You Now by Burn Halo-

This Disease

On October 31, 2017October 30, 2017 By roberthansen1317In cancer, Christian life, Lyrics, poems, Poetry4 Comments

For Cancer Awareness Month, an old post

I have been going back and forth, fighting myself on whether or not I should put my lyrics on here. On the plus side, maybe my words could touch someone without being in a song. On the negative side, what if someone used my lyrics without my permission. Anyway, in honor of October being breast-cancer month I have decided to put this one on here. I can hear how I want it to sound in my head but, unfortunately, God didn’t bless me with the talent to write music.

I wrote this 2/10/15 when I was in Kroger one day and saw someone in a wheelchair and the words just started coming out. I wrote if for cancer but a friend of mine said he could see this disease as just being sin in general. I had never thought of it like that but I can see it like that also.

I would still like to turn my lyrics into a song but finances are not what they need to be for me to do that. I would love to have Lily Messer sing it. Or the girl who sings Thank You by Jesus Army. Or Lauren Daigle. Or maybe there is a voice out there I haven’t found yet that will reach out to me. All my attempts so far have failed but I am not discouraged. God will take the words where they need to go and the rest will be history.

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For those that have cancer, or any disease, I pray that you will find strength in the one who made you. I pray you will find comfort in His arms. I pray that you will fight.

This Disease

This disease is tearing me to shreds

Some days I can’t get out of bed

I still have a voice to pray

That You, God, can heal me today

I’m okay if this is the day I die

In you I know I will always be alive

Behind these tears know I’m at peace

I’ll miss this world but I’m ready to leave

I know I’m coming home

I know they won’t be alone

Your arms will comfort them like they have me

In Heaven, I will be rid of this disease

Thank you for giving me time on this earth

Thank you for dying, to show me what I’m worth

Thank you for giving me your words, your life

Thank you for dying so I can be alive

I’ll be an example, I’ll fight to the end

I pray that I’ve been a good friend

But when I breathe my last breath

As my time in this world is put to death

I know I’ll be coming home

I know they won’t be alone

Your arms will comfort them like they have me

In Heaven, I will be rid of this disease

Let them know I didn’t give up

That they will always have my love

I’ll be watching them as they grow

I pray that You they will get to know

It’s time to leave this disease behind

Your eyes they look so kind

As my soul leaves this body

I’m coming home to You God

I know I’ll be coming home

I know they won’t be alone

Your arms will comfort them like they have me

In Heaven, I will be rid of this disease

This disease didn’t win

Your love was always within

I Run For Life by Melissa Etheridge –

Healing Hand of God by Jeremy Camp –

My Story by Big Daddy Weave –

Through All Of It by Colton Dixon –

Your Hands by JJ Heller –

Believe by Elisa Lynee –

No One Fights Alone by Christian Spear –

Hold On by Dominic Camany –

Hope by Capri Ruberto Anderson (Capri Canada) –

I’m Gonna Love You Through It by Martina McBride –

My Everything by Owl City –

It Is Well By Bethel Music –

The Mask

On October 30, 2017October 30, 2017 By roberthansen1317In Christian life, poems, Poetry, the mask you wearLeave a comment

This is my last Halloween post. I hope you enjoyed the stories. If you missed any be sure to go back and check out The Maze, The Funhouse of Mirrors and The Haunted House.

Even though I am no Edgar Allan Poe this is the scariest yet ( but don’t worry, it has a happy ending.) We all wear masks! This mask story is just one of many I could tell. It is a true story and it could happen to you. Not that the other stories weren’t true- that’s up for you to decide. Reader beware!

You wake up each morning

Ignore all the warnings

With a smile on your face

Our love was being replaced

Breakfast made and the kids are dressed

Don’t even know their lives are about to be a mess

Out the door they go to school You let the devil make you a fool

I come home from work

But you’ve been digging in dirt

You show me that beautiful smile

Right now, you are just in denial

You wear a mask of past shames

Yet, you continue to play games

You say you aren’t the one to blame

The mask of your past caused this pain

You where the mask of lies and deceive

Your family is the one you leave

You’re wearing a mask

Did you think this would last?

But you can’t hide it well

Did you think I couldn’t tell?

