I’m an introvert

CAM00011I’m an introvert. I don’t talk much. As long as I can remember I have never talked that much. I think there are many things that have lead to this. I don’t like the sound of my voice. I remember being in a group of friends and telling a joke and no one laughed, then 5 minutes later someone else would say the same joke and everyone would laugh. I remember as I became older talking to a group of people and talking about a tragic world event and getting the response “yeah that was bad”. Then 30 minutes later a new person would enter the group and talk about the same subject and now it turns into an hour debate. Maybe I just don’t think I have anything important to say. So I learned to be quiet.

I wrote quite a bit to get my thoughts out only to think no one wants to read these either and trash them.  I would write poems, short stories, etc. with the thought that I should write a book someday. I remember being 5 years old and wanting to write a book when I got older. I also wanted to play professional baseball. I always loved music, almost all of it whether it be country, rock or pop. I didn’t really get into christian music until 2004, when I met my future wife. I have always been a lyrics type of guy though, songs that I could understand and connect to the lyrics and music rather than the beat. I could work out or run to a slow song just as well as a fast song. To me it’s all about taking my mind somewhere else.

As I have grown in my faith over the last two years one thing that has kept coming to mind  is Matthew 28:19 “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations..”   How can I, an introvert, make disciples?? That very day I started to read my devotional for that day and it said when Jesus began teaching, He did not spread the Good News by word alone. The blind received sight, the lame walked, and the dead were raised- all to communicate  beyond words what the Good News meant.  I took this as a sign that I can make disciples by more than the spoken word, which I always felt needed to be done. I can spread the word through my writing. At that time I also heard God say quit throwing away everything I give you to write.

I listened. And I started to write, and write.  Within a few weeks I had 15 songs that I had written. I had an amazing singer and now I needed to get someone to write music. It would come in God’s time. More on this at a later time.

Where am I going with this? I am not a music critic but my experience has taught me I know music. Every season of the Voice and American Idol I always can pick 2-3 out of the top 3. This year I picked Jax to win American Idol, with Clark 2nd and Nick 3rd when they went to top 24.  So I got the order wrong but still had top 3. On the Voice when they got to final 20 I picked Sawyer to win, Meaghan 2nd and Joshua 3rd, and that’s how they finished. In past seasons I have picked Cassadee Pope, I liked her from Hey Monday, and Danielle Bradbery to win but I do have to admit I did not pick Tessanne Chin to win, I had her at 4th that year. Any music companies out there want to hire someone to find new talent?

What do I hope to accomplish by writing this? I pray that through my story some non-believers will turn into believers. I pray that my songs and Lily Messer’s voice will touch some lives and make a difference in them. I pray that you will open your heart, your mind, and your ears to different music and listen to the songs I choose. I will have songs most people know, songs you’ve never heard, some old songs and some new songs. I hope that the music will connect with you like it has me. I hope to get some lesser known bands more of a fan base. One thing I have never understood about the music business is why some bands/singers became huge and others that are just as good never make it out of the coffee shops.

If you are a non-believer I pray you stick with my story, that some of the songs will speak to you and something will  change inside you. Trust me, I will have a lot of songs on here that are not Christian. I believe God has given these artists a talent to be heard also.

Enough writing for today. There are 5 songs that I want to showcase today to get started.

Dear Daughter by Halestorm- I have been a big fan of Halestorm since their first cd. I have 4 daughters so this song lyrically hit me and Lzzy Hale voice, what can I say.  

Fix Me by Icon For Hire- Even though they don’t want to be classified as a Christian band , the lyrics to this song very well could be. Positive lyrics with a beautiful voice.  

In My Room by Thousand Foot Krutch-  the entire tone of this song is beautiful.  

I Tried by We Are Harlot- I originally had another song here that I wanted to introduce but as God would have it, I needed it for a future post. This song is about trying, but sometimes it just doesn’t work. 

Hey Sally  by Aranda – this song connected with me the first time I heard it. No matter how much you mess up, I pray someone will always have faith in you and be there to help you through it all.  New cd Not The Same out in 2015. 