Oh love, what have you done?

Was it all just for fun?

You’re tearing our world apart You’re breaking our kids hearts

Fast forward through the hurt and lies

Fast forward through the tears we cried

Fast forward through the pain What did you think you had to gain?

I gave up and God stepped in

“Now let me take all this sin, ”

He whispered to me “it’s not about you,

I want you to stay until I am through”

He walked us through the dirt and mud

Our love went from ashes to a bud

You removed the mask you wore so long

Now you are back with God where you belong

Through all His redeeming grace

Our marriage found a new starting place

So my friends what can I say?

You have to pray to God each day

What can get you through the worst?

In your marriage, God must come first

Don’t fall for the tricks of the evil one

Don’t let your marriage come undone

His words are smooth but they are not true Don’t let the devil come between God and you

Be careful of the seeds you sow

Guard your heart with the truth you know

Be careful of the mask you wear

Let Jesus carry the cross you bear

Remember when you first fell in love Love each other, look to God above

Don’t let the devil come and destroy

Don’t fall for his games, his ploys

Even though you once believed he who lied

Because of God, our marriage survived

The devil tried but he isn’t winning With God our end became a new beginning

This story is scary because it is true

I will pray it doesn’t happen to you

But if it does, it doesn’t have to be the end of your story

Let God use your struggles and pain for His glory

If I Told You by Jason Walker – The perfect song for this post. Please listen.

Masqerade by Jonathan Thulin –

Change This Heart by Sidewalk Prophets –

You Are Loved by Stars Go Dim –

Behind The Mask by Eric Clapton –

Something More by Secondhand Serenade –

You Don’t Know How Beautiful You Are by Jon Foreman –

Sick Charade by Letter Black –

The Real Me by Natalie Grant –

In A Hole Again by Tesla –

Giving It Up by Kristian Bush –

Love Heals Your Heart by Third Day –

First Song I Sing by Sara Groves –

Give Me Jesus by Jeremy Camp –

You Loved Me First by MikesChair –

Shadows In The Dark

On October 27, 2017October 25, 2017 By roberthansen1317In Christian life, poems, Poetry2 Comments

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I have a story to tell you

It is hard to believe, but I swear it’s true

I hardly believe it myself

But it is a story I must tell

You see just last night I saw shadows in the dark

I swear it’s true, cross my heart

I know you are thinking, “How can there be shadows with no light?”

I say you are correct, but this world isn’t always black and white

So sit down and listen, let me tell you my story

It won’t take long, in case you are in a hurry

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You see I was walking home, it was the darkest of nights

No where could be found a single light

(Except of course from the windows of a few brave souls up that late)

But their light didn’t cast a shadow for this was my fate

The wind ripped through the trees

I was scared, (but keep that between you and me)

I knew deep down in my bones

I just knew I wasn’t alone

I could feel the enemy all around

They made such a terrible sound

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The gnashing and gnawing gave me a fright

I could hear them, but they were out of sight

I had chills up and down my spine

I felt as if I was running out of time

It was right then and there I said a little prayer

God, if you have just a little time to spare

Even though a lot of bad I have done

Do you think you could help me out some?

It was then I saw the first shadow

He took the lead so I decided to follow

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Soon I saw ten or fifteen more

I felt a peace that wasn’t there before

They told me their names

No two were the same

There was Integrity, Honesty, Compassion and Loyalty

There was Kindness, Forgiveness, Responsibility and Humility

There was Hope, Love, Faith, Joy, Courage and Trust

They told me each one of them also lives in us

They told me we are so distracted by the darkness of this place

That we often do not see them, even when we are face to face

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They walked me to where I needed to go

They left before I could thank them though

I am thanking them now by writing this to you

My friend when you are lost and don’t know what to do

When you are in despair

And think there’s no one who cares

Think of something good, something you can not see

No matter the darkness, there is a light in you and me

There is a light that can penetrate the darkest of dark

You just have to believe with all your heart

That in your darkest of darkest nights

There are shadows that can only be caused by the light

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Save My Life by Sidewalk Prophets –

I Wanna Go Back by David Dunn –

No One Can Steal Our Joy by Tenth Avenue North –

Rise by Danny Gokey –

The Cure by Unspoken –