Lastly my church Westerville Christian Church is trying to raise $35k by June 15th,  2015  to send a container of food to a village in Zimbabwe that we sponsor. We did this 2.5 years ago and that container is now empty. If you would like to donate go to http://www.westerville-christian.org

Our first single should be out on itunes in next few weeks. Will update you when I know more. We are trying to raise 2K to get 5 song ep done. If you would like to donate pm me for details. For every $10 donation we will send you the cd when it is done.

Thank you for your support.

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18 thoughts on “I’m an introvert

  1. I’m married to an introvert! He says he’s just wired that way. He also loves music, but we have different tastes. He was a drummer and was asked to play in night clubs with a group but he was only 15. But 6’2″ and very mature. His parents wouldn’t let him, so he quit drumming and the set they bought him collected dust.
    But somehow, he has forced himself to over come speaking in public. He became a deacon but didn’t know that meant he had to led prayer from the pulpit every few weeks! Wow, the first time, he was a wreck and had to write out his prayer. But after a few times, he became more relaxed and really a wonderful spontaneous prayer, not scripted. He still doesn’t like it but he has allowed God to use him numerous times.

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    1. My dad was a drummer also. He played in night clubs since he was before 15. He gave his drums to our youngest daughter and she is playing them and taking lessons. Getting pretty good.
      It is easier for me to write than talk but I am considered a leader at my work and home. I guess you can lead without talking lol.

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      1. LOL, yes, that’s actually what makes leaders so great! I tell people when Bill does finally speak (like in our church’s annual meetings, prayer groups or during a family crisis), you better listen because God is opening his mouth and it will be HIS Wisdom!

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  3. marijo1245

    YOU! are the light of the world…that’s what Jesus said…so shine your light for all to see!!

    I’m glad you are here Mr. Introvert! Thanks for bravely putting thoughts into action!

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  5. “I’m an introvert. I don’t talk much. As long as I can remember I have never talked that much. I think there are many things that have lead to this. I don’t like the sound of my voice. I remember being in a group of friends and telling a joke and no one laughed, then 5 minutes later someone else would say the same joke and everyone would laugh. I remember as I became older talking to a group of people and talking about a tragic world event and getting the response “yeah that was bad”. Then 30 minutes later a new person would enter the group and talk about the same subject and now it turns into an hour debate. Maybe I just don’t think I have anything important to say. So I learned to be quiet”.

    I could havd written this! Word for word, every word. It’s hard to come out of your shell once you go in and realise the comfort and safety there from rejection, put downs and strange looks. I was told I asked stupid questions. That I make silly and ignorant comments. Sometimes I’m too slow in following their conversation and they tire easily in trying to include me, trying to understand me and trying to appreciate me. I’m weird, eccentric, naive or plain dumb, they think and sometimes say. It took me a while to appreciate all that I am and call it unique and beautiful. I found my voice in writing. I discovered without their help and permission that I am witty and fun, smart and insightful. And discovering others who share an understanding of my experience is like…AMAZING.

    Thanks for sharing 🙂

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    1. thanks for reading. It took me a while to appreciate all that I am and call it unique and beautiful. I found my voice in writing. I discovered without their help and permission that I am witty and fun, smart and insightful

      and that is what I have learned as well. I could’ve written that word for word. lol. and I am getting a little better about speaking in person and carrying a conversation.

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        1. lol thanks. God makes all kinds but he only makes one you. I always say I must be from another planet because I think I am so different. I eat an entire pizza or cake and lose 5 lbs. I eat salads for a week and gain weight. I work out extra hard, gain weight. Lay on my butt all week, lose weight. I’m different but I accept and know who I am . Not a lot of people can say that.

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  7. Penny Starcher

    Michael, I don’t know how I got my first comment on this page and not the Memorial page. But I want to to know I’m soo proud of you for being so open. I now understand you better. God has given you a talent and your words will help others to turn to God. His word will not come back void. Keep writing you may never know who you might be helping. Sometimes songs can really help you when your down to lift up and give encouragement. I love you nephew and pray for you every day. I will continue to do so over your writings as well. Love Aunt Penny

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  8. Penny Starcher

    Michael, your dad was drafted at 19 so he left a young man and came back a broken man. It broke his heart the things he saw over there. It took him a while to adjust to being home and living the “normal” life. He did finally come to be more himself but it all took a toll on him as he carried the memories for the rest of his life. I like to honor him as often as I can for all he did and all he gave. I love you, Aunt Penny

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